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Wednesday, February 18, 2026

Ash Wednesday, February 18, 2026

Holy Cross MonasteryWest Park, NY

Br. Scott Wesley Borden

Ash Wednesday, February 18, 2026


 
Ash Wednesday is the official start of the Season of Lent. So, if you haven’t finished all the chocolate, it's too late. 

Lent and Advent have a similar function in the calendar – they both provide a season of contemplation and reflection leading up to the defining events of Christian life; the birth of Jesus and the death and resurrection of Jesus. 

By tradition, there are two primary intentions for Lent. In the first half, we are called to reflect and repent. In the second, our focus is directed to Jesus’ journey to Jerusalem – to crucifixion... and resurrection.  

It is a somber, penitential season. It goes against our modern culture. Of course, standing apart from culture is just where we should want to be as followers of Jesus. 

I want to start by considering what Saint Benedict says about Lent: 

The life of a monk (and for the purposes of this sermon we are all monks...) ought to be a continuous Lent. Since few, however, have the strength for this, we urge the entire community during these days of Lent to keep its manner of life most pure and to wash away in this holy season the negligence's of other times. This we can do in a fitting manner by refusing to indulge evil habits and by devoting ourselves to prayer with tears, to reading, to compunction of heart and self-denial.  

During these days ... let each one deny himself some food, drink, sleep, needless talking and idle jesting, and look forward to Holy Easter with joy and spiritual longing – Everyone should, however, make known to the abbot what he intends to do, since it ought to be done with the abbot’s prayer and approval. Whatever is undertaken without permission of the spiritual father will be reckoned as presumption and vainglory, not deserving a reward. Therefore, everything must be done with the abbot's approval. 

So, walk with me a bit down memory lane... When I was in 5th grade, nearly 60 years ago, a Roman Catholic classmate of mine announced at about this time of the year that she was giving up coffee for Lent. It was rather ingenious. She was required to report something she was giving up to her priest. And since she did not, in fact, drink coffee, she could meet the requirement with no inconvenience. When you are ten years old, this seems like a pretty good answer... 

She even met the spirit of Benedict's caution. She did not have an Abbot to tell, but she was telling the appropriate spiritual authority – her priest. What I have never known is the outcome – I will forever wonder what the priest may have said to her in response. 

St Benedict and my 5th grade classmate have something to tell us about what we do for Lent – in some way they are telling us the same thing... We have developed, in our tradition, the belief that to be really effective, a spiritual practice must be heroic, perhaps even draconian. 

What my intelligent 5th grade friend was engaging in was a practice of non-heroic, minimal rather than maximal displacement discipline. OK – her particular plan may have been sub-minimal... it asked absolutely nothing of her... but erring on the side of minimal may be of more spiritual benefit than we think. 

Benedict's counsel guides us in the same direction. “Let each deny him or her-self some food, drink, etc.” I'm not in 5th grade and I do drink coffee. If I were to implement my classmate's plan in accordance with the rule of Benedict, I might be looking to give up one cup of coffee a day, or to not drink coffee one day of the week... to give up some, not all. 

Benedict is clear in purpose: We will add something by way of private prayer and take away something from food or drink, so that we will have something additional to offer God.  

A heroic form of fasting too easily becomes a spiritual destination rather than a spiritual tool. If I give up chocolate for Lent, then chocolate, or at least that empty space where chocolate used to be, becomes the focus of my Lenten practice. What strange kind of offering is that? 

I love Benedict's particularly moderate approach. He has a list: food, sleep, needless talking and idle jesting. Only talking and jesting get qualifiers, but you don't need to know a great deal about St Benedict to know that he never encourages anybody to go entirely without food or sleep. We are, after all, Benedictines, not Cistercians... Benedict doesn't need to qualify those because we know the rule still calls us to meals and to bed each day. Needless talk and idle jesting imply that there is still room for purposeful talk and perhaps even some jesting – as long as it's not idle... 

The danger lies in presumption and vainglory. They are spiritually deadly. Presumption puts me before God. A particularly severe observance of Lent encourages me to presume that I have or can achieve something important... something especially pleasing to God. That is vainglory – empty boasting. The Kingdom of God is a Kingdom of justice and love... Heroic deprivation does not contribute to either. 

We need to step into Lent, not leap into it, making little adjustments in order to free ourselves from worldly attachments. Massive dislocations and heroic deprivations just change the nature of our enslavement. We substitute a positive attachment – I need another cup of coffee... for a negative attachment – I will not drink coffee at all under any circumstances... no matter how much I’d love a cup of coffee... We’re just as attached, just to the absence rather than the presence.  

On Ash Wednesday we are reminded that we are dust, and to dust we will return. This is a perspective that allows little space for presumption or vainglory. There is no point in attachment, in storing up the treasures of this earth. There is no value in a big and grand show of piety. We are still dust. 

But let me share another perspective on dust... from Dr Liz Watz, one of the instructors for the Jungian Christian Dialogue that Br Randy and I I are part of: We are what happens when love meets dust. Liz does not specify God’s love, and I don’t think she has to. All love is ultimately God’s love. All things are God’s creation. All things are just dust held together by God’s love. 

As Jesus will remind us on Maundy Thursday, we are to love one another as God loves us. The less preoccupied I am with indulging and comforting myself, the more able I am to love others and to love God. And just to be clear, loving God is loving others.  

Repentance isn’t about feeling bad. It's about giving our selves over to the uninhibited and seemingly reckless love that is God. The more I allow myself to live into God’s love, the more able I am to love God’s children and all of God’s wonderful creation. That is the work of repentance... the work of Lent... the giving up of my carefully guarded and metered love for the unbound generosity of God’s love. 

Do I get there all at once? Do I even get there in the span of my life? Probably not. And that’s OK. Jesus calls us to follow, not to arrive. 

As I do the work of reflection that Lent calls for, it will surely be distressing. I fall short – a lot... I’d love to say that I am a pure and holy monk with never an impure or evil thought, let alone deed. But I’m sure my brothers will disabuse me of any notion that this is true... and when needed, I'll return the favor...

If it starts to feel hopeless – then I will try to remember to remind myself that I’m in a process. I’m following Jesus as best I can. And I can take great comfort in the lives of those early followers – Thomas who was filled with doubt... Peter who denied any knowledge of Jesus at all –three times... Judas who betrayed Jesus... The whole drowsy bunch who couldn’t stay awake with Jesus in Gethsemane. I fit right in. Thankfully Jesus calls us as we are. 

Repentance, the turning of my life to follow Jesus, is work that I can do at each step of the journey. And if I get a step wrong, that’s OK. It's not a failure; it's an opportunity to repent – to turn and change direction. 

Wednesday, March 5, 2025

Ash Wednesday, March 5, 2025

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Josep Martinez-Cubero
Ash Wednesday, March 5, 2025


ASH WEDNESDAY
Holy Cross Monastery
March 5, 2025
Isaiah 58:1-12      2 Corinthians 5:20b-6:10      Matthew 6:1-6,16-21

Among all the creatures that inhabit the earth, we humans are unique in that we are conscious of our own mortality. And if we pay attention, we are reminded of this reality every day. Wars, natural fires, mass shootings, earthquakes, floods all remind us of how quickly things can change. We may behold our aging selves in mirrors that reflect the passing of years as we journey closer and closer to our own earthly demise. Or we may experience a nagging pain, a frightening diagnosis, the death of a loved one, or a day like today reminding us that we are made up of the stuff of the earth; dust, the same dust that was once the stuff that stars were made of. And when our life on this earth is over, we shall return to that dust. 

Our liturgy today is infused with this ancient reality, and we are invited to embrace our own mortality because death lies at the heart of what it means to be human. Life is precious because it is fragile. The reminder that we get just this one time on earth, and it is short, and then we die calls us to live to the fullest potential of who we are, and in the words of Henri Frederic Amiel to “be swift to love”, and “to make haste to be kind”. It can compel us to pay attention to where we are going, to look for paths that are grace-filled, and to be alive to all that is possible here and now. Being reminded of our mortality can also lead us to say yes to that call from God we have been missing because we are so distracted and busy trying to control our own destiny.

During the past two months I’ve had the occasion to reflect a lot on my own mortality and the preciousness of life. Back on January 16, I woke up with severe pain, so extreme that I wasn’t sure I could actually get out of bed. In true fashion, I thought: “Oh no, no, pain is not on my schedule for today. I have a class to teach, a choir practice to lead, and I need coffee.” God is infinitely patient with me, and so are my Brothers, so after teaching class that morning and leading choir practice, I made my way to the urgent care clinic while the pain continued to increase. At the clinic, I was told I was experiencing sciatic pain and would need physical therapy. In the meantime, I was prescribed some pain medication and was told I needed to be in bed for the next few days. Now, those who know me well can imagine the terror mixed with annoyance the thought of being in bed for a few days produced in my whole being. But the pain seemed to be increasing by the minute, and liked it or not, I had to stay in bed. 

The next few days were a gift- a very strange gift (God works in mysterious ways) but a gift nonetheless. A gift, because I felt the presence of God in ways I have never felt the presence of God before. It’s one thing to feel God’s presence when we are stimulated with beautiful art or music, or an awesome experience, or the wonders of nature. I have experience God’s presence countless times in those situations. It is a completely different matter to experience God’s presence in the midst of terrible pain. 

At first, I was in so much pain, I didn’t know how I would pray. I couldn’t kneel or sit in any one position for too long to do centering prayer. I couldn’t concentrate enough to read from a prayer book or pray the rosary. I finally managed to say: “God, I am in so much pain I can’t pray right now. I know I need to get through this. Please grant me the strength to do so, and stay with me, dear God.” No, I did not ask God to take my pain away. My brain does not work that way, and I know from the Gospels that when Jesus asked: “if it is possible, let this cup be taken away from me” it didn’t happen, so I wasn’t going to go there.

But, God was with me the whole time. I felt God’s presence in my pain. And it didn’t require any doing from me- sitting, kneeling, reading prayers, centering prayer, rosary, nothing. I could have asked God to forgive my sins, but I forgot, and it didn’t matter, God was with me and held me through my pain. God was with me in the form of Brothers who came to my cell to check on me, and bring me meals, and ask if I needed anything. All that was required of me was open receptivity- a spirit of yes; of welcome. The situation was the situation. It was not going to change. Now to welcome something doesn’t mean we have to like it. It just means we need to temporarily suspend our rush to judgement, and just to be open to what’s occurring, and to find some point of gratitude. I reflected with great gratitude on how thankful I am for my comfortable bed, good healthcare, adequate food, loving community. I felt great sorrow for those who may have sciatica or worse in Gaza, or Ukraine, or Sudan, or so many other places in the world, without appropriate care, or even a bed. God, please be with them.

In the reading from the epistle we just heard, St. Paul entreats the Corinthians (and us) to be reconciled to God. And he does not suggest a confession, or self-examination, or lays out a lengthy program of spiritual exercises. He tells us that we should simply accept the grace of God when the time is right, and see, now is that acceptable time. Life is short. Don’t wait. Now is the time! In the Gospel lesson Jesus tells us to go to our room, shut the door and pray to our God who is in secret. That secret place where God abides is our heart. It is a call to the kind of intimacy with God that nourishes, grounds, and sustains in ways that are beyond words. The fleeting, fragile, uncertain nature of life compels us to venture deeply into that secret place.

So today, as our foreheads are marked with ashen crosses to remind us of our mortality, may we meet the season of Lent with a spirit of welcome come what may; may we find the courage to say yes to what we know God is calling us to do; may we be swift to love; may we make haste to be kind; and may we dare to enter that secret place in our heart where we can be reconciled to God who always meets us where we are in our lives with loving grace and an open embrace that nourishes, grounds and sustains us in ways that are beyond words. ¡Que así sea en el nombre del Padre, del Hijo y del Espíritu Santo! ~Amen+

Wednesday, February 14, 2024

Ash Wednesday - February 14, 2024

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Robert James Magliula
Ash Wednesday, February 14, 2024

 


 

    For the past month, the last line of Mary Oliver’s poem, “The Summer Day”  has taken up residence in my mind. She wrote: “Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?”

Exploring this question is a good practice for today and for the whole of Lent. Lent can get overly focused on our past, the life we have already lived. But what if Lent is really about the life yet to be lived? What if we gave as much attention to where we are going as we do to where we have been?

What does it mean to live our one wild and precious life? What are the things that domesticate and devalue our life? How do we recognize and recover what is of ultimate value and importance? Maybe our greatest sins are the ones in which we tame and impoverish our lives and the lives of others.

When I describe life as wild, I’m talking about being open to what we can neither control nor predict, being able to receive whatever comes to us. I’m talking about not letting the past define or domesticate us, not letting the present moment cage us but rather exposing ourselves to the risk of an unknown future, the possibility of something new. We often let fear, self-doubt, guilt, regrets, disappointments, or wounds confine and tame our life. Every time we try to control life, guarantee outcomes, or live within the boundaries of what is safe and predictable, we limit our life. We live less than who we are and want to be. Consider what you need to do or give up, to reclaim your wild life? What cages imprison you?

What makes our life precious is not what we have, or how much we have. It’s not dependent on how others see us. The preciousness of life is found in its fragility and mortality. Life is short and uncertain, and we only have one. There are no guarantees. The future is unforeseeable. Rather than this negating the value and beauty of life; it intensifies it. Everything and everyone matters. Nothing and no one are to be taken for granted. Not a minute is to be wasted. This intensification of life gets revealed in the things we are most passionate about; in the people we love, in the things that give us meaning, offer us hope, and give us courage. The preciousness of life underlies the truth that we are of infinite value. Maybe this Lent we wrestle with how to divest ourselves of everything that diminishes our value and keeps us from remembering and reclaiming our treasures.

“Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return.”

Those words are not a threat of death or a judgment that we are bad or worthless. To hear those words and remember our mortality is the first step in healing the ways our lives become distorted. Whether it’s fear, arrogance, pride, delusion, denial, or pain, we forget that we are dust. Having forgotten our own mortality, we have no need for the immortality of God, offered us through the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ. When we forget our mortality, our human nature, we begin practicing our piety, before others; hoping to be seen and praised. We trade the secret rewards of the Father for the public opinions of others. The question behind today’s ashes is not whether we will die, but how we want to live from this day forward.

We live in the tension between the uncertainty of life and the certainty of death. The reminders of our mortality and the fragility of life all are around us. We work hard at denying, ignoring, and forgetting those twin realities. We’re reminded of it by aging and illness. Accidents, mass shootings, wars, hurricanes, and floods remind us of how easily and quickly life can change. Our own cemetery and columbarium stand as monuments to our mortality.

Our lives and treasures exist in the midst of the uncertainty of life and the certainty of death. As much as we might want to escape those two realities, we cannot. We mark ourselves with the ashes of mortality not to make us cynical and hopeless, but to return us to our self and proclaim that everything matters, freeing us to live a different way, so that we can remember and reclaim our treasures, the things in our lives that are of ultimate importance and value.

It’s easy to forget our treasures, to take them for granted, or just set them aside, making us forgetful of what really matters. As we reclaim them we’re more whole, not just for ourselves but so we can offer our treasure back to God and others. They are the treasures that “neither moth nor rust consumes” and “thieves do not break in and steal.” For where our treasure is, there will our heart be also. (Matt. 6:21).   +Amen.

Wednesday, March 2, 2022

Ash Wednesday - March 2, 2022

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Aidan Owen, OHC

Ash Wednesday - March 2, 2022



In the name of the One God, who is Lover, Beloved, and Love Overflowing. Amen.

You only are immortal, the creator and maker of [hu]mankind; and we are mortal, formed of the earth, and to earth shall we return. For so did you ordain when you created me, saying “You are dust, and to dust you shall return.” All of us go down to the dust; yet even at the grave we make our song. (BCP, 499) 

So goes the commendation of the body in the burial service from the Book of Common Prayer. 

Today marks the beginning of another Lenten journey through the desert. Today we undergo a kind of burial, marked with ashes as a reminder of our mortality. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return. Remember. 

 

Memory, as we all know, is capricious and unreliable. We remember only in part—usually the part that most affected us emotionally—and our minds fill in the details of the past in ways that often confirm whatever biases we already have firmly in place. And often, we remember what we wish—or fear—were true. 

 

We might call this phenomenon denial. As the saying goes, it ain’t just a river in Egypt. Nor is a bad thing, really. Denial is a gift that allows us to set aside painful truths, memories, or events that we are not strong enough to look in the eyes just yet. 

 

Then, of course, there are all the truths we know intellectually but that have still not sunk down into our hearts. Like the truth of our mortality or of our need for God’s goodness and grace or of the overflowing abundance of God’s love for us. These are some of the truths this season asks us to recall in order that we might return to God and live. I’m sure there are other truths yet more personal that await our invitation to plant themselves in the soil of our hearts. 

 

In the last year, I have had the privilege of accompanying someone through a rare and usually terminal cancer. For months, she was sharply aware of her mortality, and it seemed likely that she would die this year. Having had surgery, she now has a good prognosis, but she can’t unsee the possibility of her death. I recently said to her, “You have looked death in the face, and now you know it is not a question if you are going to die; it’s a question of when you are going to die. And that has to change how you live the rest of your life, whether it is one more day or twenty more years. Your denial of death is over, and that has changed everything.” 

 

The truth is perhaps a bit subtler and more complex for most of us. We all accommodate ourselves to the daily getting on with things. We adapt, survive, and learn to forget the pain, or at least to live with it more or less companionably. Our own collective forgetting is largely responsible for the political, ecological, epidemiological, and economic disasters that have been piling on for the last several years. But today, and this season, call on us to remember.  

 

The remembrance to which we are called is a full body and full-hearted experience. This remembrance is not the reading of pious books that fill our minds with nice ideas about God. It isn’t fasting from chocolate so we can fit into our skinny jeans again. Remembrance of the kind that Lent invites us into is the drawing together of all the shards of ourselves, all the fragments we have flung into the corners of our lives so that we can come to greater wholeness and integrity in God. So that, in that beautiful image from Jeremiah, our hearts can turn from stone to flesh. 

 

This process can be a painful one, but it isn’t one we have to go through alone. Several years ago, I was in a process of deeper healing in my relationship with my father. We’d come a long way, but there were some painful memories that just wouldn’t let go. One morning, as I was praying, without knowing where the question came from, I asked God to show me what had happened. I saw the scene unfolding in front of me. Only this time, I was watching events unfold from God’s perspective, and I felt God’s love so powerfully, both for myself and for my father. A part of that love was the tearing of God’s heart, and the pain of silent, loving witness. God didn’t intervene. God didn’t stop me or my father from being hurt. God stood there, loving us both beyond loving, witnessing to the totality of that moment, which was so much more than the events taking place. 

 

That moment of prayer was powerfully healing. God remembered me, and my father, and every detail of that moment. God held us all together, all the broken, sharp-edged parts of us. God fitted together the fragments and made whole what once had been broken. 

 

Perhaps this Lent, we’re called to learn to witness as God witnesses. Witnessing requires patience. It requires attention. It requires us to stand there, feeling powerless, allowing our hearts to break open at the pain or the beauty of another’s life—or our own—so that we can learn to love as God loves.  

 

We all know there is more than enough to witness these days: the shattering of world order, the atrocity of war in Ukraine, the unmooring of our lives in the recent pandemic, and surrounding it all the continued and accelerating collapse of the climate, all in addition to whatever smaller but no less important moments fill our daily lives. In this witnessing is a kind of martyrdom—a laying down of our lives as a testimony to the power of God’s love and God’s life to make all things whole and new again in Christ. 

 

If it is true, as I told my friend with cancer, that having looked into the face of death, we can no longer live in denial of our mortality, it is also true that having known life, we can no longer fully deny its reality. Christ died once, for all. And each of us in this room has heard, in our various ways, Christ’s calling in our hearts, drawing us on to seek the life that really is life. We have all responded, however imperfectly, to that call, or we wouldn’t be here today. Just as we cannot fully ignore the reality of death, however much we try, we cannot fully ignore or forget the reality of Christ’s resurrection. Today we are called most especially to remember our redemption in Christ.  

 

As the burial rite hovers in the background of today’s liturgy, so, too, does the baptismal rite buoy us from below. The mark of the ashes on our foreheads sits on the same spot where, however many years ago, we were sealed with chrism and the Holy Spirit and marked as Christ’s own forever. Buried with Christ in his death, so that we might be raised with him in his resurrection. 

 

We needn’t fear the darkness of the Day of the Lord of which the prophet Joel reminds us. For while it is the darkness of the tomb, it is at the same time, the darkness of the Holy Spirit hovering over the waters at the Creation, and it is the blinding light of Christ’s coming in glory. 

 

And so, even at the grave—and yes, even in Lent—we make our song.