Sunday, December 25, 2011

Christmas Eve - Dec 24, 2011

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY --- Br. Andrew Colquhoun, OHC
Christmas, Year B - Saturday, December 24, 2011

Isaiah 9:2-7
Titus 2:11-14
Luke 2:1-14(15-20)
The creche 2011 in the Visitors Gallery in our Saint Augustine Church
Picture credit: George

I love this night.  I love the mystery and wonder.

This is not a night for scholarly insights about the theology of the Incarnation.  It’s not a night for arguing about doctrine.  It’s not a night for cynicism or carping about the possibility or impossibility of miraculous birth.

It’s a night of wonder and of things beyond understanding.

It’s a night that calls us to put our doubts and resentments aside for a while and let the wonder and the message of peace take over.   This is the holiest and most mysterious of nights.  This night we forget everything but the miracle of the Baby and the wonder of the Holy Family and the Shepherds.  It’s a night to listen for angels and to put aside for a little while all the things that bring us down.

The minister of the Canongate Kirk in Edinburgh read a poem to us every year on Christmas.  I read it every Christmas.  Perhaps you know it?  John Betjeman wrote it… 
The bells of waiting Advent ring,
The Tortoise stove is lit again
And lamp-oil light across the night
Has caught the streaks of winter rain
In many a stained-glass window sheen
From Crimson Lake to Hookers Green.

The holly in the windy hedge
And round the Manor House the yew
Will soon be stripped to deck the ledge,
The altar, font and arch and pew,
So that the villagers can say
'The church looks nice' on Christmas Day.
….
And girls in slacks remember Dad,
And oafish louts remember Mum,
And sleepless children's hearts are glad.
And Christmas-morning bells say 'Come!'
Even to shining ones who dwell
Safe in the Dorchester Hotel.

And is it true,
This most tremendous tale of all,
Seen in a stained-glass window's hue,
A Baby in an ox's stall?
The Maker of the stars and sea
Become a Child on earth for me?

And is it true?  For if it is,
No loving fingers tying strings
Around those tissued fripperies,
The sweet and silly Christmas things,
Bath salts and inexpensive scent
And hideous tie so kindly meant,

No love that in a family dwells,
No carolling in frosty air,
Nor all the steeple-shaking bells
Can with this single Truth compare -
That God was man in Palestine
And lives today in Bread and Wine.
(you can find the whole poem here).

This has been a hard year for so many people – too many wars, too much economic hardship, so many disasters – earthquakes, floods – people still out of work – our government striking poses and not seeming to do much else.

We need a break.  This is a good night to focus on the miracle and the hope that Christ brings – Peace on earth – goodwill for God is pleased with us.  It’s good to fall into the softness of the Mother’s breast and be nourished; to be like children for a moment – children full of trust and love and spontaneous laughter.

But let me tell you one little story to put in your minds and hearts… a young mother who is a friend of mine wrote to say her little boy was Jesus in the manger scene at their lessons and carols.  She said “He was adorable but he wouldn’t stay in the manger!”

Brothers and sisters, neither will this One!

Happy Christmas!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Advent 3 B - Dec 11, 2011

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY --- Br. Robert Sevensky, OHC
Advent 3, Year B - Sunday, December 11, 2011

Isaiah 61:1-4, 8-11
1 Thessalonians 5:16-24
John 1:6-8, 19-28


Poets, writers, artists, and preachers get ideas and inspiration from unusual or surprising sources.  For me, the idea or inspiration for this sermon came as I was at the photocopy machine in our mail room on Friday.  I had been thinking about today's readings for some time, wondering what my take on them might be... or perhaps better, what their take on me should be.  And I looked up and saw posted on the bulletin board an Advent calendar published by Morehouse and edited and designed by two friend of our community, Jay Sidebotham and Susan Elliot.

Like most things on bulletin boards, I had pretty much ignored it, despite its poster size.  But as I was waiting for my copying to finish I thought: why not see what the message is for today?  And here's what it said:

Get ready for this coming Sunday.  Read the gospel ahead of time.  It's John 1:6-8, 19-28.  Imagine that you were asked the question that John the Baptist was asked.  How would you answer?  What would you have to say?  WHO ARE YOU?

Not a bad way to enter in to today's Gospel passage: Who are you?  Who indeed are you?

St John baptizes the people
painted 1633-35 - Nicholas Poussin - Getty Center, Los Angeles


If we were asked that question, there are any number of normal and expected ways that we might go about answering it.  We might focus on genealogy or even genetics, on nationality, ethnicity or social class, on sex or sexual orientation, on education, health, physical attractiveness, marital status, certainly job or profession, perhaps income and wealth or lack of it, and even religion.  These are all part of the picture, of course, all components of our identity.

But I wonder: Do they get to the heart of things?  Does any of these, or any combination of these factors, capture with any degree of accuracy the mystery of you or me or adequately express who we are?  I think not.  Too many things are left out, and they are precisely the things that matter most about you and me, that define us most deeply and most richly.

It is helpful to examine how John the Baptist went about answering the question.  He begins by stating clearly who he is not: “I am not the Messiah.”  This he knows for a fact.  And then the questions start: Are you Elijah?  No.  The prophet?  No.  It all sounds a bit like a skit from Monty Python.  But in fact this is the way people, you and me, go about finding out who we are.  It happens by considering and eliminating or saying “No” to various possibilities throughout our lives... and this often at the questioning or challenge of others, friends and foes alike.

Finally, John comes to a place where he sees more clearly and is able to talk about his identity: “I am the voice of one crying out in the wilderness.”  We might say that in this sentence, in this statement, John has discovered and given voice to his identity, to his vocation, to his deeper and truer self.  John finally had an answer, or at least the first stage of an answer, to that perennial and troubling question: Who are you?  Who am I?  It is an answer that will deepen over time and be refined in the fire of life.  But John seems to have found his true self.

Something very similar happens in the life of our Lord.  In his case it is not others who ask, it is Jesus himself.  “Who do people say that I am?” he asks his friends.  “Elijah,” they answer, “... or one of the prophets.”  “And you, who do you say that I am?”  And here Peter makes his confession: “You are the Christ, the Son of the living God.”  And here Jesus comes to know fully, perhaps for the first time and with startling clarity, who he is and what he is called to.  It was the community of others who knew him well that made it possible for Jesus to understand more fully who he was and what he was called to.  And perhaps for the first time he is able to accept that more fundamental and primary statement of his identity that came to him from the Father at his baptism: “You are my beloved Son, my beloved child.”

What is true of John the Baptizer and of Jesus is true also of us. What is most central to us and to our identity is approached by and appropriated through listening... to ourselves first but also to others: their questions, their counsel, their reactions.  But most of all this happens by listening to God.

And what does God say both in Scripture and in tradition about you and me, about who we are?

• In Genesis 1:26, God says: ” Let us make humankind in our own image, according to out likeness.”
• In Psalm 8:4-5, God says: “...what are human beings that you are mindful of them, mortals that you care for them?  Yet you have made them a little lower than God, and crowned them with glory and honor.”
• Indeed in Psalm 82:6 the Holy One says: “You are gods, and all of you children of the Most High...”  What an amazing claim, and yet this is the truth about you and me.  This is the deepest truth and the most profound answer to that question posed in today's Gospel: Who are you?

Our late Br. Douglas Brown loved to tell a story about the late Byzantine world.  In that society, images of imperial authority were treated with great respect, and when the emperor himself could not be present at an imperial function, his image was escorted in with great pomp and ceremony, with heralds shouting out to the crowd: “Make way for the image of the emperor. Make way for the image of the emperor.”  Once a rabbi watching this ceremony from the sidelines, observing the elaborate ceremony, commented: “Before every human being goes an army of angels shouting: “Make way for the image of the image of God.  Make way for the image of the image of God.”  The story is apocryphal of course, but not the quote.  It is from the Talmud, that great compendium of Jewish wisdom.

Rabbi Joshua ben Levi said: "A procession of angels pass before each person, and the heralds go before them, saying, 'Make way for the image of God!' (Deut. Rabbah, 4:4)

This is true of you and me, of course.  But it is true also of the person ahead of us at the checkout line and of the homeless person at the street corner; it is true of the corporate executive and the abused child; of the mentally handicapped man and the nurse and the solid citizen and the single parent and the addict and... well, true of just about everybody, saint and sinner, near at hand and far away, long ago and now and as far as we can see into the future.  Images of God — that's who we are.

On this foundation, on this truth, all the rest is built.  And in this, we can all rejoice.  And from this fact much is demanded and expected of us: lives lived in deep mutual respect, where violence has no place, where hatred is given no foothold, where justice is pursued and mercy and love.  Because that's how one treats the image of God.  We can do no other, we God-worshipers, we the community of the redeemed, we Christians.

 St John the Baptist
Valentin de Boulogne (lived 1591–1632) - private collection


Then they said to him, “Who are you?  Let us have an answer for those who sent us.”  (John 1:22)

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Advent 2 B - Dec 4, 2011 - Scott

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY --- Br. Scott Borden, OHC
Advent 2, Year B - Sunday, December 4, 2011


Isaiah 40:1-11
2 Peter 3:8-15a
Mark 1:1-8

Here we are on the second Sunday of Advent – a season that prepares us for Christmas. The problem is that there are really two very different events coming – so different as to be almost incompatible – and to add to the confusion, we call them both Christmas. For clarity sake, I'll call one of them “Secular Christmas” and the other “Sacred Christmas.” That will give you a pretty clear idea of where I'm going...

For Secular Christmas, Advent is more properly known as “shopping days until...” Secular Christmas is really just a consumption binge with a slightly altruistic marketing plan. Secular Christmas has absolutely everything to do with carnality and absolutely nothing to do with incarnation.

The work of Advent does nothing to enhance Secular Christmas and, more importantly, Secular Christmas contradicts Advent in oh so many ways. It would be tilting at windmills to try to rid Advent of the incursions of Secular Christmas. But to the extent we can keep these two things called Christmas separate in our minds, the more we can do the work of Advent and be present to the sacred incarnation that is coming.

Secular Christmas is an appealing, delicious, feel-good confection. Sacred Christmas is the beginning of a life-changing encounter – complex, challenging, frightening... Secular Christmas makes us happy. Sacred Christmas makes us whole.

Advent is not a happy, comfortable time of waiting in excited anticipation... trying to guess what is under the tree... of stockings all hung by the fireplace with care... The Liturgy of St James has a better instruction: “Let all mortal flesh keep silence, and with fear and trembling stand...” Advent is a time of preparing to be made new, to be made whole.

Today, and in all of Advent, our attention is directed toward John the Baptist. When it comes to discomforting, feel-bad thinking, you can't do much better than the Baptist... except perhaps Isaiah... And wouldn't you know it, Isaiah is the other great voice we are called to listen to in Advent.

Lets start in Isaiah – “a voice crying out in the wilderness, prepare the way of the Lord.” These words are so thoroughly wrapped around the coming of Jesus that the context fades away. But the message from Isaiah is complex.

“Speak tenderly to Jerusalem... she has received from the Lord's hand double for all her sins... People are like grass – which withers and dies.” We are prepared to hear Isaiah is talking about the birth of Jesus – but Isaiah is not willing to restrict himself to that.

Our Jewish brothers and sisters understand Isaiah very differently. Isaiah really is talking about Jerusalem, about the people of Israel, not about some far-future coming of Messiah. His message is one of devastation. The reason to speak tenderly to Jerusalem is that she is to be destroyed. The pending destruction of the city symbolizes the destruction that is to fall on God's chosen people, the people of Israel.

After the destruction of Jerusalem, Isaiah is a powerful voice to a people who have been devastated, to a culture that has been shattered, to a nation that has been mortally wounded. Speak tenderly... This is a tenderness borne of extreme sorrow.

“Every valley shall be raised up and every hill brought down...”

When I was a young, the great Adirondack Northway was under construction – and valleys were raised up and mountain tops were brought down and rough places were smoothed over to make a highway that truly seemed worthy of the Lord. Somehow in the hazy innocence of youth it seemed to me that this is what Isaiah was talking about: some optimistic, modern, vast construction project.

But Isaiah is not talking about construction. He is talking about a destruction... on a massive scale... a cataclysm... Everything stable in the world, even the mountains and valleys, is about to be torn apart. Chaos and destruction are in the offing.

After the chaos, then we can take courage... then we can raise our voice... then we can proclaim that God comes in might... after the entire world has been turned upside down. It is courage born of extreme sorrow, extreme humiliation.

Pretense has been stripped away. Arrogance has been stripped away. The feeling of entitlement that comes with being God's particularly chosen people has been stripped away. Identity has been stripped away. And somehow, in the face of all that loss, we manage to breath again, to live again, to love again. Speak tenderly to Jerusalem...

John picks up where Isaiah leaves off – a voice in the wilderness crying get ready for the coming of the Lord.

As it happens, at the time of John, Jerusalem is again on the eve of destruction. By the time John's words have been recorded in the Gospels, Jerusalem has been sacked... the nation of Israel is in tatters... the temple, the very house of God, has, once again, been destroyed. John the Baptist referencing Isaiah the Profit is ominous foreshadowing, to say the least.

This is the context of Advent – of waiting for Emmanuel. For lovers of the status quo, it is a terrible time. And when I look in my own heart I find that there is a great lover of the status quo in me. I suspect I am not the only one here with that attachment.

Later today in this very church our Vespers will be centered on Bach's Cantata Number 36. In the opening chorus a voice calls us to lift our voices, our thoughts to heaven to meet the Lord. And then another voice says “stop where you are... the Lord is coming to Earth to meet you where you are.”

In our cultural stories we have a repeated story about parents coming home when the kids are not ready – when the kids have been acting really badly. It can be innocent as in Dr Seuss's “Cat in the Hat”, or it can be more adolescent as in “Ferris Bueller's Day Off” or “Risky Business”. But its the same story – with no adult supervision, the kids do exactly what they know not to do and then the car with Mom and Dad is coming up the driveway... they are going to be caught, certainly punished, perhaps grounded for life... Yet somehow, miraculously, the mess gets cleaned up just before the parents walk through the door.

Advent. We have had the run of the place and we have acted in ways that we know are exactly wrong. Children are allowed to suffer and even starve. Injustice and corruption are abundant. We beat our plowshares into swords. We take the widows mite to build grand palaces for the rich and privileged. And, as the Cantata says – God is coming to meet us on earth... the car is pulling up the driveway...

Our treasure shows where our hearts are – and that is on Wall Street and in executive suites, in the weapons of war, in the temples built to the false god of consumerism. Surely we don't believe God can look at this and say anything that sounds like “well done good and faithful servants.”

Let all mortal flesh keep silence and with fear and trembling stand.

Advent. We are called to keep awake. To make ourselves ready for the time when God takes on mortal flesh and dwells among us. Are our hearts, our homes, our neighborhoods, our nation in a proper state to receive God?

We will have to face the trap of our own attachments, our own delights, our idols and golden calves. The preparation of Advent, at least in part, is to see that we are a people not just in the wilderness, but that we are enlarging the wilderness... We are a people who not only sit in darkness, but in many ways we are responsible for turning out the lights... We are not called to despair, but to make a highway in this dark wilderness fit for God.

Shopping Days and Secular Christmas tell us that things are really good and sweet and wonderful and that we can build a better world just by doing even more of the same. That is a lie that does indeed contain some truth – there is great beauty all around us.

But we are every bit as broken as the Israel that Isaiah addresses. We are in the wilderness. We desperately need God's light to shine in our world, in our hearts. We anesthetize ourselves with stuff so that we don't know how much we need someone to speak tenderly to us.

Facing the reality that we are in darkness is part of the work of Advent. And realizing that God takes on human flesh and dwells with us... speaks tenderly to us... forgives us.. lovingly brings light into our world so that we don't have to remain in darkness is also the work of Advent.

Amen.

Advent 2 B - Dec 4, 2011 - Bernard

Trinity Episcopal Church, Williamsport, PA --- Br. Bernard Delcourt, OHC
Advent 2, Year B - Sunday, December 4, 2011


Isaiah 40:1-11
2 Peter 3:8-15a
Mark 1:1-8


The beginning of the good news of Jesus Christ, the Son of God.  And here we are, you and I; lucky enough to be here; lucky enough to hear that good news.

What is the good news?  God was, is and will always be with us.
Jesus came and lived amongst us.
Jesus lives in you and in me.
Jesus will manifest himself to all, for us to live together forever.

In Advent, we yearn, we long, we anticipate and we prepare for Jesus arriving among us. 
We yearn for the Beloved who was with humanity about 20 centuries ago.
We long for the Beloved who is being formed in our hearts today -- if we consent to it. 
And we anticipate the manifestation of the Beloved to all of creation, in the time beyond time, in the time beyond evil. 

Are we willing to participate in that good news?  Are we willing to prepare ourselves and the world for that Kingdom?  “Your Kingdom come.  You will be done.” 

Really?  How?  How are we preparing for the celebration of Christ; not only on December 25 but every day of our life?  How are we preparing to celebrate the Beloved for all eternity?

*****

John the Baptist, the forerunner of the Beloved, gives us a clue: repent, and be forgiven.  To repent comes in two movements of the heart.

First, look at yourself with a keen, honest, unbiased eye.  Don’t judge yourself.  Just look at yourself and see what is.  Do you see anything that turns you away from God?  Do you find anything that keeps you procrastinating from God’s embrace?  Do you recognize that pile of excuses reaching to the rafters?  Look at yourself and ponder.  What keeps me away from your Love, Lord?

Then, when you have faced what is in the way, turn around, consent to God’s loving gaze into your heart and ask for forgiveness.  Throw yourself into the embrace of God’s forgiveness.  And trust that you will receive the help you need to keep walking in the right direction, whether you know that direction or not.

Just in case you missed it, there was no intermediary step between your introspection and your turning to God.  There is no need to turn into an athlete of virtue, willfully trying to fix everything that is wrong with you and the world, before you deem that you deserve forgiveness. 

Remember -- Good News! -- Jesus already came to us and redeemed you and me from sin; He didn’t wait for you to get rid of sin first.

Make no mistake, you will need to amend your ways and empty yourself to be filled by God, but you won’t be able to do that until you earnestly ask God to play on your team.  Turn to God; receive the forgiveness freely offered; trust God to help you achieve God’s dream for you which you cannot do alone.

And know, that as long as you turn to God one more time than you turned away, you’re in the right direction.  This repenting business is likely to be more than a once off occurrence.  No cheap grace here.

*****

How else do we prepare to celebrate the Beloved today, every day and for all eternity?  Well, we stop, we breathe and we remember whose we are.

We live in God’s creation and that involves time and space as we experience them.  But does God experience time?  And if so, what is it like to God? 

We live in a sequential time.  We imagine that time moving in one direction along a straight line.  And we pretend controlling that time by measuring it.  Some call that human experience of time Chronos.

When we live with God, we can have glimpses of God’s time, sometime referred to as Kairos.  It is a time that flows in curvaceous directions and at various speeds.  It is a time that is felt in quality more than quantity.  It is a time of “already” and “not yet” occurring simultaneously.

*****

Advent is a time of the liturgical year that lends itself to considering God’s time.  In Advent, we wait for the arrival of Christ at what we consider three different points of our timeline:
  • First, we await the commemoration of the birth of Jesus of Nazareth in first-century Palestine as the historical marker of our liberation from sin and death,
  • Second, we await the return of Christ at the end of time.  And we should look again at what that phrase might mean; “the end of time”,
  • And Third, we await the birthing of the Christ within.  We are each individually amidst the pangs of Christ being born, nurtured and fully formed in our own heart.
And yet, I believe that in God’s experience of time these three events are woven together in a rich tapestry of time we don’t even begin to understand.  In a way, these three events we await in Advent are arriving simultaneously in God’s experience of time.  They all interact with one another and affect their outcome.  Jesus opened up the Kingdom of God for all of us when he lived with our brethren.  The Kingdom of God is close at hand.

What it takes to be there is to complete what Native Americans have called the longest journey a human can travel.  And that is the journey an insight makes from the mind to the heart.

So this Advent, stop, breathe and remember whose you are.  You too are the Beloved of God and the Kingdom is within you if you let your heart open the doors your mind can’t grasp.

*****

I said we should look for a moment at the phrase “the end of time.”  I admit I don’t know what it means.  But I want to share with you that I suspect it has more to do with a renewed sense of time, a time more akin to God’s time and a time freed from the clutch of evil.  I see the end of time as the end of all evil brought about by God through his Beloved and all his beloved.

*****

So, in Advent, Christians prepare themselves to be with the Beloved more intentionally.  They prepare themselves for Christmastide and beyond.  They prepare themselves in joyful and truthful turning to God.  They prepare themselves in slowing down to remember whose they are and what kingdom they are citizens of.  They prepare themselves to remain more often and more fully aware of the abiding presence of the loving God in themselves, in each other, and in all creation.

If this sounds good, let’s consider being Christians again this Advent.  We will prepare ourselves to live in the Kingdom of God at Christmas and forever more.  We will put ourselves in God’s hands as instruments for a renewed creation in the midst of what is and what is to come.  The timeline can seem fuzzy and that’s OK.  You’re in God’s hands, you’re in God’s time.

Have a blessed Advent. 

Come Lord Jesus, Come!

*****

Advent 2 B - Dec 4, 2011 - Julian

St John's, Kingston, NY --- Br. Julian Mizelle, OHC
Advent 2, Year B - Sunday, December 4, 2011

Isaiah 40:1-11
2 Peter 3:8-15a
Mark 1:1-8



An Advent Wilderness

It is a real joy for me to be with you today; to join you in worship and to share in this holy season of Advent. Honestly, St. John’s feels like my second spiritual home. I know so many of you from the Monastery, from the Education for Ministry program, and your work and ministry with Angel Food. And now you’ve welcomed me to your pulpit, you’ve welcomed me to share my journey in Contemplative Prayer, you’ve welcomed me like family. It is a spiritual bond that I truly treasure.

It is as if we are working backwards through Advent this year. Last Sunday our Lectionary pointed us to apocalyptic events and Christ second coming. Today we have the opening prologue to Mark’s gospel and there are no birth stories to linger at.We meet not one but two prophets speaking to us from the wilderness. This backward movement through the days of Advent may strike us as odd but it will ultimately point us toward the coming of the Christ child. It does point us toward the manger where we will get our first glimpses of light, life and love. It does point us toward new hope, peace, and joy.

But before we arrive at the foot of the manger we must first go through the travail of the wilderness. The wilderness, which can seduce us with its beauty and its majesty, has many faces. In one part of the country it is dense with forest and lush vegetation which delight all of our senses. In another part of the country it is stark and barren and seems to purge us of any affectation. All the while it holds a grandeur that takes our breath away. If you have ever visited some of our great National Parks out west, especially those in southern Utah, you know of the grandeur of which I speak. The wilderness is a place of wonder and exploration. It is also a place of respite and rejuvenation. Unless, of course, we become lost in it. Then it is transformed into a place of dread and terror. A place where all hope can be lost. The wilderness is a place that supports life only if we possess the survival skills necessary to navigate its mysteries. Without those survival skills we are at the mercy of a disinterested, even hostile, environment.

On this second Sunday of Advent the calm of our lives is startled awake by voices from the wilderness. With Isaiah we hear one crying out for the construction of a passable route through the desert; then from an entirely different time, even a different desert, we hear the voice of John the Baptist, our wild and wooly prophet, giving us an unsettling call to repentance. In fact, any honest look at all three of our scripture readings this morning bring us face to face with the issue of repentance.

Trust me, no guest preacher wants to go into a parish his first time and preach on repentance. Any homiletical professor will tell you there is no surer way to loose you audience. Mere mention of the word cause most people to roll their eyes back, shut down their hearing, or brace themselves for an olde time religion that is as worn out as its name. Apparently our attitudes and feelings about repentance are about as popular as they were in the time of John the Baptist and Isaiah: they only preached about it when they were out in the middle of nowhere.

What does this have to do with Advent? Everything! While our calendars may suggest that Advent is the season of preparation for the celebration of the Nativity, the Advent readings broaden our view and insist that we are really preparing for the coming of the reign of God in our lives. This backward march that begins with the second coming of Christ and ends on Christmas Day at the manger points us to the mystery of Advent. A mystery that links the historical coming of the promised Messiah with the coming of Christ into our own hearts and the coming of Christ again at the end of all time. A mystery that will ask us to pause and look into our hearts, our real and honest selves.

We are being called to prepare for a time when kindness and truth will meet, when justice and peace will kiss, when truth will spring out of the earth, and justice will look down from heaven. Now these are phrases that normally make us think of when the world “out there” will finally be set right by God. But I am talking about the world “in here”. I am talking about when kindness and truth will meet “in here”. When justice and peace will kiss “in here”. No I’m not talking about when the wars of distant lands will cease, I’m talking about the wars that rage within our own thoughts will cease. The conflicts, the wounds, the troubles, the hurts, the disappointments, the fears, the self loathing, the self hate—because this is the wilderness that most of us find ourselves lost in today. This is the wilderness where the good news of Christ cries out to touch and change our lives.

Advent is a time serious road construction—and we all know the joy that brings. Isaiah is not describing minor repairs, such as filling in potholes or repairing curbs. He is calling for major reconfiguration of the terrain: filling in valleys and leveling mountains; smoothing rugged land and rough country. He is calling for serious transformation of the landscape of our lives. It is a call to go in a new direction. Or as Fr. Thomas Keating so lovingly tells us it is a call to change the direction from where you are looking for happiness. That is how he defines repentance. It is when we get to that place where we say “this isn’t working anymore” and we turn around and go a new way.

One day I was on my way to Woodstock and came upon road construction and was detoured onto unfamiliar roads. Now I know this must be a guy thing but for some reason I thought I could figure out a better route than where the detour was sending me. After about 45 minutes of going in circles and ending up where I began, still blocked by road construction, I decided I would follow the detour signs. You know what the definition of insanity is? Doing the same thing over and over expecting a different outcome. How many times in our lives have we been trapped by this? It is not really the definition of insanity but it defines the human condition we find ourselves captive in.

This past week I found myself captive of an unexpected wilderness. It was by no means how I had envisioned I would spend my first week of this blessed time of Advent. A season I regular refer to as my favorite time of year. My wilderness sent me off to jury duty. And by wilderness I really don’t mean the interruption that jury duty brings. Changing plans, rearranging schedules, not having time to use it as I want to. I’m not even referring to the drudgery we all feel by the need to perform our civic duty, that task of doing something we “should” when we honestly would rather not.

The wilderness I’m speaking of is when you are called to step out of your own life and into the lives and events that belong to another world. A world where tragic things happened and a series of events have transpired all culminating in bringing a roomful of strangers together in a courtroom. So my first week of Advent was not filled with times of Contemplative Prayer, saying my Rosary, joining my monastic community in our daily celebration of the eucharist, not even joining in the daily office to chant the Psalms. My first week of Advent did not give time for the spiritual reading I had planned or the practice of spiritual disciplines that I look forward to in this blessed season. By Friday I was dry, parched, empty. Mentally exhausted, spiritually drained I said God “why?”. Friday evening I walked out of the court house in uptown Kingston and found myself standing right in front of a monument to Sojourner Truth. That great abolutionist who marched up the very steps of that court house and won the right to a trial which resulted in the return of her son from a slave owner that had hauled her son all the way to Alabama. She got custody of her son back and spent the rest of her life to bring an end to slavery and injustice. The inscription on the monument quotes Sojourner Truth speaking from her own wilderness: “I talk with God and He talks with me”.

“I talk with God and He talks with me”. That is a divine relationship at its very purest. That is the conviction of one who has turned around and walked in a new direction to find her happiness. That is one who went through the wilderness with the only survival skill that will bring you through it: clutching God’s hand. That is one who made a new path and toppled mountains of injustice, even the injustice she found within herself and found the light, life and love within the manger of her own heart.

“I talk with God and He talks with me”.
Have a blessed Advent. Amen.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Advent 1 B - Nov 27, 2011

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY --- Br. Julian Mizelle, OHC
Advent 1, Year B - Sunday, November 27, 2011


Isaiah 64:1-9
1 Corinthians 1:3-9
Mark 13:24-37


Living In-Between

On this first Sunday of Advent, as the Church begins its telling of the Christian story once again, our Gospel reading tells us to “keep awake”.  Honestly, this command to keep awake I find to be a bit annoying.  Most of us do not need to be told to keep awake during Advent.  We are already operating in a state of sleep deprivation.  Instead of being accused of being asleep we are more likely to be accused scurrying through the rush of holiday shopping, parties, and to-do list, being highly over-scheduled, and burning our Advent Candle at both ends.  There’s endless shopping, gifts to prepare, parties to plan, travel arrangements to make, lots of extra cooking and baking.  Squeezed in to our already busy lives will be Christmas pageants, Cantata’s and Lessons and Carols.  The joy of being with family and friends is a gift but it is also a stress.  Visiting relatives and in-laws mean extra work and somehow it all has to get done.  The pressures of the holiday season will be over-shadowed by a constant reminder of how many shopping days left until Christmas morning.  In case you’re wondering you have 27 days and about 15.5 hours.  So it occurs to me that the real pastoral action needed for most of us is not to be told to keep awake, but to pass out sleeping pills with chamomile tea to minister to our over-caffeinated, stressed out selves.

The fact that we are exhausted and stretched to our physical limits is not just a reality of Advent and Christmas -- it’s a reality of our lives all year long.  Sleep, or the need to get more of it, has actually made it onto the list of spiritual disciplines.  This is simply recognizing that it is hard to progress spiritually when we’re exhausted.  James Bryan Smith in his book “The Good and Beautiful God” says that the number one enemy of spiritual formation today is exhaustion.  Many retailers opened their stores this past Friday (Black Friday) at midnight Thursday.  Some even pushed their opening hours earlier and opened on Thanksgiving Day.  We’re loosing the sanctity of setting aside a holiday as a time of resting from our busy lives.

Our culture is caught up in a mad rush of busy-ness that is pointed toward Christmas morning, but it is not pointed toward the coming of the Christ child.  We may not be physically asleep; quite the opposite actually.  But in our wakefulness to the realities of the holiday rush we can fall asleep to the spiritual season of the coming Christ.  So on this first Sunday of Advent Mark’s gospel gives us a wake-up call by telling us that the coming of Christ is both near and at hand.  But which coming of Christ does Mark’s gospel point us to?  Advent is a special season indeed linking the historical coming of the promised Messiah with the coming of Christ into our own hearts and the coming of Christ again at the end of time.

Our lection this morning is known as the little apocalypse and is filled with references to the end of all time.  Not unlike many today the Disciples wanted Jesus to give them a date.  They were ready to mark their calendars.  So Jesus gave them a metaphor -- the Fig Tree.  A fig tree would be a well known reference point for someone living in a Mediterranean world in the first century.  When we encounter figs today they tend to be mashed inside a moist little biscuit.  But for us, is the sign to the end of the age really to be found in a comfort food cookie?  I think not.

For us this is a metaphor pointing to a paradox.  The wake up call in Mark’s gospel is calling you and me to awaken to paradox.  In fact, it is one of the most important paradoxes found in the Gospel.  It is the paradox of already but not yet.

  • It is the already but not yet drama of how we live our life with God.
  • Christ has already been born but not yet has the world come into His light and love.
  • Already Jesus has established the means for our relationship with God, but not yet do we live in complete union with God.
  • Already the Prince of Peace has come but not yet have we learned to end our wars.
  • Already Christ has taken our wounds but not yet have we been able to let them go.
  • Already the realm of God is evident all around us, but not yet is God’s realm fully established in this world or even in our hearts.
  • Already God’s economy is at work, but not yet have we moved our hope from Wall St.
  • Already God has filled the earth with plenty but not yet have we learned to share it with all.

Jesus was telling His disciples, and through this gospel text He is telling us, we are the one’s living “in-between” His first coming and His second coming.  This already but not yet paradox is how Mark’s gospel breaks right into our lives today speaking to us who live in-between.  Mark’s gospel is not an apocalyptic message for those left behind, it is an apocalyptic message for those left between.  For those living in this challenging meantime between the already and the not yet.

Just like the fig tree that knows how to respond to the seasons of the year Advent calls us to a season to go within.  All of nature moves deep inside and all living things have dug their roots deep into the earth for sustenance and protection.  We too are invited to turn inward during this blessed time of preparation for the Lord’s coming.  This is the season to let Christ be born anew in our hearts, in our minds, in our souls.  This is the season to live fully into the reality that although Christ was born in human weakness, He manifested His divinity to the world.  This is the season to open our hearts to His spiritual coming in our inmost being where Christ is born anew and to let His light shine within us.  This is the season to wait and watch for His final coming at the end of time where He will manifest His glorified being through all creation.

As I was preparing my own heart for the Advent season I was going through my journal and came upon an entry I had written years ago.  The entry has the simple title of “Three Questions”.  I’m not for sure what impressed me to write it down at the time.  But today I would tell you that the Holy Spirit knew I would need it at this point in my life.  I have taken these 3 questions and placed them on the inner tabernacle of my heart.  It is as if they sit in the cradle of my being, the Holy Spirit working them through me as He knows best.  I don’t even try to provide an answer to these 3 questions.  I am simply letting them be within me, allowing my heavenly friend to engraft them into my life.  I will journey with them these next 4 weeks of Advent.  They will be my guiding star leading me to the cradle of my Lord.  I share them with you in invitation for you to journey with them during this season of Advent.

  • What needs to be forgiven?
  • What needs to be healed?
  • What needs to be celebrated?

Three questions that hold and carry us through the paradox of already but not yet of our lives with God.  Three questions that stand with us in solidarity (quite literally) in this in-between place of our Christian journey.  Three questions that we can welcome keeping awake with through this holy season of Advent.

Have a Blessed Advent!  Amen!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Proper 28 A - Nov 13, 2011

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY --- Br. Roy Parker, OHC
Proper 28, Year A - Sunday, November 13, 2011

Zephaniah 1:7, 12-18
1 Thessalonians 5:1-11
Matthew 25:14-30

Right away I ought to say that the talents of which the Gospel speaks are not the abilities with which we usually connect the word, but rather a standard weight of money of a large value; minor point of clarification.

In the Sundays leading up to Advent we’re treated to a series of Gospel parables concerned with the judgement of ethical behavior by one who gives the means to live wisely, absents himself and eventually returns to see how we’ve done, presumably to prime us for the season of Advent.

Today’s parable is a stern warning against choosing death when life is offered, in this case choosing to do nothing with a talent of money when given you on the basis of your known ability to use it productively. The servant cites the merciless character of the master as the cause of inaction, but the master describes the servant’s forfeiture of native ability as an act of cowardice, a vile and worthless choice.

The story is intended as a stern warning, and if warning and incentive is the principal object lesson for a first century audience, a peremptory condemnation into outer darkness will presumably cut it.

Yet we ought to remind ourselves that the Synoptic Gospels from which it comes must also be measured against the Fourth Gospel, that of the glorified Christ, the Christ who insisted he came not to condemn the world but to save it, and the Christ who defends the adulteress against the vengeance of a misogynist society.

So, let’s rely on the greatness of God to develop a larger ending to the story and let’s cast it in a more inclusive mode.

The parable is a cautionary tale about one in such terror of the master’s mercilessness as to become oblivious to the qualification which gave her the talent. She was deemed worthy of the talent , deemed capable of putting it to productive use; she was capable, she definitely was capable. In the story she could have added in language we’re more accustomed to, “I was so terrified on account of my abusive family history that I forgot who I was and what I could do, so I went and hid your talent in the ground out of sheer desperation. Mister, the most unbearable misfortune is when you lose yourself in that way, when you realize it and even reproach yourself, but you just can’t help it.”

And then there’s what could be called ‘The Workshop Syndrome,’ assuming the master distributed the talents at the same time, the one-talented servant - let us call her Sally - would have regarded her colleagues’ larger number as indication of their superior abilities which fed back to further undermine her self confidence, disempower her.

Sally, for goodness’ sakes, needs a life coach who actually would not address the psychological trauma but rather appeal to a more compelling vision than fear, something she cares about enough to take just one step for its sake, the courage for which comes from another place, enabling a trembling mortal to move forward and bringing along its own progress, step by step, as day follows night.

Those with whom I’ve been privileged to share the experience of bottoming out and resurrection speak of a courage which seems rooted in a god, a god beyond god, who appears when god has disappeared in the anxiety of doubt. For a Christian believer the abiding vision when all else has vanished is typically the image or imagination of Christ crucified, as if produced by an unsuspected capacity in themselves , and this god beyond god brings a knowledge of their death and resurrection with a chemical edge which can practically be tasted.

Such bottoming out and resurrection is how we can understand the exclamation of the Apostle Paul: “Hope does not disappoint us because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us. For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly... God proves his love for us in that while we still were sinners Christ died for us.  Much more surely then, now that we have been justified by his blood, will we be saved through him from the wrath of God. . . much more surely, having been reconciled, will we be saved by his life.” (Romans 5:5 ff.)

The initial backbone of today’s Gospel seems to have been fear-based, about something the culture imagined as the wrath of God, but we’ve seen that it’s possible for the wrath of God to be obliterated by a larger truth which we experience as unearnable grace, to which the tradition testifies, of which Paul once again exclaims in his letter to us today: “God has destined us not for wrath but for obtaining salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for us, so that . . . we may live with him.” (1 Thess. 5:9-10)

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Proper 27 A - Nov 6, 2011

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY --- Br. Andrew Colquhoun, OHC
Proper 27, Year A - Sunday, November 6, 2011

Amos 5:198-24 --- 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18 --- Matthew25:1-13

Preaching rotas have a way of tripping me up – so do lectionaries.  I’d like to have a bit more leeway.   You know… Oh, I don’t like this gospel, let me pick another that’s more comfortable.  One that won’t kick up so many questions.  One that won’t go against what my mother taught me about sharing, for example.  As in, “If you don’t give these young women some of your oil, I’ll be very disappointed!”

Picture credit: Frank Starmer



These strange passages of Jesus’ discourses are not the kind of Christianity most of us want.  We had a friend in South Africa who said that what the Church desires is Christianity Lite.  Non-disturbing, comforting, reassuring following the meek One who loved children so much!  Who told us to be like children.  (By the way, anyone who thinks that means being nice and eager to share, doesn’t know children!)

In our efforts to keep things nice, we often just don’t read what is there. We see what we want to see. And what we seem to want is for difficult truths to go away or at least to simplify. So we pick and choose.  This part fits my ideas, I’ll keep that.  Oooh, this is not nice, it must be wrong.

I don’t mean that all portions of Scripture have the same weight for us.  Cultures have evolved, ethics have matured, and so on.  The Levitical laws do not all apply in our faith tradition.  We don’t keep kosher.   We may not stone adulterers.  You might get pork for lunch.

But some aspects of the Bible speak of things that are immutable, unchanging.  The things which deal of justice and God’s righteousness which is love are not always palatable to our ears.

The words of the prophet Amos are among those.  After putting the people squarely among those who perpetrate what they condemn in others with regard to the poor, he tells them this… don’t expect the Day of the Lord to raise you up. None of your efforts at righteousness will count for anything because you trample the poor and take from them levies of grain; you tax them but don’t pay any yourselves. (oops, did I just say something awkward?)  You do all the “God” things and neglect the godly things. You preach morality; you sacrifice, you sing all the right songs, you pronounce yourselves God’s people but until justice flows like rivers and righteous concern for the poor and needy pour out, I do not hear you.

So the prophet calls us to live as God’s people must.  Not with outward show but with inner love.  And that won’t come about automatically.  It takes practice. It comes from an open heart that doesn’t seek its own wellbeing but seeks the righteousness of God – that is, a righteousness that streams from love and spends itself in justice.

So to the ten bridesmaids!  Not a clear story of redemption at all, I don’t think.  Why didn’t the five prudent ones share their oil as out idea of politeness and propriety would demand?  What about if someone asks for your shirt, give him your coat, too? What’s happening here?

I don’t believe this passage is about going to heaven or even being ready for the second kept out?  Is heaven, then, all about good behavior?

And it’s certainly not about good manners or being good boys and girls.  What Jesus is calling for in these last days is for his disciples to be prepared for whatever might come.  Being a bridesmaid isn’t just about a pretty frock and parties. If the lights went out, nothing could happen. This is a story about faithfulness and commitment.  Life in the kingdom, comes with responsibility.  The wise ones knew this. They had prepared themselves with the hope and expectation of what was coming.  They couldn’t give away the oil because it was the oil of long perseverance, the oil of faithfulness. Not something that can be dispensed automatically.

Jesus calls us to life in a kingdom that fully demands response.  Christianity Lite is for comfort, for pleasant Sunday mornings. Or pleasant weekends in the monastery.  Life in the kingdom calls us to be ready for the demands of being truly human as Jesus the Christ was.  Life in the kingdom comes fraught with danger and the weight of being the people who do justice and love mercy.

There’s really no time for Christianity Lite.  Look around us. Look at the desperation in the world; look at the hunger in the eyes of people. Face the unrest and fear humanity faces. Consider economies based on war and greed. Nothing soft will be sufficient to the challenges of love.

Look into the face of Christ and it will become clear as the Day.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

All Saints - Nov 1, 2011

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY --- Br. Scott Wesley Borden, OHC
All Saints - Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Revelation 7:9-17 --- 1 John 3:1-3 --- Matthew 5:1-12

All Saints

It is hard approach All Saints Day without having to pass through its much celebrated, and much distorted, prelude – All Hallows Eve, better known as Halloween. Mischief and mayhem, ghosts and goblins, and above all – as much candy as anybody can stomach... These are the stuff of Halloween, at least in secular American culture.

Halloween, with its focus on what you can get, makes a mockery of our religious tradition. But sometimes our religious traditions need to be mocked...

The roots of Halloween, and of All Saints Day for that matter, are a bit obscure, though it appears that Celtic spirituality played an important role in the start of both traditions.

It is hardly surprising that Celtic tradition, with its very high regard for those who have gone before and far less linear approach to time, would peculiarly honor saints. The custom of All Saints seems to have spread eastward from Ireland.

And its not so surprising that in the enterprising and poverty-ridden Celtic lands, somebody figured out how to make money along the way. Perhaps starting in Scotland, poor people went about on the eve of All Saints asking for money. In exchange for some cash, they would pray for the souls of your loved ones in purgatory. An All Hallows Even tradition is born... Halloween also appears to have spread east, and then west, from Ireland and Scotland.

Add some Reformation and some ingenuity by American candy makers to the mix and today we have substituted candy for coins and any idea of prayer, for souls in purgatory or anywhere else, has flown out of the equation altogether.

Yet here we are, faithfully keeping All Saints Day, which has come from humble Irish roots to be a principal feast of the Church.

The focus on souls in purgatory, or on ghosts and goblins, or just on candy, makes an interesting prelude to this feast. At best, it seems to call us to focus on what we can do for these pour souls, whatever poor souls we may have in mind. At worst it seems to focus us on what we can get – who can get the most and the best candy.

But the focus on what we can get, rather than what we can give, may in fact be the right preparation for All Saints Day, as counter intuitive... as unchristian as it may appear.

Bernard of Clairvaux, that is Saint Bernard... notes that our praise, glorification, and celebration can mean little, if anything, to the saints. Earthly honor, he observes, can be of little value next to Heavenly honor. He concludes that the saints have no need of us. According to Bernard: “When we venerate [the saints], it is serving us, not them.”

And that, for Bernard, is exactly why we should venerate saints (including, of course, Bernard himself).

As Bernard sees it, venerating the saints, calling them to mind, inspires us to want to be in their company – to want to be like them. Ultimately we want to join the saints not in their communion with each other, but in their communion with Jesus, with God.

So a bag stuffed with candy may not be exactly the desired outcome, but a person stuffed with spirit may be the spiritually evolved cousin of that trick-or-treat bag...

We are taught that it is more blessed to give than to receive, but when God, or the Saints of God, are offering gifts, it is surely better to be ready to receive. On All Saints, more than any other time, we are called to open our hearts to the gifts that we receive from the saints. And to the extent that we are preoccupied with what pious gifts we can bring and solemn liturgies we can produce, we are just getting in the way.

So who are these saints anyway?

In the early church it was not so complicated to become a saint. All you needed was enough enthusiasm at the time of your death in the great congregation and you were acclaimed a saint. A spontaneous process, of course, doesn't sit well in a hierarchical system, so as the Church became more powerful and more centralized in the middle ages, a more controlled process of ordering saints came into use.

There has been a little bit of a tempest in the teapot of the Episcopal Church recently over the publication of “Holy Women, Holy Men.” It appears that a great effort was made to be more inclusive and more representative in who we honor as a saint in our calendar.

Including JS Bach sits well with me – no greater musician has ever written for the Church, but Henry Purcell seems a bit more iffy. Ralph Adams Cram, architect of our little church, was surely an inspired builder who's buildings still enliven the spirits of others, yet I'm not sure his life is particularly inspiring, or even particularly interesting. There is no question that John Calvin has had a huge impact on countless Christians, but I suspect he would be among the first to ask to have his name removed from a list of saints.

For me, the great service provided by Holy Women & Holy Men is that it calls us to think differently about saints. Our natural tendency is to want to call somebody a saint because they deserve the honor. But as Bernard of Clairvaux notes, our honor is of no value. That is not the point of having someone in the calendar.

Perhaps what we need is a greater embrace of Halloween – the image of standing before the saints with our goodie bag in hand asking for a treat may be the best approach to All Saints Day. Maybe I need to be more like the innocent child searching for treats than a sophisticated adult deciding who is, or is not worthy of sainthood.

Does Bach inspire me in the way that Patrick, or Columba, or Martin Luther King do? I really don't know, but he does inspire others. I do know that, much as I admire the work of Ralph Adams Cram, he surely does not. But the simple wisdom of Halloween is that I don't linger at the places where the treats don't work for me. I just move on.

Wyston Hugh Auden is somebody who may not actually be on anybody's list of saints – though a more inspired and inspiring poet in English language would be hard to find. His poem, “A Hymn to Saint Cecelia,” the patron saint of musicians, describes the relationship with saints as only a truly inspired and gifted poet can.

“Blessed Cecilia, appear in visions to all musicians, appear and inspire. Translated daughter come down and startle composing mortals with immortal fire.”

I pray for Cecilia to appear to me. I pray for John and Charles Wesley to appear to me. For Martin Luther and Martin Luther King. For Benedict, Scholastica, and James Huntington and W.H. Auden. The list goes on and on.

They don't need me – I need them. I need their strength, their vision, and their ability to startle me out of the cocoon of my own ego. God grant us all the wisdom and humility to open our hearts to receive the gifts that the saints around us so freely offer.

Amen.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Proper 26 A - Oct 30, 2011

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY --- Br. James Michael Dowd, OHC
Proper 26, Year A - Sunday, October 30, 2011

Joshua 3:7-17 --- 1 Thessalonians 2:9-13 --- Matthew 23:1-12

On Humility

This morning's Gospel, among other things, is one of the great “monastic” passages in the Bible.  Jesus' call to humility is a theme that all of the most important monastic writers spent a good deal of time with from the earliest days of our tradition.

Chapter Seven of the Rule of Benedict is totally devoted to the idea of humility.  In it, our father Benedict teaches us that there are twelve steps of humility and begins the chapter with this quote from St. Luke, actually found twice in that Gospel, and also found in today's passage from St. Matthew: “All who exalt themselves will be humbled, and all who humble themselves will be exalted.

In both Gospels (Luke and Matthew), Jesus tells different stories to communicate this essential truth.  In all cases, however, he is speaking about various aspects of Jewish culture and society in First century Palestine.  As I was reflecting on this morning's Gospel passage, I found myself pondering how this applied to the Rule of Benedict and to our lives here in the monastery as we live it today.

And it's in the introduction of Chapter Seven, entitled, by the way, “On Humility”, that I found some answers to these questions.  Benedict uses the image of Jacob's Ladder to set up his discussion regarding monastic humility.  He writes about the monk's body and soul as being the sides of the ladder and the divine summons being the various rungs of humility and discipline for the ascent.  The monk descends the ladder by being prideful and ascends the ladder by being humble. The higher you ascend that ladder, the closer to heaven you get.


Picture credit: Albert Houthuesen

Now this was a theme used by many of the Monastic and Church Fathers in the Sixth century and for several centuries before, but I think it might be hard for us to connect with in our own time.  The verse, however, in this section of the Rule that absolutely grabs me, and that has real repercussions in my life is this: “When the heart is humble, God raises it up to heaven.

Brendan Freeman is the Abbot of New Melleray, a Trappist Abbey in Iowa. Recently he released a book collecting some of his homilies and Chapter Talks and in one section he reflects on this theme of the heart.  Allow me to quote to you a passage:



Formation in the monastic life is formation of the heart.  Once we have found our hearts, we move from the effort of prayer, the work of prayer, from strenuous prayer to self-acting prayer.  The heart has two meanings.  It is the center of our being and the point of meeting between each of us and God.  Two do not exist in this place, but only One.  Our prayer becomes Christ's prayer.
Abbot Brendan's phrase “once we have found our hearts” is so moving to me.  It seems to me that Christian formation – be that monastic or non-monastic – is about finding our hearts.  If we are one with God in that place, in our hearts, then that is where the spiritual journey must, by definition, lead us.  And Benedict teaches us that when the heart is humble, God raises it up to heaven, that is, to Himself.

So, what does it mean to be humble?  To have a humble heart?  Well, in the Carmelite tradition, St. Teresa of Avila teaches us from the 16th century:

I was once pondering why it is that our Beloved is so fond of the virtue of humility.  Without it ever having occurred to me before, this thought suddenly came to me: It's because God is supreme truth.  To be humble is to walk in truth.
Now Benedict and Teresa and virtually every other monastic writer up until the second half of the Twentieth century often wrote about how wretched and awful we all are.  But if being humble is to walk in truth, then we must have a full understanding of who we really are in the context of an eternal life which already began for us at our conception.  And so, yes, we must know, for example, those areas in which we are weak, damaged, sinful, fearful and lacking faith.  But to walk in truth is also to know those areas in which we are good, holy, whole, trusting, loving, and charitable.

If we are truthful with ourselves, we know that many, if not all of those things I just listed are true about ourselves.  God already knows the truth about us.  He knows that truth because he created us in his own image and likeness and longs for us to know him as our Father.  Our journey is to discover that truth so that we can move closer to becoming one with God.  So that two no longer exist in our hearts, but only One.

For us, in the Twenty-First century, “the truth” has become reduced in some circles to simply a psychological understanding of ourselves.  And the psychological understanding of the human mind is a great gift that God has revealed to us over the course of the last hundred years or so.  But it is only part of the the truth - seeking that we are called to do.  In fact, knowing ourselves and reflecting on our own psyches, environment, families, social, political and economic situations can teach us a great deal about ourselves.

But the bottom line is that all of that information is only that: information.  To be a Christian in formation is to be a Christian in prayer.  To be a Christian in prayer means not that we are exalted, but that we have willingly humbled ourselves in truth, so that Christ can unite us with himself as he prays within us.  It is Christ's praying within us that brings us to the heights of exaltation, to heaven, to God our Father.

The Christian never arrives at The Truth. Rather, the Christian journeys within a context of truth, learning more and more about themselves and in the process about God. The Church, representing the entire Christian community makes this same journey of truth on a communal basis. That truth is revealed in prayer. A prayer of  the heart. A prayer of Christ's heart.

The goal of prayer is to help us to arrive at a place of silence. There are certainly many different prayer techniques and different techniques are appropriate for different people. But the goal is all the same: silence.


God leads us, as he led Joshua into the Promised Land. On the banks of the River Jordan, he and all the people ritually prepared themselves so that they could enter the Promised Land thus exalting their people. Our way to the Promised Land is the silent way.  Silence is a way of being that places us in right relationship with God. It is a knowledge that in our silence before God, we are exalted because only then are we able to hear Christ praying within us. Uniting with us in an eternal love that carries us up that ladder to heaven, to God who is our Father.

AMEN.

Votive for the Exaltation of the Holy Cross

Holy Cross Priory, Toronto, Ontario
Br. Robert Sevensky, OHC Superior
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Votive Mass of the Exaltation of the Holy Cross

This morning at Matins we remembered the life and witness of Bp. James Hannington and his companions who were martyred for their Christian faith in 1885 in what is now Uganda.
 James Hannington

As is often the case, the situation there was complex.  Colonial powers (English, French, others) were moving into the country and the young kabaka or king, Mwanga, was alarmed.  He feared that the new religion these Christian missionaries were introducing would bring down the wrath of the ancestors.  He feared a rapidly changing social order.  He feared the elimination of his royal powers and privileges.  And so he responded with violence.  He ordered the bishop and his party killed. The next year he had many of his own pages tortured and burned alive for their faith because they would not or could not conform to ancient tribal customs.  Still others were eliminated.  Mwanga, the king, was between 16 and 18 years old when all of this took place. 

Mwanga was in no sense an innocent.  But neither was he a monster.  He was someone caught up in a political and social upheaval whose response, driven by fear, was both immoral and ineffective, but not, unfortunately, surprising.  He did, by the way, go on to lead several insurrections against the British and late in his life converted to the Anglican faith.

As we do on feasts of martyrs, we began this morning’s service with the invitatory, setting the theme for the feast.  It was: "Christ calls the faithful to embrace his cross. Come let us adore him."
I have said these words regularly for over 25 years.  But this morning I was struck by the ambiguity of the invitation.  Exactly whose cross are we being invited to embrace?  Christ’s... or our own?

The answer, of course, is both... always both.  And in saying this we come up against the mystery of suffering.  For in all genuine suffering — whether we recognize it or not — the thin membrane or veil or curtain between Christ’s life and our own is pierced, pulled aside, or, in the words of scripture, torn from top to bottom.  The one cross — Christ’s — is certainly not the same as the other — yours or mine.  But in the wonderful economy of God, they each illuminate the other, concretize and enflesh and give meaning to the other.

This was true for Bp. Hannington and his companions in 1885 when in the midst of the complex marriage of British colonialism and Christian evangelism he saw the image of the cross of Jesus shining through.

The bishop’s last words:  "Go tell  Mwanga that I have purchased a road into Uganda by my blood" are a ringing testament to the Christian hope, that out of death, and paradoxically through death, comes life, new life, larger life. 

This was true for those Ugandan martyrs the following year.  Though they may not have been able to express it as eloquently as did the bishop, but they knew that they had been called to a greater loyalty, to a greater king, one whose claims trump the demands and desires of a frightened young tribal chieftain, indeed of any human monarch or ruler or power

This was true for Archbishop Janani Luwum who in 1975 went to his death in Uganda as a witness to justice and Christian charity in opposition to the mad dictator, Idi Amin.
And it is true for us here today.

Of course we pray that we may be spared.  And like Jesus, we neither desire nor intend nor orchestrate our own sufferings.  To do so would be madness.  But like Jesus and like the martyrs, we embrace the sufferings that are sent us when they cannot be averted.  We freely say: Yes.  We even, dare we say it, embrace them.

"Christ calls the faithful to embrace his cross."

Our own crosses take many shapes, many forms:  physical or emotional suffering, diminishment, betrayal, limitation, failure, and ultimately death.  But the cross of Jesus has power to illumine and suffuse with meaning and hope these dark corners.

It is important to remind ourselves that we don’t have to like our crosses.  But to embrace, to say yes, is to acknowledge and consent to a wholly other order.  It is to confess to ourselves and sometimes to others and occasionally even to the world that yes, even here, God is not absent.  It is to confess that even here — perhaps especially here — God can be found.  Even here, in sharing with Jesus the often painful predicament that is the human condition, we are not abandoned or left alone. 

Our morning worship climaxes with the recitation of the Benedictus, the Canticle of Zachariah.   Its antiphon for the feast of martyrs includes the following words of encouragement:  “These are the ones who have come safely through the great ordeal; they have washed their robes and made them white in the blood of the Lamb.

The cross of Jesus that we celebrate today is the source and symbol of that wondrous cleansing.  It is, in all its scandal, a promise that suffering and death do not have the final word.  The final word for Jesus, for the martyrs and for us is always: Life.  Life into death.  Life through death.  Life beyond death.

At our midday service today we prayed:  “Happy are those who are invited to the wedding supper of the Lamb.”   This Eucharistic meal is not yet that supper in its all its fullness... but it is a foretaste.  Let us feast together now, confident that what we share here will strengthen us and lead to embrace, to consent, to say yes, to the cross and to life.

Christ calls the faithful to embrace his cross.  Come let us adore him.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Proper 25 A - Oct 23, 2011

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY --- Br. Bernard Jean Delcourt, OHC
Proper 25A – Sunday, October 23, 2011

Leviticus 19:1-2, 15-18 --- 1 Thessalonians 2:1-8 --- Matthew 22:34-46


Matthew situates today's gospel passage at the beginning of Jesus' last week.  Only yesterday, Jesus made a triumphal entry into Jerusalem, seated on a donkey, treading palms and coats thrown on the ground.

In only four days, Jesus will die the infamous death of a crucified.  At this stage, the spring is still being wound up that will burst into tragedy before the Passover even begins.

It is Monday.  Jesus is teaching.  And several religious factions seek to challenge him into dishonor.  He will win every challenge.  And we can imagine that this only heightened his opponents' desire to do away with him.

*****

Last Sunday's Gospel reminded us of the Pharisees' challenge to Jesus about paying taxes to the Empire.  The lection of today alludes to a second challenge; this time, from the Sadducees, and about the resurrection of the dead.

Today's third challenge seems mild in comparison.  Maybe it is even a genuine question, not a trap.  Maybe a Pharisaic opponent was so allured by Jesus' masterful response to the two earlier challenges that he just had to ask a most important question to Jesus.  Maybe.

The Greek text of that question could be rendered into "Teacher, what sort of commandment is of great import?"  This would have been a critical question for a Pharisee.

They were religious practitioners who tried to obey every commandment in the Torah.  That’s no less than 613 commandments (248 positive injunctions and 365 prohibitions, to be exact).  Many would have entered into discussions as to which commandments were the heaviest and which were lighter.

*****

Jesus answers this last challenge succinctly and with authority.  He quotes scripture.  He puts a hierarchy in his answer.
"`You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.'
This is the greatest and first commandment. And a second is like it:
You shall love your neighbor as yourself.'
On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets."
The first part of Jesus' answer is a quote from Deuteronomy (6:5).  It is said by our Jewish brethren as part of their most cherished prayer, the Shema.

The second part of Jesus' answer is a quote from Leviticus (19:18).  We read that passage this morning.

I shall come back to these commandments, if only too briefly -- for all of our religion should flow from their combination.

*****

The second pericope in today's gospel reading seems puzzling to modern readers.  This part about David and Messiah.  I believe that it is an integral part of Jesus' response to the three challenges that Matthew has described in this chapter of the gospel.

These challenges all attempt to strip Jesus of any authority to teach.  Their sequence shows all the worry that Jesus' opponents feel.  They don't want anyone to get any ideas that this young rabbi might be the Anointed One of God, the Messiah.  He doesn't fit their bill, therefore he can't be genuine in their minds.

But in Jesus' rhetorical question to his challengers, he introduces the idea that a Davidic ancestry is irrelevant in identifying the Messiah.  Once more with scripture at the ready (this time Psalm 100:1 allegedly composed by David himself), Jesus undermines the Messianic expectations of his challengers.

Jesus continues to drive home to them that the Messiah is so much more and so different than the Messiah they have neatly boxed for their political and religious convenience.

So, Jesus crushes verbally three onslaughts from his opponents and, having demonstrated his natural authority, he crushes their preconceptions of the Messiah.

How many of his hearers did have a conversion experience that day and understood Him to be Messiah?  Not enough to stop the dynamic that would put him on a cross by week's end.

*****

Now back to the two commandments that the Messiah teaches us are of greatest import.  In these two commandments, Jesus gives us a summary of his mission and ministry.  The two commandments interpret one another and the two need to stand together.

In a more hebraic rendering from the Greek text, they read:
"`You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your being, and with all your intelligence.'
This is the greatest and first of the mitzvoth. And a second is like it:
You shall love your companion as yourself.'
On these two orders hang all of Torah and the inspired ones."
The aim of our life is orient all of our being and all of our existence towards God.  In so doing, we are to love as God loves.

*****

And what does God love?  God loves all of creation, with no exception.  We are to love all that God loves.

Now, all is all.  We are not allowed to exclude anything or anyone, not even our enemies.  As Matthew reports Jesus saying earlier in his gospel: "God makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the righteous and on the unrighteous."

We are even to love God's sun and God's rain.  We are to keep no part of creation out of our love and concern.  It all hangs together in the loving hands of the Creator, we are not to consider any of it as disposable or beyond our care.

*****

We are to love as God loves - without discrimination.  We are to love what God loves - everything.  Because God is the source of all Being and God loves all of God's creatures.

By the way, love of self is included in all this but it is not emphasized; rather it is assumed it should be there.  Self-hate is not like God’s Love.  Self-absorption is not like God’s Love.  But I am deeply lovable and loved and so are you.

So, we are to love like God; we are to love everything, everyone and indiscriminately.  This is a big God.  This is a big Love.  We are going to need to keep stretching.  But it is better than to stick around within the box where we'd like to keep a God more to our proportions, one who loves as I love, one who loves what I love.

As W. Paul Young, author of "The Shack" once wrote: " The only reason that God is ever in a box is because God wants to be where you are."

Step out of your box, Love the God who awaits you there and let your Love expand divinely.

Amen.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Proper 23 A - Oct 9, 2011

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY
Br. Adam D. McCoy, OHC
Proper 23 A - Sunday, September 18, 2011


Exodus 32:1-14
Philippians 4:1-9
Matthew 22:1-14

I suppose we have all been invited to weddings we weren’t sure we wanted to attend. People we don’t know especially well, business and professional connections, distant relatives whose lives have diverged from ours, children of friends we have more or less lost touch with. It isn’t that we don’t wish the happy couple well. We do. We always do. But it’s what surrounds it – the travel, the gift, the strangers we find ourselves placed next to, the loud music at the dinner or party that makes it impossible to talk to the strangers even if we find each other interesting, the Sunday-best clothes we need to wear. The general sense that everything had better go close to perfect or else. So much work for such a short ceremony.

Shortly after I became rector of my first parish, I agreed to preside at a wedding for a colleague who had an emergency. I didn’t know the couple or their families. In fact, I didn’t know a soul involved. It was all planned. I arrived for the practice the night before. The service and celebration were at a lodge – Elks, or perhaps Moose, or maybe Oddfellows – which had a nice hall and a lovely garden, well watered, lush and green. The ceremony was to be in the garden. The theme of the wedding was country and western. The young people were charming, as were their parents. But the arrangements were in the control of a wedding coordinator, a formidable lady who in another era could easily have been a colonel in the ladies’ division of the Waffen SS. She led us through the event with terrifying assurance. The principal challenge was that the garden space was not very deep, and so she let us know that it was vitally important that as the bridal party walked down the aisle, they do so deliberately, stepping slowly, to savor the music and the moment. Everyone practiced walking in to “Oh my love, my darling, I hunger for your kiss”. It must have taken at least 10 minutes to get everyone in, though it seemed much, much longer. I could see the humor in some eyes, and the anxiety in others’, as this lady practiced her craft on us. She had thought of everything. Except the space for the actual wedding.

Late the next afternoon all assembled in their wedding garments. The shoes were what interested me. The men’s cowboy boots had fairly narrow heels, and the women wore white pumps with alarming stiletto heels. The wedding director had sequestered the party behind a door so they could not be seen, nor could they see. The music began. “Oh my love, my darling”. The first bridesmaid and groomsman started slowly up the turf grass aisle, waiting step by step as instructed. The stiletto heels started to sink into the turf. Step by step, each step a little more urgent. As successive couples entered this went on and on, ever more holes being punched in the turf, until there was hardly a solid space for the bride’s heels at all. I learned that day there’s a kind of movement you have to make to get your heels out of turf. Then came the standing in line for the actual promises. Not only stiletto heels sank ever deeper in the turf, but so did the small, sharp heels of cowboy boots. I did what I could to shorten the agony, but there’s only so much you can do to shorten the marriage service, especially when the bride’s little sister is reading St. Paul's 13th Chapter to the Corinthians. Love is patient I thought was especially appropriate. Fortunately, the young people had caught onto the humor of it and they were actually enjoying it, and the bride was the best sport of all. There was lots of goodnatured laughter and the dancing later seemed to take on the special step they’d all just learned. But the wedding director was beside herself. Her fixed smile at the end of the service, if turned toward the west, over the sea, could have frozen the state of Hawaii.

We often think the worst thing that can go wrong with a well-planned wedding is some sort of social faux pas, a gaffe that embarrasses everyone and perhaps jinxes the marriage. Perfection is the goal. And so we think of the unfortunate guest who didn’t have his wedding garment on, and pity him, shocked at the king’s violent response. But of course, weddings are never just about the couple, and they are not just about getting the social niceties correct. They are about the community that comes together around the couple. A wedding is an anticipatory celebration of the future, and the couple being married is the symbol of that future – new life growing out of their love, new possibilities for the community emerging from their union. It is the joining of families, and so parents and relatives surround the couple, creating a new constellation of relationships. The guests are not just witnesses but participants in this renewal of communal hope, so a guest who flaunts the customs puts his or her ego needs before the needs of the community. To be inappropriate is an insult .

This being the case, it is interesting to me in our gospel story today that the young man being married is hardly mentioned, and the bride not at all. The story of this wedding, as is often the story about weddings, is about the parents and the guests. What is important here is the social reality that this wedding represents. This is not a private ceremony at a small lodge in Orange County, California. It is a royal wedding. It is not about the private joy of two families and their anticipation of a new and better future, but represents the future course of a nation, the continuance of the legitimate governing order, prosperity and possibility for everyone. We focus on the guest who came in the wrong clothes. But let’s look at it from the point of view of the king for a moment.

A king would invite the great and the good, as the British would say. The rich and powerful and well connected would all be expected to attend and honor the king by their presence and their gifts. They represent the people, who are present by proxy. But something is seriously wrong in this kingdom. None of the great and the good show up. It’s as though there’s been a revolution and the king somehow didn’t get the memo. It is, of course, an extreme, even preposterous, situation, the kind Jesus loves to use to draw a vivid picture. What if the king gave a party and no-one came? Except this is worse. This wedding is about the continuation of the king’s legitimate rule after he is gone, through his son and his son’s children. These people aren’t just being socially rude. They are rejecting the king’s right to be their king. And so he reacts, with political violence. He eliminates the powerful and invites instead the powerless, the poor, the people of the street, both good and bad. They are all made welcome. The king finds in ordinary people the legitimacy for his rule and its continuation through his son.

I think we can figure out what this parable is referring to without too much difficulty. In remembering and writing down this story of Jesus the early Church is telling itself a story about itself, about why God has rejected his chosen people and replaced them with the riffraff of the rest of the world, Greeks, Romans, barbarians, the good and the bad, none of them part of the original covenant. But here they are, all of them, invited to the feast, dressed up and having the time of their life at the party they never thought they would even see from outside the windows of the hall, let alone as honored guests. What a surprise! What a turnaround! What a joy! To be the king’s invited guests at the wedding symbolizing the new life of the kingdom! Perhaps they are all rehearsing the wedding song of the lamb for that other great celebration yet to come.

All except one. One who doesn’t understand. Or doesn’t care. Or is caught up in his own self-centered world. Who sees no reason to change when she receives the invitation. Who doesn’t realize that he is called to something new and wonderful and different, to something that she needs to respond to, to say yes to, to change himself for. One who came to this event of a lifetime dressed as if she were going to the market to buy a fish for dinner. But this is the transforming event of a lifetime, and he is not responding.

We are told in the commentaries that wedding garments were provided, as ties used to be ready in the old days for negligent customers at restaurants of a certain sort. No one needed to be embarrassed. The host’s generosity covered – literally covered – the shortcomings of the guests. All were made worthy, all were equally prepared for the wedding banquet. This person has evidently refused to show respect for his host, for his king. What a shame for her. What a shame for us all if we misunderstand our invitation.

The truth is, we are the riffraff of the rest of the world. We are the powerless, the poor, the people of the street, the good and the bad. As St. Paul says, How many of us were powerful when we were called? How many of us were rich, or well esteemed in the eyes of the world? God has chosen us for his celebration because others more worthy than we refused to come. What can we do except put on our best clothes, or trust that when we get to the wedding hall, garments will be provided? Then we can all march slowly in, learning to walk gracefully even if our heels start sinking into the turf because we really don’t know anything at all about where we’re going and what it’s like. If we truly welcome the invitation to the kingdom, we’ll smile and laugh and shout for joy together with that wonderful couple and their friends. And maybe there will be a wedding garment for the one who thought she was in control but wasn’t.

It took her a while to get over herself, but in a little while she changed her icy smile for warmth. She realized she wasn’t really dressed right for the wedding. She changed her attitude, put on her wedding garment, and joined the dance.
picture credit: La Vida Creations