Showing posts with label Transfiguration. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Transfiguration. Show all posts

Thursday, August 6, 2020

Feast of the Transfiguration - August 6, 2020



In the name of the One God, who is Lover, Beloved, and Love Overflowing. Amen. 


The last two weeks, I’ve had a lot of trouble sleeping. I lie awake for hours, pressed into the bed by fatigue, halfway to dreaming. One night this week, when I’d finally fallen asleep, I tossed all night dreaming that I was awake, searching anxiously for the key that would let me finally surrender to sleep. The next morning, I woke up convinced that in my frantic dream search, I had found two of the three pieces of my broken heart. Not a bad trade for one restless night, I suppose. 


Praying with that dream, I found myself wondering what I would do if I found that third piece. A voice answered, “I would become all love.” If I found the last piece of my broken heart, I would step out of the prison of my own defenses and I would become all love. 

 

A once broken, walled up heart, united and radiant in love—what better image for the transfigured Christ within and among us? 

 

Peter, James, and John suffered their share of insomnia, too. In an inverse portrait of the scene in the garden of Gethsemane, today’s reading from Luke tells us that “Peter and his companions were weighed down with sleep; but since they had stayed awake, they saw [Jesus’] glory.” (Luke 9:32) Perhaps in that moment some fragment of their own fractured hearts returned to them and they wondered what would happen if their hearts were whole once more. Perhaps they, too, found abundant compensation for a sleepless night. 

 

Certainly, the moment Luke portrays stays with Peter his whole life, laying the foundation for his ministry and martyrdom. A moment so powerful that he commends us to “be attentive to this as to a lamp shining in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts.” (2 Peter 1:19) 

 

We have all had such moments, experiences where, even for a moment, the veil between heaven and earth is lifted, and we see ourselves and all the world around us shining with God’s radiance. We might be tempted to cling to these moments of revelation, but clinging will not do. Rather, we must attend to them as a to a lamp shining in a dark place, trusting that over the course of a lifetime of faithfulness, the day will dawn and the morning star will rise in our hearts. 

 

Our own transfiguration, which is another way of thinking of conversion to Christ, takes a lifetime of gentle attention, until finally we release and become all love. 

 

A friend sent me a card recently with a line from Hafiz. It said “An awake heart is like a sky that pours light.” That one missing piece of our broken hearts is the one Jesus holds within his own, safeguarding it to the day of our return. It may be that that one missing piece is the absence that keeps our hearts awake, weighed down though we may be with sleep and forgetting, the missing bit  that tunes the ear of our heart to listen for the voice of one calling us home again until we, too, can become all love. 

 

Come, transfigured Jesus. Come, and draw our hearts to yours. Enfold and transfigure us. Make us all love. 

 

Amen. 

Tuesday, August 6, 2019

The Feast of the Transfiguration - Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Holy Cross MonasteryWest Park, NY
Rev. Matthew Wright, CRC
The Feast of the Transfiguration - Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Exodus 34:29-35
2 Peter 1:13-21
Luke 9:28-36

Click here for an audio version of the sermon.


This Gospel story of the Transfiguration is maybe my favorite.  And honestly, I’m not sure if I can say why I love it so much.  But I have a sense that it’s because in some way the whole mystery of the Gospel is present in this one moment, this one scene—and maybe all of the Gospel is present in every moment.  But this particular scene captures so many layers of meaning.  Some scholars have called it a “misplaced” or a “proleptic” Resurrection appearance, because it so resembles the later scenes of Jesus’ appearing.  It’s almost like the Transfiguration gives us a sneak preview of what’s to come at Easter.

And at the same time that the Resurrection is present here in advance, we’re also back at the moment of Jesus’ baptism, when the Divine Voice declares him “my Son, the Beloved” (or here in Luke’s telling, “my Chosen”).  And I think in a way, the Crucifixion, which John’s Gospel calls Jesus’ “glorification” is also present here, on the holy mountain.  We’re told that Moses and Elijah “were speaking of his departure [his death], which he was about to accomplish at Jerusalem.”  And so, in some way, that too is here.

New Testament scholar Dale Allison calls the Transfiguration and the Crucifixion “twin images.”  He says that these two images, “represent the extremities of human experience… Jesus is the great illustration of both pain and hope; he is humanity exalted and humanity glorified.”  In some way, the Crucifixion is present here in the Transfiguration, and the Transfiguration shines through even in, maybe especially in, Jesus’ dying on the Cross.

Luke and the other Gospel authors shows us that this Transfiguration moment happens in some way outside of time—or that it contains all time—by showing us Moses and Elijah, two of the great figures of salvation history, also present.  And so I like to imagine, held in this one moment, the whole Gospel, the whole of salvation history: the light at the beginning, on the first day of creation, shining here; the light of the prophets who have come throughout time; the Voice at the baptism of Jesus, speaking still; Jesus’ glorification at the Crucifixion; the light bursting forth from the tomb at the Resurrection; and the light into which everything will be enfolded on the Last Day—all of it present, all of it held, in this one moment.

And again, maybe it would be better to say, all of it present in every moment; all of it seen, revealed, in this moment.  People who have had near-death experiences often talk about their entire life flashing before them in a moment.  Well, perhaps here we have the entire life of creation, from the Big Bang to the final return into God, flashing before us in the face of Jesus.

In Malcolm Guite’s Transfiguration sonnet, he writes that “The Love that dances at the heart of things / Shone out upon us from a human face” and he calls this seeing a “glimpse of how things really are.”  Here we see here in this moment the fullness of God, that’s actually present in every moment, and we see every moment held in the light of that fullness.

But how is it that we see this?  What allows such seeing?  Luke tells us that “Jesus took with him Peter and John and James, and went up on the mountain to pray.  And while he was praying, the appearance of his face changed…”  While he was praying.  This whole text, this whole experience, hinges on the fact that Jesus was in prayer.  Prayer is the doorway into this light.  And by prayer, I don’t simply mean having a conversation with God—although that can certainly be a doorway—but rather I mean that deep state of abiding, of opening and surrendering into God’s love.  I imagine all of us have seen this same light dancing in the face, in the eyes, of someone who was truly prayerful.

Many of you here who are monks here will of course remember Avery Brooke, who was an oblate of this monastery.  In her book Finding God in the World she tells about an experience she had while meeting with someone for spiritual direction; she writes: “Once one of my directees had just done something of which she was horribly ashamed.  She was utterly mired in feelings of despair and sat in my study with her head buried in her hands.  No words of mine penetrated and I didn’t know what to do.  But God did, and I found myself caught up in a tremendous peace and surety.  It was so strong, I knew it must be showing on my face, so I told her over and over, ‘Look at me.  Just look at me.’  Finally, she did, and it was all right, as I knew it would be.  Afterward she said to me wonderingly, ‘You were the love of God to me.’  And I knew she was right and that the action had been God’s, not mine.”

We’re told in our scripture readings today that both Moses’ and Jesus’ faces shone in this way with Divine Light.  Prayer, surrendering into God, opens us to this Light, to the Eternal, allows it to shine through us, and puts all things in proper perspective, allowing us to see things as they really are.

The Eastern Orthodox tradition has spent a lot of time unpacking the Transfiguration, and the accepted teaching is that what is seen on Mount Tabor, shining through Jesus, is the Uncreated Light; what’s sometimes called the “Taborian Light.”  And they say that it’s this same Light that was encountered as “the glory of God” in the Hebrew Scriptures, that it’s also the Light of the Resurrection, and the light of the flames at Pentecost—one Light suffusing all Scripture, all creation—and in these moments, when our eyes are readied by prayer, and sometimes in moments that take us entirely by surprise, we see it.  And some theologians go so far to say that even the fires of hell are simply this One Light, encountered by narrow, squinty eyes that are not yet ready, not yet adjusted, to behold its full glory.  And so we start readying our eyes to behold this light now, in prayer.

St. Augustine looked inward in prayer and found this Light in his own soul.  In his Confessions, written towards the end of the fourth century, he says: “I entered into the secret closet of my soul, led by You; and this I could do because You were my helper. I entered, and beheld with the mysterious eye of my soul the Light that never changes [...]. It was not the common light which all flesh can see [...]. It was not like this, but different: altogether different from all such things. [...] One who knows the truth knows that Light and knows eternity.  Love knows it.”

A century later the man we remember as Dionysius the Areopagite wrote in his Celestial Hierarchy: “...the Light spreads itself generously toward us, and, in its power to unify, it stirs us by lifting us up.  It returns us back to the oneness and deifying simplicity of the Father who gathers us in.”

In one sense, the Gospel is nothing more than a constant revealing and refracting of this One Light: calling us Chosen and Beloved in the waters of baptism; on the Cross, revealing its presence in, and its holding of, our suffering and pain; in the Resurrection, assuring us that Love is stronger even than death—and all of it, the whole story, present today in the fullness of the Light of the Transfiguration.  This one simple and unifying Light of the Father, refracted in so many beautiful ways, always working to gather us in.

And we all are invited, challenged, to join in this work as we join with Jesus in prayer.  As he prayed, his face was changed.  As we pray, we are changed, and we become vessels of the Light.  In her poem “Mother Wisdom Speaks,” Christine Lore Webber writes about this process of being opened and transfigured in prayer, and I give her here the last word.  She writes—or better, God speaks:
Some of you I will hollow out.
I will make you a cave.
I will carve you so deep the stars will shine in your darkness.
You will be a bowl.
You will be the cup in the rock collecting rain.
I will hollow you with knives.
I will not do this to make you clean.
I will not do this to make you pure
You are clean already.
You are pure already.
I will do this because the world needs the hollowness of you.
I will do this for the space that you will be.
I will do this because you must be large.
A passage.
People will find their way through you.
A bowl.
People will eat from you.
And their hunger will not weaken them to death.
A cup to catch the sacred rain.
My daughter, do not cry.
Do not be afraid.
Nothing you need will be lost.
I am shaping you.
I am making you ready.
Light will flow in your hollowing.
You will be filled with light.
Your bones will shine.
The round open center of you will be radiant.
I will call you brilliant one.
I will call you daughter who is wide.
I will call you transformed.
I will call you transfigured.  Transfigured by the One Light that is the Love dancing at the heart of things; the One Light that holds every moment, that contains the fullness of the Gospel; the One Light by which we see things as they really are.  With Jesus, may we all so pray—and may we all be so transfigured.  Amen.

Tuesday, August 7, 2018

The Feast of The Transfiguration: August 7, 2018

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY
Br. Randy Greve, OHC
The Feast of The Transfiguration - Tuesday,  August 7, 2018


To hear the sermon in its fullness click here.


Br. Randy Greve, OHC 

A couple of Fridays ago our Chapter Talk focused on the section of the Rule of the Order on the importance of study. The Founder notes that the telos of the study of theology is not to know theology, but to know God. 

Behind such a statement is an awareness of the temptation to amass information, degrees (and for that matter titles, positions, possessions, and power) for our own ego’s sake alone and forget what the whole thing is about. The study of theology has a soul-forming purpose to be kept in mind with every turn of a page if we are not to fall into pride. Pondering the person and acts of God drives us to our knees, not to the ambition of our own agendas.

But what does “know God” mean in our study of the account of the transfiguration? Is the mount the realm of intellectual investigation and reasoned thought? What happens when we come to an event that is not easily defined within the containers of defined faith? Knowing God must be more than the accumulation of learned discourses. An authentic knowing is open to language that also includes silence, understanding with mystery, the safe remove of images which prepares us for a more direct encounter.

This is the gospel paradox when it comes to knowing God. Christ has been revealed and made known to us in the grace of the incarnation; all of Christ’s life calls with the invitation, “come and know me.”  Yet our knowledge is still finite and boundaried around the otherness of God. Just when we have finally intellectually nailed it down, we are in trouble. Knowing on our knees is powerful, because when we stand up and begin to claim absolutes, declare with great zeal and confidence the how and what are who of our knowing, our knowing is no longer about God, but us. Wisdom is in knowing ourselves to be forever beginners in the face of Ultimate Mystery, our best and most beautiful language being feeble metaphors and hints.

We come to the transfiguration most especially on our theological knees. Imagine you are walking around in Palestine at this time and bump into Peter, James, and John on their way down the mount of transfiguration, see that they are a bit frazzled and dazed, and ask them what happened. They report, against Jesus’ command to tell no one and with bated breath and wide eyes, “well, we saw Jesus turn a blinding white, we saw Moses and Elijah, Peter babbled something about building a shrine to the experience, we were enveloped in a cloud and could not tell left from right, up from down, we heard God’s voice. We.. it’s.. I...
“Yes”, you reply excitedly, “so now you know God?”

Spiritual growth is popularly marketed as moving from fear to faith, from confusion to clarity, from mystery to understanding. Our built-in aversion to what does not feel good, make sense, or have definition means that we can label whatever is disorienting as a problem and go about fixing it. On the mount, however, these categories are shattered as a deeper reality and knowing is unveiled into the lives of the disciples.

The whole experience is about being disoriented, overwhelmed, and left with a mixture of terror and confusion. Such is a picture of the life of discipleship. At times Jesus calmly explains, tenderly touches, patiently guides. At other times this same Jesus explodes into light, bursts the heavens open, and shakes the very cosmos, including our tightly grasped images and plans. At those times the best response is to gaze in awe and wonder, to realize that though we are small and insignificant in the grand scheme of things, we are treasured and precious. The glory we are made to reflect, desire to see, is also that which terrifies us and leaves us speechless. Our openness to the magnitude and beauty of the vision of God is itself loving God.

Real knowing is being freed from the safe idols of my expectation in order to be available to unmediated and terrifying glory. Rather than build a dwelling, Jesus is forming them to be the dwellings of the divine life. Jesus is beyond the shelter, beyond the image, beyond the knowing, constantly slipping out of our grasp, eluding our definition.

Peter, John, and James do know God in the transfiguration. Their vision of Christ in his unveiled and glorified state is a knowing that is both real and beyond words, beyond grasping. They were humbled back into the first rule of theology, – there is a God and you are not God. They realized that God’s call was to worship a person, not commemorate a place; to marvel at the miracle of Christ transcending time and space, life and death, without needing to enshrine the ineffable.

The last thing to do after such an event is to attempt to systematize it, classify it, or analyze it. The living reality of transfiguration unveils its mystery in its own way, continues to reverberate and build courage and faithfulness. Kneeling is a posture which can seem like weakness or passivity, and if misunderstood can become just another pious mask of avoidance. Yet in the presence of the glory of Christ it is the posture of receptivity, vulnerability.  By God’s grace we are becoming what we have seen, we are invited to look with wonder, and to remember that growth in the knowledge of God is knowing less than we thought we did and more than we could ever imagine. Amen.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

The Feast of The Transfiguration- August 6, 2017

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY
Br. Josép R. Martínez-Cubero,OHC
The Transfiguration- Sunday, August 6, 2017


Br. Josép R. Martínez-Cubero, OHC
Among the ministries I will be engaged in this fall, is directing a fundraising production of “The Curious Savage”, a wonderful play by the late American playwright John Patrick, at Saint George’s Episcopal Church in Newburgh. A few weeks ago, once I was finished planning the rehearsal schedule, I met with our prior (who had enthusiastically approved of this ministry) to let him know when I would have to be absent from the monastery.

I was proud of my plan- rehearsals on Saturday evenings that would require my absence from Compline, rehearsals on Sunday afternoons that would allow me to be back for Vespers, and rehearsals on Monday evenings. Mondays are our Sabbath days, so I would not be missing anything. After a pause that was short but felt perplexing to me, Br. Bernard said: “Josép, I’m not comfortable with the idea of you taking Sabbath time to do ministry.” I was shocked, and said: “But, I thought it would be a good thing that I wouldn’t be missing Compline two nights in a row every week for the duration of the production.” His response was: “Taking Sabbath time is more important than not missing Compline for a few weeks”. So, the rehearsals will be on Friday evenings instead of Mondays.

We have learned from the rabbis that, the Sabbath exists because God desired us to have rest. Taking Sabbath allows us time to evaluate our work as God evaluated God's work, to see if our work was equally good. Sabbath is a gift from God that gives us time to reflect on the meaning of life. Sabbath is resting time, and thinking time designed to change us, so that we can then change the world.


 One of the most common themes about the problems of modern society is busyness. The world is very, very busy, and we, in monasteries, are in no way protected from this. But Jesus and his apostles were incredibly busy, too. In Luke’s gospel, before the section we heard this morning, Jesus and his apostles had been through all the neighboring villages preaching, and curing diseases. They had dealt with, and fed thousands of people.


Mark’s gospel tells us that after a whole day of preaching in the synagogues, Jesus cures Simon’s mother-in-law, to then come out of the house to what is described as the whole city bringing people sick with various diseases to him. Later on in that gospel we see Jesus so exhausted, that he is sound asleep in a boat in the middle of a storm at sea. It is clear that Jesus and his apostles were very busy. It is also clear that Jesus would do to leave all the demands of his ministry behind to go to desolate places and pray. Our gospel lesson this morning is about such an occasion- Jesus taking time off with Peter, James, and John, leaving the demands of the anxious crowds behind, and taking Sabbath time up on the mountain to pray.


Mountains, in Greek, Hebrew, Roman and Asian religious literature, were always places where the human could touch the divine. In Celtic Christian tradition, there are times and places when and where the distance between heaven and earth evaporates so that the boundary separating them becomes permeable, like a veil that is parted. The Celts call these thin places, times and places we become so saturated with the presence of God that our hearts are opened, and we are transformed to our more essential selves. Today’s gospel reading describes such a time and place.


When Jesus prayed up on that mountain, the disciples couldn’t miss the Divine presence, and before they could rub their eyes, alongside Jesus, were Moses and Elijah in the present, as if time were a veil to be parted and stepped through. Peter wanted to freeze the moment so that nothing would slip away. “Let us make three dwellings, one for you, one for Moses, and one for Elijah.” The dwellings he proposed were tents, the same used during the Jewish Festival of Booths, a celebration that remembers the past wanderings through the wilderness during the exodus.


Peter wanted to celebrate the past, and to memorialize this Divine presence so that nothing would change. I must confess that I identify with Peter. When I experience those “thin places” in my life, when the presence of God is so powerful that I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt that it is good for me to be there, the first thing I want to do is grab my camera, to freeze time so that nothing will change. But as Danish philosopher, Soren Kierkegaard once wrote, “Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.”


Moses and Elijah were speaking to Jesus about his departure, a word translated from the original Greek as “exodus.” They spoke of this exodus, not as something that would happen to him, something Jesus would accomplish. God was revealing a larger story that was not over. Like Moses before him, Jesus was to set God’s people free, only this time it was not from bondage to pharaoh, but from bondage to their own fear of sin and death.


The journey Peter wanted to memorialize was not over. And before Peter, James and John knew it Jesus was taking them down that mountain, into a world of illness yet to be cured, lepers that were still banned from society, and sinners who did not know they were forgiven. Jesus took Peter, James, and John back to the unbelieving officials, to the ineffective institutions, and to the demons down below.


This is not a gospel lesson about transcending the world. It is a story about God, who interrupts us and says: "Listen" to Jesus, and calls us to be transformed so that we can transform the world. This gospel lesson calls us to Sabbath, to become enlightened, and to come into an awareness of life. That is what Saint Irenaeus of Lyons was talking about when he said, “The glory of God is the human person fully alive”. Just as we are transformed in those thin places, we are called to participate in the continuing story, to come down the mountain into the valley of our humanity and the world around us, and bring it as close as we possibly can to the vision of God. Why? Well, scripture is very clear. What God changes, God changes through us, and we can’t achieve this by freezing a moment, but by taking up our cross, and following Christ with the confidence that what lies ahead is even greater than what we’ve already experienced. ~¡Que así sea! Amen+.



References:

  1. Marcus J. Borg, The Heart of Christianity: Rediscovering a Life of Faith (Harper Collins, 1998)
  2. Sandra Schneiders, IHM, Buying the Field: Catholic Religious Life in Mission to the World (Paulist Press, 2013)
  3. Joan Chittister, OSB, 30 Good Minutes: The Role of Religion in Today’s Society (Transcribed and edited from program first aired on November 24, 1991.)
  4. Barbara Brown Taylor, Dazzling Darkness: Luke 9:28-36, (The Christian Century, February, 1998)
  5. Bruce J. Malina, Richard L. Rohrbaugh, Social-Science Commentary on the Synoptic Gospels (Fortress Press, Second Edition, 2003

Friday, August 7, 2015

Transfiguration - Aug 6, 2015

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY
Br. Randy Greve, OHC
Feast of the Transfiguration - Thursday, August 6, 2015 

Exodus 34:29-35 
2 Peter 1:13-21 
Luke 9:28-36 

Now Peter and his companions were weighed down with sleep
I once went for my spiritual direction appointment and in a moment of informal chatting as we were settling into our chairs I mentioned to my director that despite a full day of activity, after Compline I would often go to my room, and, rather than going to sleep at a decent hour, proceed to engage my brain in all kinds of interesting things.  Then when I would invariably not get enough sleep I would shuffle around in a bit of a sleep-deprived stupor during much of the next day.  Just my rhythm, I thought to myself, now let’s move on to spiritual things.  To my surprise, my sleep issue became the topic of the whole session.  God wanted to ask me something, my director gently insisted.  Why did I want to be half-awake?  Who or what was I avoiding?  Were there things I did not want to do, to face, that a stupor was a way to avoid?  Wow.  What I assumed was merely a bothersome bug in my circadian rhythm was actually also a soul issue.     

The transfiguration is recorded in Matthew, Mark, and Luke with only slight variation in the account of what happened.  However, Luke includes a line that Matthew and Mark do not.  (Now Peter and his companions were weighed down with sleep...)  O.K., Luke often notes small physical details like this.  It’s a throwaway line that does not seem to add anything to the narrative except as an interesting human aside.  I have to say, though, that if I was with a shining Jesus on a mountain with Moses and Elijah, no matter how sleepy I was I think I would find some energy to stay awake to see that.

In a deeper sense, this sleepiness and wakefulness to the glory of Jesus with Moses and Elijah on the mountain is an important and profound symbol of the story.  Their sleepiness speaks of the forces at work in the transformative moment.  Sleep is described as a weight that is pressing down on Peter, James, and John.  There are then seven presences on the mountain – Jesus, Moses, and Elijah; Peter, James, and John and sleep.  Sleep here is a siren song to a secure and trouble-free life – just tune out, don’t get involved, keep to yourself, don’t get carried away with this religion thing.  Now of course there are times for physical sleep and our bodies need rest and slumber, but this sleep is mentioned as weighing at the least opportune moment possible, at a time when total attention is called forth.  Peter, James, and John – even in the presence of the glorified Jesus, have to wrestle with the physical and spiritual forces that would lure them to check out.

In his retreat called “Whatever Happened to Temptation”, Don Bisson discusses the particular issues in each stage of spiritual growth.  Those of us who have been formed into the spiritual life and have a fairly attuned ability to reflect on our souls do not grow out of temptation, unfortunately, it just changes shape.  The temptation of the more spiritually mature is not to some great evil, but to unconsciousness.  We can see what is going on, recognize our own resistance to growth and the hard work that lies ahead, but then, rather than stay attentive to our work, we get tempted to, in a sense, go to sleep.

Spiritual sight thrusts us deeper into an oppositional energy that weighs down on us to have us give up.  The temptation is unique to each of us.  Mine sounds something like: “it’s not worth it”, “I don’t care”, “It is not my problem”, “Leave me alone”, or, my personal favorite, “When are these people going to straighten up?”  This is a universal archetype of the spiritual life that shows up in all kinds of mythical stories of transformation.  

In The Wizard of Oz, Dorothy and her companions have made a long and dangerous journey, they can see the Emerald City, it’s right there, they’ve almost made it, but the Wicked Witch has put poison on the poppies and it makes Dorothy and the Cowardly Lion (the two who breathe oxygen) go to sleep.  It takes the good witch Glinda to send the snow to neutralize the poison and wake them up so they can skip arm-in-arm to the City. The temptation to unconsciousness is particularly insidious and subtle because I can be doing all the right things outwardly, but not necessarily be engaged with my spiritual life. Then I am faced with the decision to merely conform to the system or be truly and vibrantly awake.

But what about unconsciousness is appealing?  Part of what is going on is that I am afraid of what will happen to me if I go all in with the glorified Jesus.  Looking at what I could become is overwhelming – even if it is my own growth.  I will be entering a new and unfamiliar city with Christ who will call forth from me deeper love, generosity, service, engagement, and responsibility when my ego would rather just not bother with all of that – I’m good enough as I am. 

The Christian life takes intention, purpose, energy, and action sustained through the emotional and circumstantial ups and downs of life.  Luke says “but since they had stayed awake, they saw his glory and the two men who stood with him.”  We will persevere in the transformative journey of becoming our real selves to the extent that our desire to see Jesus – and all that that vision entails - is greater than the temptation to shut our eyes or look away.  Do I want to stay awake and see his glory or do I want to be left alone?  Perhaps because he knows this danger, St Benedict uses lots of imperative action verbs in the Rule: listen, obey, rouse yourself, persevere, long for, seek peace, turn away from evil, build, mend, prepare, ask, hurry, progress (and that is just the Prologue)!  All of those commands are extensions of the Gospel imperative – “stay awake.”

On a practical level, some helpful guidance that I have gleaned from various sources in times of temptation:  look back at your life 10, 15, 20 years ago and realize how far you have come – growth may seem slow today but it’s obvious through the sweep of time – God has indeed graced us with attention and brought us into levels of service we scarcely could have imagined – the weight of sleep will never have the final word.  Become familiar with how temptation appears specifically for you and be prepared with a response.  Moments and times of discouragement are bound to come – we can feel the feelings without having to act out in them – being gentle and patient with ourselves is centrally human and therefore good spirituality.  When sleep weighs down on me, I ask myself “What is the next good thing to do to awaken myself and learn from this experience?”  Finally, beware what you say to your spiritual director.  And get a good night’s sleep.  Amen.