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Sunday, February 1, 2026

The Fourth Sunday after the Epiphany, February 1, 2026

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Adam McCoy
Fourth Sunday after the Epiphany

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Who is blessed?

On entering the Metropolitan Museum in New York City, turn left and you will soon enter the Ancient Greek and Roman rooms.  They are filled with works of art which depict the human form in almost unimaginable states of perfection.   Most are adolescents and young adults, at the height of their strength and agility and good health.  I am always tempted to think, how much better they look than I and most of the people I know do.  It must have been a true golden age!  And then I reflect on the actuality of their time: A third to a half of all children died as infants.  How many surviving freeborn boys died in war or from war wounds or the diseases that follow conflict?  How many were worked to an early death if they were not born free?  How many women, free or enslaved, died in childbirth?  How many of those who escaped those fates were struck with illnesses for which there was no cure?   It was a world in which that statuesque perfection was attainable by very few, and those few for only a brief shining moment before age and infirmity arrived for them. 

The great beauty of ancient art did not represent the actuality of its age, but rather, reflects a perfection they believed existed in the realm of the divine and the hope that some few of us might achieve, if ever so briefly, some reflection of the divine.  So put aside those of us who don’t or can’t.  Concentrate on the winners.  Their view of reality was one of a deeply imperfect creation for the most part cursed in one way or another with the gods in their perfection looking down on our struggles, toying with us, laughing at us, waiting for us to give them something in the often vain hope that we might escape the disaster waiting for us just around the next corner.  That we might escape our usual, all too usual, reality.  So, we hold up to ourselves images of perfection to attract ourselves to what might be humanly possible.  But in fact, because so few ever approached that perfection, and so many more, most in fact, were left unnoticed by the wayside, that beauty is heart breaking.

We may look on this and think how much better we are than they were.  After all, we have made great strides in childbirth practices, in medicine, in working toward human equality.  And that is true.  Perhaps not so much progress in avoiding war.  But is it not also true that we still hope for a perfection, of looks and beauty, of charm and popularity, of professional success, of financial well-being, and celebrate it when we think we see it?  What else is celebrity culture?  What else is our endless sacrifice of effort and money on the many altars of self-improvement, of ladder climbing?  If we have success, how do we feel about those left behind, those who cannot climb much higher?  How do we feel if we ourselves, despite our best efforts, are not quite beautiful, not very popular or successful, not rich?  If in fact we are quite ordinary?  Or worse?  Is there perhaps something a little off about these hopes in the face of our realities? 

The uncomfortable truth is that the world we live in is imperfect.  The idea that we might achieve statuesque perfection and all it represents is almost always a false hope.  Fortunately, some few do briefly achieve it.  It is in itself a good thing to strive after health, beauty, strength, agility and prosperity.  But if we place our hope in achieving those good things and judge ourselves and others as deficient when we don’t get them, we ignore and devalue the life we actually have. 

The truth is that God actually seems to love our human world in its imperfections and failures as much as in its apparent successes.  God seems to love us just as we really are.  We can be improved, and that is good, but all of us are already and always loved. The dying infant and the dying mother.  Exploited, underfed and overworked people, free and unfree alike.  Young men and women injured and dying in the battles of war and childbirth.  Unhealable injuries, untreatable diseases.  The injustices of human systems of every kind.  Our worth is not just in success, but in living good values in our lives, in loving each other as God loves us, and in putting that love to work in the real world we live in.  Everyone alive is living in God’s love.  And if, God be praised, we do achieve some success, the ancients were right: it is a gift from God.  But that success is not our own as a possession: it is ours to share.

 Perhaps someone now is thinking, hasn’t he moved from the particular blessings Jesus pointed out?  I confess it: I believe Jesus is giving us a representative sample of people who are blessed, a sample which can be enlarged, not an exclusive list.  His point is that a life lived with humility, mercy and honest trust and hope but still resulting in what the world thinks is a disastrous failure - that life is in fact loved by God and can look forward to God’s enduring love at the final judgment.

And so, consider the Beatitudes.  “Blessed are” translates the Greek “makarioi hoi”.   Makarios means not just blessed in the religious sense, but fortunate, lucky, winners.  And who are these winners in the celestial lottery?  Humble people.  People who have lost someone or something.  People who don’t put themselves forward in life.  People who want right and good and justice.  People who when they have the opportunity to take revenge, don’t.  People who put God first and themselves last in their lives.  People who stop fights, refuse violence, find ways to bring people together.  People who are willing to suffer when doing the right thing brings them harm.  People who are willing to be publicly identified with these values, with God’s values, and to be disrespected, and even harmed, for doing God’s work.

Jesus is telling us what God’s values are.  They are not the values which “the world” thinks will get us ahead in life.  In our imperfect world, what we used to call a fallen world, humility, loss, deference, putting right ahead of self-advancement, letting people off the hook, valuing peace over victory, willingness to “take it”, are not values which will guarantee us success in the cutthroat business of self-advancement.  They just don’t.  And they won’t.   That’s an uncomfortable truth.  Choosing God’s way is really risky.  It’s not a really good career move.

But what it is, is an alignment with reality.  Jesus is telling us what God’s values are - that every life is of value, every life is loveable, the lives of the world’s losers just as much as its winners.  Jesus is recommending that we rearrange our perception of things.  That we organize our social interactions so that God’s values will be held up, learned and practiced as diligently as are the arts of self-advancement.  That we redefine what human success is and can be.   That we create human communities in which God’s love is the standard of our own values.  But how to do that?  How to even start?  Three suggestions.

First: Bird watchers study the appearance, the calls, the habitats, the flight patterns of the birds they want to identify.  They quietly wait for one to appear and then they just watch, learning about the bird.  Perhaps we can do the same with virtue.  Is there someone living this beatitude life?  Quietly watch and learn.  But they’re not birds - they and we are both human.  Watch and learn and then do it ourselves. 

Second: Don’t be too surprised to learn that we too are eligible to be loved.

Third: Are we willing to admit that the talents and successes we might enjoy are gifts from God, to be shared? 

In other words, are we willing to see our weaknesses, our utter ordinariness, our failures, not as sources for depression but opportunities for God’s love to seek us out and find us?   Are we willing to seek out and find others who need this love of God? 

Be blessed.  Be happy.  Be lucky.  Be loved.   

Sunday, June 1, 2025

The Seventh Sunday of Easter, June 1, 2025

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Adam McCoy
The Seventh Sunday of Easter, June 1, 2025

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Today is the seventh Sunday of Easter, after the Ascension and before Pentecost.  This Sunday marks an in-between time: we are invited by St. Luke’s Gospel and Acts into the experience of the Apostles and the earliest Church.  We are invited into the absence of the resurrected Lord from our physical midst and the not quite knowing what is coming next.  Luke frames this as a sequence of events, and his account has provided a narrative framework for the Church’s self understanding ever since: the death of Jesus, his resurrection and ascension and the coming of the Holy Spirit, provide a calendar sequence which has become our proclamation, but even more, has become an identity for us.  This sequence of events has refashioned the followers of Jesus into the Church.  And we are invited in so that we can participate in the new life Christ has brought to the world.  In other words, in this view, we have our own lives and these events have their own life, both ourselves and these events independent and self-contained. In proclaiming them the Church faces the world with the choice to participate.  Or not.  But in this view, it and we are separate, needing to be brought together .  The connection between ourselves and the redemptive activity of Jesus is accomplished through individual faith and through joining the community of faith, but we always in some sense remain separate beings: the self and the faith, the self and the Church, the self and Jesus, the self and God.  This is our normative reality in the lived life of the Christian community.  It is the understanding of the self and the faith in Mark, Matthew and Luke.  

This understanding of the self as a more or less stand-alone entity is seemingly rooted in a common-sense understanding of our own reality: We are what we are and they are what they are.  The Church presents the objective events of Jesus’ life, death and resurrection as a pattern for our faith and inner conversion.  She invites us to place ourselves within those saving, objective events of Jesus.  But this is not the only path presented to us in the earliest Church.  John’s gospel has a somewhat different understanding of who we are in the face of God’s invitation of love, identity and transformation.  Not in contradiction but in perspective.  

The narrative of the resurrection sequence of events in John is slightly different.  For one thing, Jesus invites the Spirit into the community of believers again and again during his earthly ministry.  And the Pentecost event happens in the first gathering of the disciples:
On the evening of that first day of the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of the Jewish leaders, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!” After he said this, he showed them his hands and side.  The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord. Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.”  And with that he breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit.”
[John 20:19-22]

No fifty days, no Ascension, no upper room.  Lurking in the background of John’s telling are the Genesis stories of creation: God’s act of the creation of human beings is to breathe the breath of life into our nostrils.  Jesus breathes on his disciples and they receive the Holy Spirit.  And I cannot help but think of that other Genesis detail of creation:  “In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.” [Gen 1:1-2] By directing the ever-hovering Holy Spirit to the disciples and by breathing the breath of new life into them, Jesus is beginning a new creation: his disciples are that new creation, that new world.

But having evoked the creation story, our restless minds, so unavoidably centered on our own situations, will fairly quickly begin to ask the next question: What about us?  The Genesis creation story did not have a happy ending for us.  Our first parents, or so the story goes, lost the thread, missed the point, went off on their own tangent, ignored their elemental, existential, ontological connection to their Creator, and broke that connection.  Their willful separation from God is their Original Sin, and whatever we may think of the Genesis account as a factual narrative, in fact it vividly describes our reality: We too seem to be separated from God.  

And here is where our Gospel for today enters the picture.  In John’s convoluted way he is showing us the path back.  I in them and Thou in Me:  “The glory that you have given me I have given them, so that they may be one, as we are one, I in them and you in me, that they may become completely one.”  Jesus’ human work is to bring together followers who find new life in him.  His divine work is to make of those who follow him a new creation, a new humanity, no longer separated from God but now filled with and joined to the Father’s life through his Son Jesus Christ.  A new creation that can credibly witness to the God who made the world and loves it.

This seems easy to say: a new creation.  But perhaps not so easy to do.  How can we possibly make the leap from our existential separation from God, from our fallen nature, into unity through Christ in the Father?  Through the words and acts of Jesus, John simply states that it is possible, and urges us to do so.  And truly, we want to.  But how complex that proves to be!  So complex, we have to begin again.  As St. Paul says, “ I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.” [Gal 2:20] We are invited to join this new creation, no longer separate from God but in order to live continually in the Father’s loving creativity, to love in the Son’s world-embracing heart, to act in the Spirit’s restless energy, we have to die to our present, separated selves.  Our created purpose is to live, to love and to act in God, and so to accomplish that purpose we must consciously join ourselves to God’s life.  But as we discover as each of our days unfolds, this is no simple matter.  Or rather, simple in its intention but infinite in its application.

To this process Christian traditional spiritual practice has given a name: theosis:  The process of uniting ourselves to God, inviting God in, giving ourselves to God, acting in God, resting in God, becoming one with God: “so that they may be one, as we are one, I in them and you in me, that they may become completely one.”  When I first heard of theosis as a  concept as a younger person, my good sturdy Protestant soul rebelled.  Heresy!  How can I become God?  The very thought is repugnant.  I am me.  I can with great effort try to be godly but I can only approach God with fear and trembling, taking account of my very deep separation from God, my inadequacies and my failures and my sins, so very, very many of them.  But as I have grown older I have come to realize that the “I” I thought was so separate is in fact deeply contingent: my body has its own unavoidable, ineluctable connections to the physical world.  We are all part of that world and it is madness to act as though we are separate from its energies, its processes, its laws.  Our assumptions about the world and other people are permanently part and parcel of the culture we were born into, with its wisdoms born of the ages, but also with its blindnesses and its prejudices, Our minds themselves are not always “our own”, but are, as we are increasingly discovering, products of physical, electrical, chemical and genetic processes.

And so it is true of all of us: We think we are independent, separate, standing on our own two feet, but in fact, at every step we are by our very nature one with others: Others conceive us in the womb.  Others bear us into this world, feed and clean and clothe and support and teach us.  With others we all cooperate to support each other in producing what we need to live.  In the course of time, we ourselves also are called to cooperate to help create and nurture the next generations.  So in fact, John’s vision of Oneness in God is not strange at all, but profoundly natural.  We are already one with nature and one with each other.  Oneness is what we are.  John begins his Gospel with another reference to creation: “In the beginning was the Word ... All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made.”  Separation of creation from God was creation’s denial of its own true nature.  In our own separateness we deny our true nature.  In this Oneness, this theosis, we are simply invited to return to what we are: Created through the Word to show forth in our own unique human way the creative energy of God’s love.  Our uniqueness as a species is that we are the conscious witnesses to that great Goodness.  Our choice is whether or not to live no longer to ourselves alone but embedded and embraced in the love of God.   That choice is our Glory.

Sunday, December 29, 2024

The First Sunday after Christmas Day, December 29, 2024

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Adam McCoy
The First Sunday after Christmas Day, December 29, 2024
 

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I seem to remember years ago how daring it was in a Christmas sermon to point out the revolution promised by the nativity story. Instead of painting a picture of conventionally comforting images, our brave preacher would try to shock us all:  The Angel promising that the holy child will by social standards seem  illegitimate; a very young but by no means unaware Mary saying Yes to all that may imply for her future; and her Magnificat: This is how the world will be set right, by turning everything upside down.  

The royal heir of David, born in David’s city, but excluded from even the most elementary human hospitality. The poverty of Mary and Joseph - their seeming lack of relatives and resources landing them away in the manger, no crib for a bed.  What a counter-intuitive way for the King of Kings to make his entrance!  And yet this is the narrative form in Matthew and Luke of God’s chosen entrance into his world. Every Christmas we take heart that God’s transforming work will start to be done in a small, obscure place by people of seemingly no account.  The real transformation is a revolution, replacing the rich with the poor, the powerful with the weak, the noble with the humble.

John doesn’t even hint at a nativity scene.  No angel, no shepherds, no magi, no meeting with Elizabeth, no Bethlehem, no manger, in fact, no Mary and no Joseph.  John starts his story at the top: Echoing Genesis he writes: In the beginning.... Beresit.... En arche....  The term John uses here, arche, means not simply the beginning of something in time, but also that which gives each thing its essential being: its structure, its innate properties.  The Word, the Logos, is not just a particular vocabulary item but is its underlying discoverable, communicable, rational pattern.

John seems to say, This is really how things have been, are, and always will be.  This is where the world really came from.  This is what it really is.  This is where it really is going, Because the Logos is its origin, its structure.  The Incarnation brings the Word itself into our lives, into our world, and in that process, changes everything.

This story, John implies, is going to tell us about reality.  Not the beginning of a social revolution, but a revolution in how reality itself is perceived.  In a world whose pagan culture, whose religious ideology, is fixed on beings, natural, animal and human qualities writ large and sculpted into believable images, this story will dethrone and remove every idol.  John sends us to what seems to be an empty room, to a holy of holies, where the One who is above all and through all and in all is found in quiet silence and in waiting.  And there we wait for the Word.  And we find that Word in a human person, the Word made flesh.  Jesus.

In the Beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and the Word was God.  He was in the beginning with God.  All things came into being through him, and without him not one thing came into being.

In learning this, in knowing this, in believing this, something entirely new is brought into our world.  No longer is the world complete in itself, self-explanatory.  Nothing in the world has its being in itself.  Nothing has power in its own essence.  Because everything is made by and through the Word, everything is contingent on the Word.  The strange thing is that this contingency sets human knowledge free: We need no longer be captive to things, or captive to our own images of truth as though they themselves are complete and eternal, but we are free to change our understandings of them as our minds lead us, as we stand secure in the knowledge that the Word alone is all truth.  The rest can change, will change, will always change, but our firm foundation is in holding fast to the Word who has created and sustains all that is, not holding fast to our already existing understandings.

Every act of greater understanding brings us closer to the Word.  The search for knowledge is a search for the Word, and that search is holy.  And that search is never, can never be, finished.  Just when we think we “know” all there is to know about something, something new appears.  The world brought into being by the Word is alive with the creating act of God and we are continually invited by the creative Word into a process of discovery.  

And like the up-from-the-bottom birth of the savior, this too is a revolution.  The Incarnation of the Word opens our eyes, opens our minds to understand that the material reality we live in is not itself ultimate, that there is another referent, a different stance which allows us to step aside and become observers, analysts, theorizers, communicators with each other, of a material reality whose essential nature we are always in the process of discovering.  Not that it itself changes, but that our understanding, always striving to come closer to the Logos in its arche, its beginning, is never complete for us.  Our journey is alive to the Word as long as we choose to be open to it. To the person who follows the Word, the world is alive.

When we think we have a grip on something, we discover it is actually something else.  For thousands of years the experts were sure that the heavens were a shell surrounding us and the stars were holes where the light came in; they were sure that human personality is determined by the four humors; they thought diseases were caused by nonphysical entities, sometimes demonic. They were wrong.  What are our present day confident but actually contingent certainties?

This happens in history.  For millennia we have depended on written sources, and when they are lacking, on narrative supposition, for knowledge of our past. These sources give us stories but rarely cooperate in giving us truth.  But something strange has begun to happen.   Careful archaeology, carbon 14,plant pollen, tree rings, long-buried disease bacilli, pandemic eruption tracings, DNA and its every-increasing and fascinating applications, have moved many historical narratives out of the realm of fable and attached them to knowledge.  Who knew that DNA would show that a human population could be stable, rooted in one place for 10,000 years, when DNA proved that Adrian Targett, a teacher in Somerset, England, was a direct descendant of the so-called “Cheddar Man”, a local skeleton which survived for ten millennia?  The imagined story becomes a fact: Their people came and stayed.

What has changed and is changing our perceptions of reality?  The growing understanding that John is right: that the Word is at the beginning of all things and defines their essential structures, that the Word is the essence of what is knowable and rational, and that we are invited to enter into its light, to follow its sacred and holy path to knowledge, to uncover it and theorize about it and test it and communicate it, as best we can.  

Knowledge is holy.  The pursuit of knowledge is holy.  Study is holy.  Libraries are holy.   Every act of the increase of knowledge brings us nearer to the Word who created the world and for that reason is holy.  The entrance into the world of this Word is the other revolution of the Incarnation.

But of course, for John, the Word, the creative, sustaining, pattern-giving Logos, is not an idea, but a person.  Jesus of Nazareth is the Word incarnate.  It is he who brings light into a dark  world.  It is he, and all he embodies, who makes possible our choice to follow these  revolutionary paths to greater and greater understandings of what is real, bringing us into the truth of our own lives and into the truth of the world itself.  Or not.

So it might be interesting to pay attention to what Jesus says.  It would seem that when Jesus speaks, the Logos itself is speaking, opening the mind of God to us.  

And so I find the very first words Jesus speaks in the Gospel of John interesting.  In the first thing he says in John’s gospel, Jesus asks two of John’s disciples who are following after him, “What are you seeking?”  A question which had a specific setting at the time, but which echoes again and again, and will open infinite worlds to us if we hear it asking us:  What are we seeking?

Sunday, December 24, 2023

Advent 4 B - December 24, 2023

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Adam McCoy
The Fourth Sunday of Advent, Year B, December 24, 2023
 

2 Samuel 7:1-11, 16

Romans 16:25-27

Luke 1:26-38


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For any number of reasons, this sermon will be a bit short, a bit simple and direct, not the least of those reasons being that the poinsettias are already urgently pressing toward the entrance to the church, the trees are up, cooks are already pouring forth epic menus of holiday treats, and the sacristy is doing double duty.  Christmas is just hours away!
    The scriptural images of Advent to this point have been large, grand, public, noisy, impossible to miss: heavens tearing open, mountains quaking, the sun and moon going dark and stars falling from the heavens; valleys lifted up and mountains laid low, crooked paths straight and rough places plain; a strangely clad prophet with a weird diet calling a whole nation to account; ruined cities being rebuilt; and an as-yet unknown savior coming to bring all to fulfillment.  Entire peoples, whole nations will be cast down and lifted up and the physical universe itself will be transformed.
    So one might think the entrance of the one everyone is waiting for will also be large, grand, public, noisy and impossible to miss.  But No.  Not.  God’s chosen scene is the private domestic space of simple people.  In our first lesson, God is happy to move about with the people on their journeys.  It is they, not God, who need a great and grand and public house of worship. 
    A bit earlier in the same part of the Old Testament there is a story eerily similar to the stories of Elizabeth, pregnant with John the Baptist, and of Mary: Hannah, mother of the prophet Samuel.  She is getting on in age but held up to ridicule because she has no child.  Her son will be Samuel, a little boy born out of his mother’s desperation through divine intervention.  This small child will become the agent of the complete political transformation of Israel.  As with Elizabeth - older, barren, yet called to bear a nation-changing prophet.  From such small beginnings: Who would have thought?  And so Mary:  a small town teenage girl, pregnant but not by her fiancé, this most extraordinary man, traveling in her ninth month to a town with no relatives or friends to take them in, will also, in these desperate circumstances, through divine agency, bear a child who will transform, not this time the nation, but the world itself.  Difficult circumstances.   Little children.  On the road.  No house or home.  Faith and hope and little else.  Hard times are the most ordinary things in the world.  And there, there is where God is.
    Such a contrast between the great and grand and the small and private!  The transforming, saving Word of God, so eagerly waited and watched for, comes into the world of people of no particular distinction coping as best they can.
    Tradition recommends that we apply the experience of the mothers of Samuel, of John and Jesus to our own lives.  Practically all of us are like Hannah, Elizabeth and Mary.  We seem to be of no particular importance.  We may have been, probably will be, perhaps even now are, in desperation of one sort or another.  Trouble is part of life.  But we too are counseled to invite the promise of God, the Word of God, into our own lives.  To let it plant itself in our troubled hearts and begin to grow.  It may take half a lifetime to come to maturity and require all our skill to set it on its path, as good parents must do.  But that promise, that Word, is always hoping for an invitation to enter, always hoping to find in us a home to grow great in.  It does not need a public, grand and holy house, but will build for us the house we need.  The sign of God’s Word’s presence is the faith, hope and love which quite ordinary, obscure people have for the future.  Let us be like Hannah, like Elizabeth, like Mary.  Let us trust the promise of God and set out on the paths God sets before us, confident that God is with us.  Let us say yes when God’s invitation appears.   

Sunday, April 23, 2023

Easter 3 A - April 23, 2023

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Adam McCoy OHC
The Third Sunday of Easter, Year A - Sunday, April 23, 2023
 


 
 
I love today’s gospel.  Of all the accounts of the resurrection appearances of Jesus, it is my favorite.  Until Jesus vanishes from their sight, it seems quite ordinary.  Two disciples are walking back to the village which is likely their home.  They are saddened and perplexed by the events of Jesus’ betrayal, trial, execution and death, and by the reports that he is in fact alive.  Luke beautifully captures their emotional state in the aftermath of these events, and all the better by having us accompany them as they walk those seven miles.  Luke’s skill as a writer invites us to join them as they trudge along, in no great hurry, talking with each other.  When a stranger appears, they are open to his presence and include him in their conversation.  The most natural scene in the world. 

          And another realistic touch.  When the stranger they have included begins to instruct them in detail about the scriptural anticipations of the passion and resurrection, they don’t seem to catch on at all.  They, like most of us, are not perhaps the brightest bulbs in the sign.  Imagine having a daylong bible study led by Jesus.  Of course they don’t know it’s Jesus.  But perhaps there might have been a clue or two.  Jesus’ response to them is a pretty big breadcrumb of a hint: “Oh, how foolish you are, and how slow of heart to believe all that the prophets have declared! Was it not necessary that the Messiah should suffer these things and then enter into his glory?” Then beginning with Moses and all the prophets, he interpreted to them the things about himself in all the scriptures.”  But our two friends don’t pick up on this at all.  And that too is realistic!  How often do we hear something that is the key that will unlock something for us, and we just don’t get it?  Cleopas and his friend are Everyman.  They could be anyone.  They could be us.  In fact, they probably are.

          They certainly don’t know their scriptures, that’s for sure.  Virtually every angel story in the Hebrew scriptures follows the same pattern as this story: In the context of some crisis or other, perfectly ordinary people are going about their business when someone appears.  Always a stranger.  But a stranger who seems to know what is going on.  The stranger introduces something new into the situation which changes things.  Then, only as or after he disappears, do they realize it was the Divine One.  A seemingly quite ordinary human person is revealed to be the presence of God come among them.  The story of the road to Emmaus is in this sense very much a of piece with God’s older angelic revelations to his people.  They are smack dab in the middle of one and don’t know it till it’s over.  And I think that has been the point of the story for Christians throughout the ages, and for us today.   It seems altogether ordinary when it is happening, and only later do we realize the truth.

          If Cleopas and his friend are Everyman, then we are invited to identify ourselves with them.  We may take it that if this is a story about how the risen Christ appeared to his quite ordinary disciples, then it is also a story about how we can encounter Him in our ordinary lives as well.    

          There is something attractive to me about Cleopas and his friend.  They are clearly stunned by the events that have just happened, but they are open to them.  They remember and recount the data but can’t piece them together.  They can’t find the meaning or the solution of them.  They are also emotionally open: they are obviously deeply moved.  But more than that, they are open to this stranger joining them.  In the culture of their time, that says something.  In their culture you just don’t invite strangers to share in confidence your deepest concerns.  But they do.  They are big hearted people, ready to invite a stranger in.

          “As they came near the village to which they were going, he walked ahead as if he were going on.”  I absolutely love this little detail.  There is a fine politeness, a gentility, about this action  of Jesus.  He’s not one of those who hangs around hoping to be invited.  We all know people like that - it is time to separate, and it is embarrassing to exclude someone who  obviously wants to be included.  But Jesus does the gentlemanly thing and moves ahead, avoiding being a possible cause of embarrassment to his new friends.  But thick as these two may be in some ways, they immediately understand the situation, and they invite him to join them for supper and the night.  An ordinary human kindness.  It is this act of kindness that makes opening their eyes to the Risen Christ among them possible.

          This story tells us that God is gracious.  The Lord does not press his new friends to invite him in, but gives them the space to open themselves to him.  It is as though we are being told that God will be close at hand, wanting to join us, but only when our hearts are big enough to reach out and invite Him in. 

          This lovely story has a clear message for all Christians.  It is telling us that we will find the Risen Christ already in our midst.  In Matthew 25, Jesus tells his disciples where to find him: “Inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these, you did it to me.”  He is already and always here with us. 

          As we trudge along our daily seven mile journeys, pondering the things that have happened around us and to us, someone may unexpectedly join in our conversation.  Perhaps we should welcome that new voice.  It may be that our openness to including someone new in our lives, as the two on the road to Emmaus did, will open to us a new and unexpectedly blessed presence.  It would seem that the resurrected Lord is already here, waiting for our openness and welcome. 

          For monks - and after all, this is a monastery - this story of the unexpected presence of Christ has a special significance.  One of the most famous passages of the Rule of Benedict is in chapter 53, The Reception of Guests, referring to Matthew 25: “All guests who present themselves are to be welcomed as Christ, for he himself will say: I was a stranger and you welcomed me.”  This statement commands an act of loving charity to someone in their need.  The context of this act is the  resurrection.  All Christians, and especially monks, live in the expectation of the New Life of Easter.  To welcome Christ in every guest is to expect that New Life will in fact come right to our door.  We are invited to live in constant expectation of the inbreaking of the resurrection life in the most mundane of circumstances, in the person who comes to us hoping to join in some small way with us in our daily life, hoping to be included in our conversation as we journey on our way, if even ever so briefly.  The business of being a monk is the business of readiness for the inbreaking of the Risen Christ.  We should be trying to create an expectation of a wonderful greatness about to break in.  We should be practicing to recognize the signs of it when it starts to happen.  Our monasteries should be places where that energy of loving expectation is the light we see by and the air we breathe.

          Which leads me to share a final thought, perhaps a bit wild.  If we are to welcome every guest as Christ, what sort of expectation does that put on a guest?   We are all of us guests in different ways, at one time or another.  What does it mean to a guest that our hosts think that we might represent Christ?  Perhaps we should consciously try to bring Christ with us as we are welcomed. 

          Perhaps we are all called to be both Christ-welcomers and Christ-bearers.

Sunday, January 15, 2023

Epiphany 2 A - January 15, 2023

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Adam McCoy, OHC

Epiphany 2 A - Sunday, January 15, 2023



Today’s gospel gives us the evangelist John’s account of the Baptism of Jesus.  I’ve always thought there is something a bit “off” about it.  The accounts of Jesus’ baptism in the synoptic gospels, Matthew, Mark and Luke, are all straightforward narratives of the baptism, differing somewhat in details but each telling what happened from an eyewitness point of view.  But John is different: he gives us a curiously roundabout story, full of indirection.  John the Baptist tells us the story.  But he does not tell us the story of the baptism itself.  Rather, he tells us what he saw: “the Spirit descended from heaven like a dove, and it remained on him.”   This is a very economical text, so even more curiously, in this very compact narrative, the Baptist tells us twice - twice! - “I myself did not know him”.  “I myself did not know him”.  A point is being made here, a point about knowing.  He only knows who Jesus is because he saw the Spirit in the form of a dove.

In John’s gospel the action of the baptism isn’t actually told, but is referred to indirectly.  John the Baptist did not know who Jesus was until he, John, saw the dove descending.  And the next time he sees Jesus, it is at a distance, as Jesus is walking by, in an almost cinematic scene, the two great men passing but not actually meeting.

What can we make of all this narrative indirection?  

John’s gospel begins with the famous line, en arche en ho logos, which every seminarian hopes will be on her or his Greek translation exam.  In the beginning was the Word.  So we ponder the Word, the Word which is the light that is coming into the world. The Logos itself absorbs our attention.  But remember what happens when the Word, the light, comes into the world: “He was in the world, and the world was made through him, yet the world did not know him.  He came to his own, and his own people did not receive him.”  The gospel of John is talking about receiving, about recognizing, about knowing.  The tragedy of the world is in not recognizing, not knowing the One who is its own creator, who is the Word on which its very existential order is based, and so not receiving Him.   

The story of the baptism of Jesus by John in the Jordan is a real life example of what it means that the world – the world including all the best people in it, even John the Baptist, whom Jesus later calls the greatest of all the prophets – the whole world, including the righteous part of it – is simply not capable of knowing, of recognizing, the Word when it comes.   

With this theme announced, John’s gospel immediately introduces John the Baptist, the herald of the coming One, whose prophetic sign is to be out in the desert, crying out in the wilderness.  Preparing the way for His coming and baptizing God’s people into their new entrance into God’s promised land.  Into a new life, a new beginning.  And, embodying the prologue’s statement about not knowing, not recognizing, John the Baptist himself does not know who the Logos is when he comes.  Twice - twice - the Baptist tells us, “I myself did not know him”.  “I myself did not know him”.  He knows him only because of the sign from heaven, and then they do not even meet.  This telling, far from being straightforward, is a miracle of indirection.  It is a description of the world we live in.  It is a description of our existential reality, our not being capable of knowing, of recognizing, God’s presence among us without God’s intervention.     

John’s account of the baptism of Jesus could be an illustration of the gospel’s insight into how the Logos enters into our world: How indirect it can be, how it is not immediately apparent even to those of us who are eagerly waiting for its appearing among us. 

What can we make of this?  Is it simply a narrative for us to puzzle over?  Is it John the evangelist’s way of dealing with John the Baptist, famous in his own time when Jesus was hardly known?  It is those, clearly.  But there is something else here as well.

One of the things seriously observant religious people, and I hope that we here this morning  qualify in this, do is to read and meditate on scripture.   One form of that, of course, is lectio divina.  We read the text as it is, try to understand it in its own context, and then let the text move us in meditation, contemplation and prayer.  It is astonishing how often even passages that seem the least promising end up opening us to new light, new life, new beginnings, new entrances into God’s promised land for us.

What draws people to faith?  I would venture that while people are searching for community, while they desire the simultaneously rational and emotional and ecstatic satisfactions of beauty, while they hope to build peace and justice, the primary thing they yearn for is assurance of God’s existence, assurance that the world we live in is God’s world, that our lives matter in an ultimate sense, that God is real and present to us.  Please forgive me, in this I am speaking of my own experience and generalizing it to all of us, but when we find God in our own lives, that finding is usually far from a straightforward story.  It is usually by indirection: the unexpected, or perhaps entirely ordinary, appearance of things in our lives that brings God’s presence to us.  Jesus was apparently one of the undifferentiated crowd of people come out to the Jordan to be baptized.  John the Baptist he did not know him - until the Spirit revealed Jesus to him.  

I suspect there is a strategy in telling this story to us the way John’s gospel does.  The Baptist and his disciples are standing in for all the people of God, all who are waiting for the Word, waiting for the light, to come among us.  We are like John the Baptist.  We want some sure sign that God is coming into the world.  We hope and we pray for God’s coming, and for the fruit of God’s presence among us in a renewed community, in beauty, order, peace, justice, and in our ecstatic union with the divine.  But it does not come on our schedule.  It does not come in our expected categories.  We don’t actually know what or who it will be, what form our encounter may take.   Like the disciples on the road to Emmaus, we may already be traveling with the Lord and do not know it until we invite him into our actual lives to share a simple meal.  He may come to us as a thief in the night, completely unexpected.  As in the parables, Jesus tells us that we will find God present in the ordinary.  We need to open our eyes to see and our ears to hear what the Spirit is filling and transfiguring right here and right now.  While we, like John the Baptist, may be ready, even eager, for the inbreaking of the Word, we have no idea what it will look like or how it may happen, or who may embody it.  

So what to do?  Well, as this story John tells suggests, there is a way.  

Get ready.  Go out into our own wilderness.  Realize who we are: God’s people.  Focus on God’s promise.  Be honest about who we have become and heed the cry to change.  Get down into the river.  Wade in the water.  Let it roll over us.  Watch for the sign of God’s presence.  We don’t know yet exactly how but we need to be ready, to be open to the unexpected.  The Word will come.  The light will shine in the darkness.  And then, when we are called, follow. 

Sunday, September 4, 2022

Proper 18 C, September 4, 2022

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Adam McCoy, OHC

Pentecost, Proper 18 C - September 4, 2022





The cost of discipleship: Today’s gospel reading opens a world of complexities, more and more the more one ponders it. This morning I want to focus on the images with which our gospel begins and with which it ends: family and possessions, and set that in the context of Paul’s delightful letter to Philemon.
   We all come from families, and every family has its own dramas. Our family dramas can run the gamut from interesting to idiosyncratic, from curious to strange to alarming, from truly weird to dangerously abusive, even to fatal. No matter our own family’s story, however, we are each and every one of us shaped by our interactions with those we grow up with. Once we are adults we are all of us well advised to reflect on our own personal dramas, to recover our memories, reconstruct them, analyze them, and come to terms with them. When we do so they can give us foundations for conscious adult self-understanding. They can give us opportunities for insight and growth. They can strengthen our bonds of love, and they can enlarge the possibilities for our future. Especially if we had a difficult childhood. In any case, one of the steps to fully aware adulthood is to know who we have been and what made us who we are. That can give us choices. Sometimes, however, we are tempted to cling to this self-understanding as though it were itself a possession which we can not give up. If we do cling to
it, our memories can take over our lives. To have a new life, we need to be willing to leave our old one. I am struck by the almost angry force of this morning’s sayings about family and possessions. They seem so all-encompassing, so lacking in nuance that I want tone them down, to “explain” them, to hedge them about with qualifications, and so I (and doubtless many others) ascribe them to Jesus’ use of a particular kind of rhetoric, his habitual use of what some call “semitic hyperbole” - outrageously off the chart exaggeration to make a point. But then I also realize the power that family and possessions can have to shape, dominate and control us if we don’t put them in a proper context. Jesus is calling us to a new, different, better life, and to begin to live that new life we will need to leave behind the negative controlling forces of our past. We need really to put them in the past. As Jesus says in another place, Let the dead bury their dead. If we don’t, we may well not escape, we may not grow, we may not be able to move forward. Unless we let them go, we may not be able to enter the Kingdom.
    And how wonderful that this gospel passage is paired in today’s readings with the Letter to Philemon, which so beautifully models a gracious, Spirit-filled approach to building a godly future out of a less than perfect past. And as it happens, that future seen in the Letter to Philemon grows out of these same two dangerous minefields: possessions and family.
    Onesimus is a slave of Philemon, who is a friend and co-worker of St. Paul. Onesimus is a possession. Philemon owns him. There can be no area of human relations less satisfactory than slavery, whose effects our own age is strenuously engaging to understand and to rectify. We may be shocked that St. Paul does not take the opportunity of this letter to urge Philemon to set Onesimus free. But such was the culture of that place and that time. Rather than pursue manumission, St. Paul does something entirely unexpected, something which foreshadows the coming Kingdom which he, Paul, is proclaiming: Out of slavery, which traps both the owner and the person owned, comes a set of entirely new and transforming relationships.
    Paul asks Philemon to take Onesimus back, after what seems to be a period of estrangement between the master and the slave. Onesimus has become a great help to Paul in Paul’s old age and in his imprisonment. Onesimus has progressed from a state of uselessness to one in which he is valued for his good work. This is the utilitarian basis of slavery: How much better to be a happy worker than a negligent one. A “good” slave.
    But there is more. Paul now considers Onesimus not just a slave, but a part of himself. Indeed, Paul identifies Onesimus as “his own heart”. In sending him back, he is sending Onesimus back to Philemon as the center of his, of Paul’s, own life. He identifies Onesimus as part of his own self. Onesimus has moved from being a “thing” to being a person, and more than a person - to being part of Paul’s self. Slaves and masters become one in each other because they become one in Christ. And even more: Paul identifies himself as Philemon’s father, and so he identifies Philemon as his son. And Paul urges Philemon, as a son, to regard Onesmus as his brother. Paul has become father in Christ to both Philemon and Onesimus, a father who now has two sons, each the brother to the other. And as if to underline the point, that master and slave are equal in Christ, Paul ends the letter by addressing Philemon the master in language that would be used to a slave: “Confident of your obedience, I am writing to you, knowing that you will do even more than I say.” Confident of your obedience. Do even more than I say. The world’s distinction between master and slave in Christ is transformed into a new family of brothers to each other. Possession becomes the starting point of a new relationship of the family of God.
    We may be sure that Paul is deliberate in saying this, that he is not simply using flowery language to dress up an everyday note of recommendation. We may be sure of it because slavery is a primary image in Paul’s understanding of the nature of Christ. In the second chapter of the Letter to the Philippians Paul famously writes: “Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.” The saving life of Jesus comes from the deliberate decision to be a servant, a doulos, which in Greek means both servant and slave. Christ’s self-identification as the lowest among us means that the lowest among us can count Jesus as brother, as equal. His obedience to death is the key to life.
    And so for us. Our family, who we have been, does not have to define who we can be. Our possessions do not need to define us, whether they are things or ideas. Our possessions can become occasions for unexpectedly life-giving relationships if we allow them to transform us and themselves be transformed into God-filled vessels of love, leading to relationships we never might have thought possible.
    A memory which used to trap us can become a springboard to wider and deeper and more compassionate engagements with the world and with the people we meet in it. A possession which used to define us can lead to something that enters into the center of our life’s being, into our very heart. Which then can grow and be shared in relationships that build a new family, this one as brothers and sisters, parents and children in the love of God, which is ever reaching out to rebuild the broken world God so earnestly wills to be whole, to be vibrantly alive.
    This is the choice we make when we decide to become disciples of the one who chose to be the servant, the slave of us all. We choose to be like him: in service to each other, and with the Spirit who knits the world back together again. We have been what we were and we have had what we have had. New life comes, not from holding on, but from taking our past, whatever it may have been, and offering it to the One who can make it whole, offering it to the One who can take what we were and what we had and make of its unlikeliness a Kingdom, God’s Kingdom: the blessing of the everlasting Shalom. In the words of God which Moses speaks to Israel and which we have heard this morning: “I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Choose life.”

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Easter 3 C - Apr 14, 2013

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY
Br. Adam D. McCoy, OHC
Easter 3C - Sunday, April 14, 2013

Acts 9:1-20
Revelation 5:11-14
John 21: 1-19

I love this morning’s gospel.     There is something cinematic about this story.  It’s like a guy film.  Seven guys who don’t seem to know what they’re doing decide like guys do to go fishing – the big guy makes up his mind and the other guys follow along.  Then, as is so often the case when a group of guys just sort of decides to do something, nothing happens.  Hurry up and wait.  Except that some man on the shore calls out to them – Hey, guys – Catch anything?  No?  So lower your nets on the right side.  Suddenly so many fish they can’t manage.  But who is that man on the beach?  The leader of the guys is not the brightest bulb in the sign – it is John who recognizes Jesus, but it is Peter who acts.  He puts on his clothes, jumps in the water, swims to shore, and hauls in the net. 

We know, but the guys don’t, that the man on the beach is Jesus, and he is the reason the guys have been drifting.  Condemned, killed and resurrected – two appearances already! – and the guys still don’t get it.  They’re like lost boys.  So Jesus helps them focus.  He serves them breakfast, and then has a purposeful chat.  Simon son of John, do you love me?  I do Lord.  You know I do.  Feed my lambs.  Tend my sheep.  Feed my sheep.  Jesus gives Peter his new job description.  But this time, no glory.  No young hero stuff.  This time the call is to get old and feeble and then get killed.  Jesus seems to ask, Are you up to it?  Then follow me.

This story is a call story.  But it is so unlike the call story at the beginning of the Gospel.  The first call is about excitement, about following an unexpected and emergent leader, about the prospect of initiating change and doing something new.  But the call story at the end of John’s gospel - for our gospel today is from the very last chapter of John - this call story is about something altogether different.  These guys seem not to be at the beginning of something filled with hope and expectation, but are like lost lads, drifting, unsuccessful, at the end of something but even what they are at the end of isn’t really clear to them.  This is the third resurrection appearance, apparently – the third one! – and they still don’t quite get it.  It bears repeating.  So Jesus hammers it in.

The narrative line of this story is like a template for what is to follow:  If you depend on your own efforts, if you rely on yourself, you will fail.  No self-gotten glory, no fish for self-starters here.  In order to make the catch you need to rely on the one who calls you, whom you don’t always recognize at first.  This call will penetrate to the center of your soul, and will hurt you because it won’t accept your first or even your second answers, but keeps on until you cry out in frustration and anguish, until you declare your love from the depth of your heart.  This call is for the long haul, fishing all night and catching nothing not just once but your whole life.  And the big catch is none of your own doing.  You haul in the big catch because of advice from somewhere, someone you don’t even know.  And you don’t really know who it is until you sit down and share with him, with a stranger, who turns out not to be a stranger at all.  This story tells us that we will find the Lord at the most unexpected times and in the most unexpected ways.

As did Saul of Tarsus.  History’s most famous convert.  For once we are not entirely at the mercy of a thirty or forty year communal memory, a story told and retold and sharpened in the retelling and finally written down, the story we heard from Acts.  Paul himself tells us what happened to him, in his own words, in the beginning of Galatians (1:11-24):            

“For I want you to know, brothers and sisters, that the gospel that was proclaimed by me is not of human origin; for I did not receive it from a human source, nor was I taught it, but I received it through a revelation of Jesus Christ.  You have heard, no doubt, of my earlier life in Judaism. I was violently persecuting the church of God and was trying to destroy it.  I advanced in Judaism beyond many among my people of the same age, for I was far more zealous for the traditions of my ancestors.  But when God, who had set me apart before I was born and called me through his grace, was pleased to reveal his Son to me, so that I might proclaim him among the Gentiles, I did not confer with any human being, nor did I go up to Jerusalem to those who were already apostles before me, but I went away at once into Arabia, and afterwards I returned to Damascus.  Then after three years I did go up to Jerusalem to visit Cephas and stayed with him for fifteen days; but I did not see any other apostle except James the Lord’s brother.  In what I am writing to you, before God, I do not lie!  Then I went into the regions of Syria and Cilicia, and I was still unknown by sight to the churches of Judea that are in Christ; they only heard it said, ‘The one who formerly was persecuting us is now proclaiming the faith he once tried to destroy.’  And they glorified God because of me.”      

While Acts doesn’t contradict what Paul himself tells us, Acts tells a very different story, full of action and interesting detail, a little like the story we heard from John this morning.  It is cinematic, strongly plotted, breathless even.  Who doesn’t get caught up in it when they hear it?  Who doesn’t put himself or herself into it, wishing perhaps to be chosen and transformed and given a world-changing task like Saul was?

But Paul’s own account is different.  There is no light, no voice.  There is something reticent, almost passive in Paul’s own account.  The whole exciting narrative in Acts is summed up in a single phrase:  When God was “pleased to reveal his Son to me”.  No dramatic story, no Ananias sent to the street called Straight, no nursing back to health, no scales falling from the eyes.  What Paul gives us instead is entries from his appointments calendar.  Arabia, Damascus, Jerusalem, Syria, Cilicia.  Years pass.  Not much happens for three years, and then he gets two weeks with Peter and James.  This doesn’t sound dramatic.  This isn’t cinematic.  Something happened.  Then I went here, and then I went there, and then I met with people, and then I went out on the road again.  It’s like listening to a friend we haven't seen for a long time tell us about what’s happened in his life, but it’s not an exciting story, it’s really just a list, and our attention maybe drifts just a little bit as we smile back as he drones on and on. 

This sounds like real life. 

These stories seem to say that the call itself is dramatic enough.  Sometimes the haul is so big we can hardly manage what the Lord has given us.  We meet the Lord in a stranger, we have an apocalyptic experience.  But then it is back on the road, for years and years of slogging, till all of a sudden we’re old.  We used to be able to spring up and get right to it, but now we’ve gone all creaky, and maybe the end is in sight.  Paul didn’t begin his writing career till twenty or more years after the Lord revealed himself to him.  Peter didn’t get the job description till he was broken down by the Lord’s persistent asking him the question Peter thought he had already answered. 

Easter Day may be all joy.  But the resurrection life is a long slog.  Simon, son of John, do you love me?  Lord, you know I do.  Feed my sheep.  Not once, not twice, but three times.  Over and over.  Once again, from the top. 

Are we up to it?  If you are, he says, Follow me.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Lent 3 C - Mar 3, 2013

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Adam D. McCoy, OHC
Lent 3 C – Sunday, January 27, 2013


Exodus 3:1-15
1 Corinthians 10:1-13
Luke 13:1-9


On Thursday, July 26, 2012, lightning hit a venerable Episcopal church in Brooklyn, designed by Richard Upjohn, Christ Church in Cobble Hill.  Scaffolding had been erected six weeks or so earlier, in anticipation of renovation of the tower.  A multi-pronged bolt struck the 16 foot northwest pinnacle of the tower, one of the four, and it and its supporting masonry crashed through the roof of the church and down through the floor, as well as through scaffolding.  Richard Schwartz, a 61 year old New York State Justice Department  economic justice antitrust lawyer, had taken shelter under the scaffolding but was hit by a pinnacle stone and died later at Long Island College Hospital. 

Was Richard Schwartz a worse offender than all the others living in Brooklyn?  Was his life or his work displeasing to God?  Did he deserve what he got?

To ask such questions seems absurd – and shows us how different our understanding of causation is than that of our Lord’s time.  There is not even a hint of the question of divine intervention in the article about it in the New York Times, of course.  But such superstitious  concern isn’t even found where you might look for it, in the Post,.  Some two thousand years ago, in our story from Luke, Jesus goes out of his way to deny the divine origin of the catastrophes of nature and of political tyranny to his own superstitious hearers.  The cruelty inflicted by the Roman governor, the havoc wrought by the instability of a building, are not instances of God’s capricious vengeance. 

Which most of us probably think gets us off the hook of God’s wrath breaking through and finding us.  Pontius Pilate was in a long line of despots who destroy the people who annoy them with hardly a second thought.  The tower in Siloam was probably badly designed, as were some of Upjohn’s towers.  There is a natural explanation for all of this.  These things happen.  Richard Schwartz just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.  It can all be sorted out by insurance companies and litigation. 

Except that is not what Jesus said.  He didn’t say that the people who were harmed by wicked tyranny and bad engineering were not at fault.  He did not let the bystanders off the hook.  What he said was that the people who suffered were not worse than the rest of us.  What he said was, “unless you repent, you will all perish just as they did."  Instead of innocent victims and onlookers, a few whose sins had caught them out, Everyone is potentially at fault.  Everyone sins.  Everyone is on the wrong side of what God wants.  This is not the news of victimhood.  It puts us all on notice.  We are all in it together, and unless we get our act together before God, we will all be liable.  What we want is disconnection of the “real world” from the inbreaking of the divine.  What we want is understandable causes and fixable solutions: Install a more humane governor in Jerusalem.  Re-engineer the Tower of Siloam, and make sure the builders don’t cut corners.  Check our church towers for weaknesses and restore them.  Find it, fix it, avoid lawsuits.  And most of all, don’t drag us into it personally when things go wrong.

But instead of disconnecting our daily world from our responsibilities to God, what Jesus does is radically re-connect it.  It isn’t just “them”, “those people”, the ones who died because they were in the way.  We all of us, actually, are “in the way”.  We all have the responsibility to see our reality and turn our lives around and start living as God wants us to live.  What we do has consequences before God.   What we do, who we are, matters.

Let’s follow this line of thought a little further.  What if, instead of living in a world whose demonstrable chains of material causation leave less and less room for the presence of God, we live in a world in which those same chains of causation lead us deeper into the divine reality?  What if we live in a world in which every scientific discovery leads us closer to the Word of God which created that world?  What if we live in a world in which we come to understand that every time we injure someone else we mingle their blood with our sacrifices?  What if we live in a world in which every one of our sins makes a tear, smaller or larger, in the fabric of God’s good creation?  What if we live in a world in which every time we make peace with one other person we are helping to set the world right again?  What if we live in a world in which every time we do a good deed for someone else we are re-weaving one small strand of the tapestry of creation?  What if the fruits of our lives, good or bad, are vital to the whole of what is?  We may want to be separate from God, but we are radically connected.

St. Paul tells us that the rock which gave the Israelites in the wilderness the water they needed to live was Christ.  What a strange image!  Their journey through the wilderness was made possible because Christ was with them, all the way, even though they did not know it.  What makes our lives possible is Christ.  He is the rock giving us the living water that sustains us through the wilderness.  Our lives come from him, are sustained by him.  What we do with our lives matters.  We are deeply connected with Christ, even though we do not see it or know it until later, and maybe not even then. 

Moses encountered God on the mountain, in the burning bush, was given his marching orders, and then asked at least to know His Name: “God said to Moses, "I AM Who I AM." He said further, "Thus you shall say to the Israelites, 'I AM has sent me to you.'" God is What – or Who -- Is.  There is no separating us from What Is, from What Really Is.  The world God has made is – it Is.  The world’s very being flows from the One whom we cannot even begin to encompass in our imaginings, because to imagine is to separate, to distinguish, to use the third person, to stand aside and describe.  But God is always personally present: I AM.  The world and we ourselves are only separate from God in our imaginings.  Everything we are and everything we do is our commentary on our dependence on, our life in, the One Who Is, in whom we live and move and have our being. 

Jesus - incarnate Son of God, Word of God made flesh, through whom all things are made - Jesus knows we cannot live up to the one who made us.  We are like the fig tree.  We have been planted in the vineyard, have been allowed to grow, and now is the time for figs.  But not all of us bear fruit, and none of us bears as much as we were intended to.  For three years – an interesting number, the conventional length of Jesus’ ministry – for three years the owner of vineyard has been looking for fruit and not finding it.  But the gardener – the same gardener Mary Magdalene thought she saw at the empty tomb? – the gardener knows the tree, and begs for arboreal intensive care and for time.  There will be water, even water from the Rock.   There will be time, but that time is a time of urgency.  The time for the reparation of the fruitfulness of the world, the fruitfulness of God’s people, has arrived.  If not now, then, by the gracious love of Christ, next year is the time for the tree to bear fruit.  Next year there will be figs.