Sunday, January 31, 2010

RCL - Epiphany 4 C - 31 Jan 2010

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY
Br. James Michael Dowd, OHC
RCL Epiphany 4 C - Sunday 31 January 2010

Jeremiah 1:4-10
1 Corinthians 13:1-13
Luke 4:21-30


Our Prophetic Call

In the Name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Our Gospel reading this morning is actually the second half of last week's Gospel. Last week, you'll recall Jesus was in the synagogue and chose for his reading a passage from Isaiah which read:
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me,
because he has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim release to the captives
and recovery of sight to the blind,
to let the oppressed go free,
to proclaim a year of the Lord's favor.
The continuation of the Gospel this week says that the people in Nazareth's synagogue were quite thrilled to hear this and were very pleased with “Joseph's son.” They probably thought to themselves 'we sure could use a year of favor from the Lord,' and 'it sure would be nice for the blind to see and the captives to be set free.'

But as this week's reading goes on we hear these same people of Nazareth turn on Jesus and become outraged by him when he tells them that he knows they will reject his message due to their lack of faith, for no prophet is accepted in the prophet's hometown.

But every time I read this passage, I find myself wondering about these towns people, the very ones who are “filled with rage.” What is it about a prophet that so upsets people? Certainly the prophets' message can be difficult to hear, but I have always suspected that there is more to it than that.

Once, many years ago, I found myself in the presence of a Prophet – a man specially called by God to announce the Good News to the poor and to proclaim peace throughout the land. The occasion was a retreat I was participating in that was led by the Jesuit priest, Daniel Berrigan, one of the leaders of the Catonsville Nine. The retreat was back in the early 1980's at the height of the brutal repression by extreme right-wing oligarchs and their paramilitary thugs, aided and abetted in their evil ways by the complicity of, first, Jimmy Carter, and then, Ronald Reagan.

Now I knew a great deal about Berrigan and was very excited about the retreat; I also knew that I agreed with at least 90% of what I had read in Berrigan's writings. Though I did not know him personally, you could say that I was one of the hometown crowd. So, not fifteen minutes into the retreat, I began to wonder to myself why I was feeling so uncomfortable. What he was saying was familiar territory for me and the words themselves were not shocking to me. It was something about Berrigan himself that was unsettling me and I simply could not figure out what that was.

And then, many years later, I read Abraham Heschel's book The Prophets and figured out why I had been so unsettled by Berrigan so many years before. In his book, Heschel writes that:
The prophet is the man who feels fiercely. God has thrust a burden upon his soul, and he is bowed and stunned at man's fierce greed. Frightful is the agony of man; no human voice can convey its full terror. Prophecy is the voice that God has lent to the silent agony, a voice to the plundered poor, to the profaned riches of the world. It is a form of living, a crossing point of God and man. God is raging in the prophet's words.
It wasn't that I was uncomfortable with Berrigan or even with what he was saying. In my gut I was uncomfortable because it was God I heard raging in Berrigan's words. This was no ordinary retreat session, the rather soft-spoken and eloquent Berrigan made me so uncomfortable because it was not really him condemning all that was happening in El Salvador and here in the United States, it was God condemning that profoundly sinful behavior. And being so near to the presence of God - raging in a prophet's words - is bound to make any ordinary person uncomfortable.

This brings to mind our first reading which is from the very beginning of the Book of the Prophet Jeremiah. At this point, having heard the call from God, Jeremiah is terrified because he was thinking to himself that “he is only a boy.” “But the Lord put out his hand and touched his mouth” and told Jeremiah:
Now I have put my words in your mouth. See, today I appoint you over nations and over kingdoms, to pluck up and to pull down, to destroy and to overthrow, to build and to plant.
When we think of a prophet, probably what we are most likely to think about is the verse: “To pluck up and pull down, to destroy and to overthrow.” We can just envision the livid Jeremiah or the seemingly half-crazed John the Baptist railing against the powers that be and demanding their overthrow. But it's that last phrase that intrigues me: “to build and to plant.” Anger and outrage may be enough to pull down and to destroy, but if you are going to build and plant there has to be something more. In fact, there has to be love. For, as St. Paul says in his First Epistle to the Corinthians, “If I have prophetic powers...but do not have love, I am nothing.

The prophet then, is called to love. In fact, the prophet is called to be a great lover. The modern day prophet I most admire is Archbishop Oscar Romero. Oscar Romero was the Archbishop of San Salvador in the late 1970's, and was martyred on the Eve of the Feast of the Annunciation, March 24, 1980 as he celebrated the Eucharist. The murderers were the very people that Daniel Berrigan would be fuming about a few years later on my retreat.

Romero had been a somewhat ordinary priest that the political and church oligarchs conspired to convince the Vatican to raise up as Archbishop. He was conservative. He believed that the Church should not rock the boat. He was "one of them." But upon his elevation, a number of incidents, which is the polite word for murder and kidnappings, occurred that prompted him to speak out. In a very brief time, he became known as a man who would stop at nothing, no matter how dangerous, to call his people – all of his people – to justice, to peace, and to making that preferential option for the poor a reality.

In a homily at the Cathedral in San Salvador, Archbishop Romero said:
Dear brothers and sisters, especially those of you who hate me, you dear brothers and sisters who think I am preaching violence, who defame me and know it isn't true, you that have hands stained with murder, with torture, with atrocity, with injustice – be converted. I love you deeply. I am sorry for you because you go on the way to ruin.
It's that short little sentence near the end that so moves me: “I love you deeply.” He was talking about men who were attempting to, and who eventually did, murder him. He was talking about men who committed grotesque atrocities. And still he could say “I love you deeply.” This was a man who could build and plant.

What made Oscar Romero different, a man who could build and plant rather than simply tear down and destroy? I think an important clue comes at the beginning of the passage I quoted. He begins by addressing all of these people as my “dear brothers and sisters, especially those who hate me.” And there it is. The radical love that names each of God's children as one's brother or sister is the prophetic dimension that moves beyond pulling down and destroying and begins the process of planting and building. When it is an enemy we see, committing grave sins and profaning God, we want to destroy them. When it is our brother or sister we see, committing grave sins and profaning God, we want to call them to conversion and lead them to a new way, a holy way, a way of planting and building.

For the monastic community, for our Associates, and perhaps others as well, who are called to live our lives according to, or inspired by, the Rule of Benedict, our call is, at least in part, to be a prophetic witness for Christ. Not everyone who is called to be a prophet is meant to be a wild-eyed, grasshopper eating rabble rouser. But as prophets nonetheless, the first piece of the prophetic witness, I believe, is to build and plant community. To see one another and all of God's children as our brothers and sisters. St. Benedict tells us in Chapter 72 of the Rule that monks:
...should each try to be the first to show respect to the other, supporting with the greatest patience one another's weaknesses of body or behavior, and earnestly competing in obedience to one another. No one is to pursue what he judges better for himself, but instead what he judges better for someone else. To their fellow monks they show the pure love of brothers...
That is community. Brotherhood, sisterhood, is “pure love.” It is pure because it is selfless. It is living a life based on what is better for another. And that is completely counter-cultural. Fraternal love is radical love because it places the needs of others ahead of our own. And that is why throughout history, community has always been difficult to form. Those few verses I read are a real challenge to anyone attempting to live a Christian life. Seeing one another as brothers and sisters is the work of conversion, the work of our vows, the work of a lifetime.

But in our particular era, I think that the work of forming community is even more difficult than it has been in the past. We are up against a great deal within our culture that fights very hard against the idea of community, to say nothing of its realization. We are isolated one from another, adrift in a world that is so fast paced we find ourselves short of breath just contemplating it.

Add to this that via the Internet, television, and cell phones we are joined to other people and peoples with little knowledge of how they actually live, what is important to them, what they believe in. But there we are, in constant contact with all of God's children without really being connected to them. Most damaging of all is a political and economic system that glorifies individualism, greed, and a culture of violence and death at all stages of life.

As I think about these things, it seems to me that those of us who have a Benedictine vocation have a special call at this time in Salvation History, and that includes not only the monastic community, but our Associates as well. We must not forget that it was our forebears in this great Benedictine tradition that were the leaders of re-forming community in a desperately broken down Europe after the fall of the Roman Empire. For 1,500 years we have been living the Good News in our prayer and in our work by creating community in our prayer and in our work. We are at a point in Salvation History in which it is not only Europe that cries out for our prophetic witness, it is the whole world.

Listen closely my brothers and sisters for the cry of the poor rises up from Newburgh and Port-au-Prince, from Kingston and San Salvador, from Hartford and New York and Toronto and Grahamstown and Manila and Islamabad longing for the love of a brother or sister. The pained voices of those trampled by unending war and violence in Baghdad, Kabul and Darfur are moaning for their brothers and sisters to lay down their arms. Forty-five million Americans are begging their brothers and sisters to end our greed and share the health care that we so often take for granted.

I believe we have a choice before us today. We can, as part of Christ's Body, take on his prophetic call by announcing the Good News to the poor, healing the sick, freeing the oppressed. Or, we can ignore the poor, the sick, the oppressed, pretending that they do not exist, which is tantamount to throwing them off the cliff. We can heed God's call to constant conversion and call our loved ones, fellow community members, fellow Americans, and the Church, to that same conversion. A conversion that allows us to build and plant the Kingdom of God with our brothers and sisters whom we love so deeply.

There is risk in this, of course. As prophets, we will make some people uncomfortable because we are so filled with feeling. Some people will want to throw us off the cliff because they are actually hearing God raging in our words. Some of us may be imprisoned or even killed because we love our brothers and sisters so deeply, even those who hate us.

But throughout Salvation History, our Lord has called people just like you and me to bring Good News to the poor, to proclaim release to all who are held captive, to give sight to the bind, and to free the oppressed by welcoming them all into our community. This is our call. A call to take up our cross and follow Jesus down a road that may not always be comfortable, and might even be dangerous. A call that requires a life dedicated to the two great Benedictine values of prayer and work. May the Lord continue to bless all of us in that prayer and work.

Amen.

Monday, January 25, 2010

RCL - Epiphany 3 C - 24 Jan 2010

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY
Br. Randy Greve, OHC
RCL – Epiphany 3 C – Sunday 24 January 2010


Nehemiah 8:1-3, 5-6, 8-10
1 Corinthians 12:12-31a
Luke 4:14-21


The Lord Jesus emerges from the wilderness and is ready to begin his public ministry. He will declare the coming of the kingdom of God. He goes home - to Nazareth, to the synagogue he knew very well, to his family and friends. The community gathers to sing, to pray, to hear the stories and the promises. Perhaps most urgently of all they gather to remember the promise of Messiah who will save and liberate them, who will usher in the reign of God's presence of justice and peace. How they long for justice and peace, how they long for freedom and have longed for it for centuries. It was a normal Sabbath gathering, like hundreds of Sabbaths before, and, for all these Jews of Nazareth knew, like the hundreds of Sabbaths which will follow. An endless horizon of Sabbaths full of this remembering, this longing, this waiting spread out before them. So much in their world would make a hope for liberty folly. Tommorow will be like today: the poor will be poor, the rich will stay rich, the empire will own us, and Caesar will be lord – who or what could change that?

They don't yet know who it is who stands among them to read on this Sabbath, who arrives to utter the most earth-shattering one sentence sermon ever preached. Even the first word would have been incomprehensible. “Today...” They don't yet know that sight is coming from Mary and Joseph's son, that salvation for the world starts in Nazareth with them. They don't yet know that they are staring at the very One they most desire and most long for. The promise is really here. He proclaims his anointed and chosen status. Isaiah was right and today is the day. But even as he announces that the blind can see and the prisoners can walk free people in Nazareth continued to suffer. After Jesus declared that today was the day blindness was still as dark, prisons were still as confining, the Roman soldiers patrolling the streets of Nazareth carried swords that still reminded the people of their oppression. Those hanging on crosses for defying Caesar were still as dead – Caesar always wins.

Whatever fulfillment means it does not mean that justice and peace spring up instantly. Jesus does not fix everything. From the stories given to us in the Gospels Jesus will indeed leave the synagogue in Nazareth and go about preaching and healing. He will open a few blind eyes and liberate some in spiritual oppression, he will free captives and feed the poor and the Good News will begin to spread around the world. But this Good News will not, has not, been instant or easy or welcomed by everyone. Whatever fulfillment means, it is not finished yet.

After Jesus went up and the Holy Spirit came down the first Christians preserved and embodied Jesus' proclamation of the kingdom coming among us. They shared and taught the faith, cared for the orphan and widow, fed the hungry. And what did they get for their embrace of the Savior? Our faithful forebears were thrown out of the synagogues, persecuted, many tortured and killed, oppressed and deprived and tormented – not exactly what we would call Good News. And in the two millenia since this declaration of freedom was proclaimed how many around the world have remained blind and in prison, oppressed and mistreated? How many have died alone, unloved, and unmourned? How many children have been abused, how many have faced hopelessness, how many have spent their last moments trapped under a collapsed building, alone, afraid, in darkness and despair? To those for whom there is no rescue, in the realization that no one is coming to save them, what is the use of this Good News? In moments of honesty we look around the world and demand “If this is the world that God envisioned, if this is the Good News that Jesus preaches, it is either the biggest joke in the history of the world or it is a hard Good News and who can bear it.”

And yet Christ proclaims the promise fulfilled. And it is fulfilled. Despite the pain, the violence, the earthquakes, the disease - the promise of Isaiah is fulfilled because Messiah has come. The message of the kingdom is the ultimate Good News because it offers the gift that within and beyond the pain, within and beyond the violence, in the midst of rubble and destruction, though our bodies decay and die, Messiah is with us and we can have hope. Indeed the Good News that Jesus proclaims is to be free from injustice and oppression but it is also to be free when we are the victims of injustice and oppression. It is to see with our eyes but it is also to glimpse what no eye has seen. It is to know Christ in blessed times of health and plenty and contentment but also to know Christ in the inevitability of disease and distress and death that attends this temporal journey – fulfillment is real because we rest in the peace that no suffering, no oppression, no Caesar can touch our hope or steal our life. Our brief momentary afflictions are not the last word, our struggle is temporal, our liberation is secured.

But we don't just sit back and wait for heaven. Because God's reign is embodied in people, in us, the kingdom comes when we live its life and do its work and act as if it is already here today among us because it is. Our longing translated into acts of revolution usher in the kingdom among us. We become the Good News to one another. As Jesus leaves the synagogue in Nazareth, he is looking for us, or, more accurately, looking within us. He is listening for our hearts, for the longing and hope that reside deep within us. He is testing the sincerity of our love. Our desire for new life joins us to Jesus' proclaimation of “Today in your hearing...” and makes it real. We meet them as we journey into the story: desire lived in the heart of blind Bartimaeus, the bleeding woman, the lepers – it lived in the hearts of those who pleaded on behalf of others – the Roman official, the demoniac's father, the friends of the lame and dying and dead. Their physical healing was for their temporal existence but the spiritual life they received sustains them even now at this very moment as they look upon the face of the One who healed and saved them. These are they who lived Epiphany, who welcomed the Light, who faced the crisis of freedom with hope planted and grounded in Christ. These and countless others like them are our models for fulfilling the Good News in our own lives.

Still it is a hard Good News that we proclaim. We live with the violent, unjust and fractured state of our world – a world of promise yet still fallen and groaning for its salvation. Our hope is fulfilled but not yet complete. It is a hard Good News that we proclaim. Too hard, a foolish nonsense, to those who want a quick fix, an easy out, pleasure now. Even as Jesus loved and forgave and healed there were scoffers, enemies are present in the story as well - the Pharisees, the teachers of the law, the Sadducees, the religious, the comfortable, the arrogantly powerful, the selfishly rich – unable to surrender control, unwilling to let go of a fleeting safety and comfort for eternal peace. Those who reject hope remind us that we are often tempted to do the same. . Jesus announces but does not impose, he proclaims but does not coerce. Our will is like a door that can open to liberation or close itself up in the prison of self-delusion. Our own struggles with arrogance, selfishness, judgment, apathy can humble us and confront us with the choice of life or death. The light of Good News attracts some and repels others and we are all on the hook and must respond. Jesus continues to fulfill today in our hearing, to announce, to invite, to preach the foolishness of sight and freedom, even and especially in a world so full of blindness and despair.

In his autobiography The Seven Storey Mountain, Cistertian monk Thomas Merton expressed the essence of Epiphany, the essence of our longing for what is already here, with these words:


We cannot arrive at the perfect possession of God in this life and that is why we are travelling and in darkness. But we already possess Him by grace, and therefore in that sense we have arrived and are dwelling in the light. But oh! How far have I to go to find You in Whom I have already arrived.


Amen.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

RCL - Epiphany 2 C - 17 Jan 2010

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY
Br. Bernard Jean Delcourt, OHC
RCL – Epiphany 2 C – Sunday 17 January 2010


Isaiah 62:1-5
1 Corinthians 12:1-11
John 2:1-11


How long, O Lord, how long, till my heart is broken enough that you may be born and fully formed in this foolish heart of mine?
How long, O Lord, how long, till my heart burns with Your Love for all humankind, no matter how and where I meet You in them?
Make my heart yearn for your will. Make my strength seek and serve your will unceasingly.
Give me, Jesus, the deep trust and humility of a child. Give me to ask insistently of you all that is best for the commonweal of humanity.
You partake of our humanity. You know how we hurt ourselves and one another in sin. I beg you, Jesus; heal us, make us whole, make us holy.

*****

In our gospel passage of today, the evangelist describes how Jesus reveals something of his essential nature to a few chosen witnesses (his mother, his disciples and a few servants of the house where a wedding is celebrated).

Before we look at His self-revelation at Cana, I'd like to set the scene. I'll try to help us see the unspoken parts of the scene; as contemporaries of the evangelist might have understood them. Then I'll look at a few important things about Jesus and about prayer that are conveyed in this episode.

*****

Cana was a smallish village about 10 miles North of Nazareth. A wedding in a village would have involved nearly all of its inhabitants in the festivities. And it would have lasted several days. The wedding would have been seen as an honor transaction joining two families. That's very different from our current ideal of a ritual witnessing to the mutual love of two individuals. In all likelihood, the bride, whether a young maid or a widow would have had little if any opportunity to mingle with, and get to know, her bridegroom beforehand. Women lived a fairly separated, and ancillary life, while only the men would have been involved in outside world transactions.

The fact that Jesus and his kindred have been invited from another village, indicates that his family is probably linked to that of the bridegroom. Jesus' family and the bridegroom's family are bound to sustain each other in honor, the main transactional value of East Mediterranean society at that time.

A wedding celebration was a time of tremendous opportunity and risk, in terms of acquiring or keeping honor. The more lavish the wedding, the more it would show everyone how well connected to a great number of friends the family was. In solidarity, the friends would have contributed to the wedding in lending required household items (such as their only stone water jar) or foods required (such as wine).

At the time of a wedding, the home -- which normally would be a very private, inaccessible place controlled by women -- suddenly, if briefly, became a public place. Everyone in the village would be able to inspect it -- with the potential for gossip if anything was not up to snuff.

So the high-stakes, social-representation wedding is not a 21st century American invention, after all. First century Palestine was just as interested in keeping up appearances or upstaging the Joneses. But the stakes were not wealth and power (even if these might be expressed); the high stakes were honor, first and foremost, and connection also.

So here are Jesus' family and friends, involved in honor solidarity with the bridegroom's kindred, at a time fraught with tension for the honor of both their families. And in the midst of that, the mother of Jesus -- she is never named otherwise in the gospel according to John -- the mother of Jesus notices that wine is about to run dry.

Running short of wine would be a major stain on the honor of the bridegroom's family (and possibly, affect the honor of the families connected to it). Not only would it be a fault of hospitality, but it would point out to a lack of friends, who have been able to assemble sufficient provisions for the feast. So honor would twice be hurt; lack of hospitality, lack of friends who come through when it matters.

*****

And this is where the mother of Jesus comes to offer us a template of faithful prayer. She approaches her son to let Him know of the problem. But Jesus appears single-mindedly focused on longer-term perspectives, on the bigger picture; "My hour has not yet come". So, at first sight, he may look dismissive of his mother.

Even though Jesus addressing his mother as "Woman" might suggest a rebuke, or even disrespect, in our own social and cultural context, that is not the case in Cana on that day. Jesus will again address his mother in this manner from the cross, in a context that clearly denotes not disrespect, but love and concern.

In any case, the mother of Jesus seems to know her boy well. She is nonplussed by the apparent rebuke. She deeply believes that Jesus will answer her prayer. And she completely trusts that, whatever manner He will choose to address the issue, will be an answer to her concern. She does not consider herself unheard. And she turns to the servants to say: "Do whatever he tells you."

She could be saying that to us, to any of us, here assembled this morning: "Do whatever he tells you."

*****

And, in answer to his mother's implicit, but confident prayer, Jesus does change his mind, and does address the situation at hand.

His response affects concentric groups, from Jesus' in-group to the whole wedding community, in various manner:
  • First, on the outer rim, the wider community of revelers unwittingly are provided abundant and better wine. God's grace touches them unawares.
  • Next, the bridegroom's kindred's honor is preserved. Some puzzlement ensues in the steward of the house. And the steward mildly rebukes the bridegroom: "... you have kept the good wine until now." We're left to imagine whether the steward and the bridegroom ever were made aware of the grace they had received.
  • Third, the least of the wedding attendants, the servers, are made aware of a great sign. But in their discretion, to not hurt the bridegroom's honor, they are probably left in silent puzzlement.
  • Finally, the disciples are given a first sign of who Jesus truly is. Jesus chooses this multi-layered situation to open their eyes on his deeper nature. The disciples may have remembered Jesus telling Nathanael just a few days earlier "Do you believe because I told you that I saw you under the fig tree? You will see greater things than these." And this is only the first sign of Jesus' deeper nature in the gospel according to John.
In those stone purification jars at Cana, Jesus demonstrates what conversion He is able to effect in us. Jesus shows us the effective generosity of God in answering an earnest and trusting prayer, as prayed by His mother at Cana. Let us pay attention, for it is not every day that we are given the grace of seeing so immediately the answer to a prayer.

And let us pay attention to the type of prayer that the mother of Jesus models for us:
  • She earnestly brings to His attention a need for the general welfare of the community,
  • She does not demand or micro-manage,
  • She trusts that Jesus will address the need she brings to His attention,
  • She enjoins us to be obedient to Jesus; to listen to him and to do what we're told in answer to the prayer.
May we be that generous, earnest, trusting and obedient in our own prayers. And may we see the glory of God when it is in front of our very eyes.

*****

And so thanks be to God for being willing to hear our prayer; thanks be to God for answering our prayers as God sees best for us.

And thanks be to the mother of Jesus for modeling faithful prayer for us at Cana of Galilee.

And so, indulge me, in these times of dire need for our brothers and sisters in Haiti -- and everywhere there is human suffering -- indulge me to call upon the great intercessor who asked for God's help at Cana and received -- indulge me and pray with me:

Hail Mary, full of grace,

The Lord is with thee,
Blessed are thou amongst women,
And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus,

Holy Mary, Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

RCL - Epiphany 1 C - 10 Jan 2010

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY
Br. Andrew Colquhoun, OHC
RCL - Epiphany 1 C - Sunday 10 Jan 2010
Baptism of Christ

Isaiah 43:1-7
Acts 8:14-17
Luke 3:15-17, 21-22


I had a shock this week. Failing my driving test was very difficult for me; it took me by surprise. Not the failing but my reaction to it. I felt ashamed, scared, small, low. My reason told me to shape up but the voice inside said, “You see, you are not competent; you are getting too old; you were never very good at anything; always fourth, never in the top three; you are a failure; who do you think you are; you’re fooling everyone. You’re still the fat kid who couldn’t hit a ball.” It was a bad day and I felt very alone.

And my hunch is that not very deep within each one of us is one who never feels that he or she has quite arrived; not quite grown up; vulnerable to so many things. And that that part of us is the part we have a hard time blessing.

Now this is the feast of the Baptism of Christ… I don’t know how many sermons I’ve preached on this event. There’s so much about it that is important… how in this baptism, Jesus stands with all humanity, aligning himself with us in our sins – repenting on our behalf before he begins his ministry. It’s been called almost his ordination, his acknowledging his ministry – his confirmation as the Messiah, the Christ. From here on there’s no mistaking that he is on purpose going to the cross.

I know and believe all that. I wonder at it; I’m humbled by it. But all that knowledge and all that subscription to doctrine obviously hasn’t touched the part of me that shrivels when I feel unworthy. The part that says that I didn’t fail a driving test but failed life. And I wonder what it will take to bring peace to that part of the human soul that feels so unloved and unlovable.

Apart from all the theology and the doctrine about this great mystical event, there is a human element that is primal although almost always subsumed by the mystery of that action. Luke doesn’t mention where the baptism was or who took part. But the other accounts put Jesus and John together. These two men, cousins, face the worst that life can do to humans. Utter desolation, uncertainty, pain, suffering, prison and death… and John says, “I shouldn’t be doing this, I’m not worthy.” And Jesus answers and says, “Please, I need this. I need to stand with these people. I need to be part of them and they of me.”

And so they stand, the two of them in the mud of the Jordan, and the water splashes in that first sacrament of life.

And God speaks. “I love you; I am pleased with you; you are my child.” The voice comes and it is the same word spoken in Isaiah – “Do not fear, I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. Precious in my sight, and honored, and I love you.”

Oh – my – God! How dare we call ourselves worthless. How dare we shrink from that love. How dare we hold on to the voice that says “Unworthy! Nothing! Failed!”

The story only begins there – then comes the desert, prison for John, his beheading, Jesus’ homelessness, the Cross.

The word, the blessing of love is given to Him to strengthen him for the journey that is ahead.

It’s given to us, too, for the same reason. That declaration of love is for all. In that declaration is the healing that we need, if we will listen.

And just as Jesus carried that voice to the broken, so we are to carry that voice to God’s beloved. The very people Jesus sought out. The people who have never heard “Beloved”; who have only known lostness; the smelly crowd standing in the mud next to us while we think we’re clean.

The crowd came to baptism with longing and expectation. Tired of soldiers and oppression. Poor and hungry. They haven’t gone away. These are the people we promised at our baptism to seek and serve and love; these are those for whom we promised to strive for justice and peace and whose dignity we promised to respect. These are our brothers and sisters who struggle with more than a driving test; whose lives are trial and struggle and want. These are the people who need to hear from us “You are our beloved.”