Sunday, July 2, 2023

Proper 8 A - July 2, 2023

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Aidan Owen, OHC

Proper 8 A - Sunday, July 2, 2023
 
Genesis 22:1-14
Romans 6:12-23
Matthew 10:40-42

In the name of the One God, who creates us, saves us, and makes us holy. Amen.

Abraham took the wood of the burnt offering and laid it on his son Isaac, and he himself carried the fire and the knife.

Andrew McGowan, the dean of Berkeley Divinity School at Yale, writes in a recent newsletter that the binding of Isaac “is about sacrifice in the sense that the Noah story is about navigation or the Parable of the Sower is about agriculture. […] The flood, the seed, the knife, are more than incidental, yet neither are they the point.”

I have to both agree and disagree with Dean McGowan. As with the Cross, the medium is, in some sense, the message. And, as with the Cross, the story of Abraham’s—attempt? Intention? Tearful but necessary submission?—to sacrifice Isaac is baffling and shadowy and impossible to reduce to a single, much less a satisfactory, meaning. Still, I won’t take the preacher’s easy out and say, “It’s all a mystery,” though as with everything of God, it is, in the end, a mystery.

It’s so easy to wonder what on earth Abraham was thinking. How could he be so misguided as to drag his son—who, by the way, is not his only son, though he does keep saying that—up the mountainside with the intention of killing and burning him. But, remember, this is the same man who disguised himself as his wife’s brother in Egypt, nearly bringing her to rape and who, as we heard last week, cast out his first son, Ishmael, and his mother into the wilderness with nothing but a water skin. These actions—or misdeeds, to call them by their proper name—make his exodus from Ur of the Chaldees seem positively reasonable.

Abraham is, if nothing else, a man who listens for the voice of God and who, when he thinks he hears that voice, does not hesitate to act. He is also a man who demonstrates the danger of the charismatic leader unchecked by a community grounded in faith and discernment. This is a threat ever present in our church today, which is in danger of becoming an echo chamber of progressive political action at the expense of the Gospel mandate to love and to welcome those whom we would call our enemies.

I recently heard another a priest say that fascists should not be welcome in our churches. That, in fact, banning fascists from our churches is a sign of moral clarity and purity, a needed beacon of what we stand for in a dark and frightening world. And yet, I wonder if our world would be a little less dark and frightening if we could listen to, learn from, and yes, even love, those whose political or social beliefs we find abhorrent. Surely, the Church should be the place where such hospitality of spirit is not only possible but expected.

If Abraham had had such a community with whom to test the spirits that spoke to him, would he so blithely have cast out his first-born son and his mother into the wilderness? Would he have loaded Isaac with the wood?

And what of that young boy and the load he bears? Did his arms ever set down the burden of those logs? Or, like the wood of the Cross, did they mark him and set him apart for the rest of his life? I once told a friend about the scars my father’s absence had left on my life. He said to me, “Be grateful your father wasn’t around. Mine was, and he was a horror.” Would Isaac have said the same? Did Ishmael get the easier road, cast out though he was?

And then, of course, we must ask, where is God in all this mess?

A spiritual director once told me that experiences of evil, neglect, or suffering are often, paradoxically, initiations into God. Sometimes the darkness is so threatening that only the light of God’s love, surrounding and suffusing us, can save us.

It is surely God’s voice who cries out “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him!” Many artists have portrayed this moment with an angel clad in light standing behind Abraham, grasping his wrist, his arm raised high above the boy, knife in hand. But I recently came across a different image of this scene. In this one the angel stands between Abraham and Isaac, the knife lodged in the middle of her chest, protecting the boy. I thought “Yes, this is the God we have in Jesus.”

The God who stands between the violence of the world and our innocence. The God who bears the weight of the Cross to save us and set us free. The God who loves us beyond loving, and who makes a shelter of his own body for the outcast and a lighthouse of his love to guide us home through the storm.

Whatever else this story tells us, it tells us that we need to be that lighthouse for one another. We need to show one another the way back, when we have lost our way, as we all do. We need to stay one another’s hands and stop one another’s mouths. And sometimes we need to step in front of the knife, to expose the futility of the fire and the knife.

However he carried this moment with him, Isaac certainly went on to live a faithful life, though much quieter than his father’s. He settled, married, and had children whom he loved deeply and freely. He showed God’s faithfulness, not in grand acts of exodus and vision, but in quiet steadfastness, in stability and solidity.

We don’t know if Isaac saw the vision of the angel of God, standing in front of the knife. But whether he knew it or not, God saved him. And whether we know it or not, God saves us in every moment of every day. Not by preventing harm from befalling us and those we love—though we understandably wish it were so—but instead by putting his body and his love between death and our souls.

For in each of us, no matter how hurt or hurtful, there remains a part untouched by evil. “A point,” in the words of Thomas Merton, “untouched by sin and by illusion, […] which belongs entirely to God, […] which is inaccessible to the fantasies of our own mind or the brutalities of our own will.” And, I would add, incapable of being harmed or shattered by another’s brutality. This is the place where Christ lives in us. This place, hidden with Christ in God, is the foundation of all authentic prayer and all authentic Christian community.

The story of Abraham and Isaac exposes our deep need of one another. We must challenge one another’s delusions. We must support one another’s healing. But most of all—we must welcome and love one another, most especially when it is hardest to do so, just as Christ has welcomed and loved us. There is no such thing as individual salvation. It’s all of us, or none at all.

Perhaps the Good News lies in the fact that our salvation, and that of Abraham, Isaac, Hagar, Ishmael, Sarah, and all those we think don’t belong in our churches or our communities doesn’t rely on us at all. For God is good, and that is everything.

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Thursday, June 29, 2023

The Feast of Saint Peter and Saint Paul, Apostles - June 29, 2023

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Francis Daniel Beckham, OHC

The Feast of Saint Peter and Saint Paul, Apostles, June 29, 2023

Ezekiel 34:11-16

2 Timothy 4:1-8

John 21:15-19

 

May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing to you, O God, my stronghold and my comforter. Amen.

What does it mean to love? To be loved? What does it feel like? How do we behave towards the ones we love? And what do we do to take care of them? Naturally, our answers will depend on exactly whom we love, what kind of love we’re feeling toward them – romantic, friendship, familial – as well as our own needs, past experiences, expectations, and circumstances.

When we’re teenagers or young adults, for instance, experiencing the reciprocated affections of a crush for the first time, we’re likely to feel infatuation and excitement, accompanied by a grand delusion of devotion: “This is the one!” we tell ourselves. “This is the real thing! If we were ever to break up (which we definitely won’t) I’d never find anyone else to love ever again!” We aren’t usually disingenuous our first time out the gate; it’s just all new and wonderful to us, and we haven’t yet got the benefit of experience to help us have a slightly more measured perspective on the matter.

Love hits much differently when, later down the road, a first-time parent holds their newborn in their arms and realizes what absolute, unshakable, unconditional love and devotion really feels like. Or when, in our middle or later years we suddenly realize just how long a spouse, partner, sibling, cousin, or friend has stuck by us – someone with whom we’ve shared countless formative experiences including both the highs and lows of life, resulting in deep, abiding friendship.

When we’re blessed with a soulmate who just ‘gets’ us, we discover a different way of feeling love for someone – a way marked by sincere gratitude for having a person in our life who makes us feel seen, heard, understood, and appreciated for who we are, warts and all. We’re much more careful to guard and nurture these kinds of relationships because of how much they genuinely mean to us. And the older we get, the more we learn to treasure them.

In reflecting on our Gospel reading, I was struck at the tenderness of the conversation between Jesus and Peter, and just how deep a friendship it reveals. I found myself returning again and again to Jesus’ opening question to Peter: “Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these?” It’s a remarkable thing to ask someone. “Do you love me? And do you love me more than anyone else does?” For many of us, I think this would be a terrifying question to ask or be asked. What if we don’t receive – or can’t give – the hoped-for answer?

Yet Jesus asks Peter this question two more times. He asks Peter if he loves him not because he needs to know, or because he doubts the sincerity of his answer – Jesus knows Peter better than anyone, and he’s fully aware that Peter loves him. Rather, Jesus asks because Peter needs to be assured of his love for Jesus. After all, in John’s Gospel, it’s only been a little while since Peter let his friend down in a pretty big way – and at a very crucial moment – by denying that he even knew Jesus, his friend. And he didn’t deny Jesus only once, but three times in a single night. This was not a friend-of-the-year moment, and we know how badly Peter feels about his behavior. In Matthew’s account of the Passion, we learn that, following his third denial, “[Peter] went out and began to weep bitterly.”

But Jesus isn’t trying to rub salt in the wound. Quite the opposite: he’s letting Peter know that their friendship is still intact, that the two of them are still okay. Jesus accepts that in any relationship there are bound to be moments of selfishness and hurt feelings. Knowing Peter as well as he does, he even tried telling him this was going to happen. “I know how you are, Peter,” we can hear Jesus saying, “and when the pressure’s on later, you’re going to panic and say something hurtful, even though I know you aren’t really going to mean it.”

In this intensely intimate moment between friends, where Jesus and Peter finally have an opportunity to talk alone for the first time since Maundy Thursday, the wounds of the past begin to be healed. In contrast to the three denials, Jesus gives Peter the chance to state his love for him three times, even though Peter, true to form, initially fails to recognize this as an act of healing and is, instead, quite hurt. This is, for me, the most difficult part of the passage. It’s the part that reminds me that being loved hurts as much as it heals – and that being loved can be one of the most difficult things in the world, especially when I feel it coming from someone I don’t believe I deserve to receive it from.

During my lectio with this passage, I imagined Jesus staring directly into Peter’s eyes, questioning him in a steady, but gentle, voice, almost as if saying, “Peter, I know you love me. Please forgive yourself and move past this with me by taking care of those entrusted to me by the One Who Sent Me. I need you to do this now, and I know you will do it well, because you know what it’s like to feel. Follow me.”

In this moment Jesus extends to Peter the surest sign of love there is: Mercy. It’s the same loving mercy Jesus wills for each of us, whether we’re always able to believe it or not. There’s never an “I told you so” or “How could you have done what you did” or “You’re going to have to prove you’re sorry before I’ll ever be able to trust you again.” No, only mercy. Jesus says to Peter and to each of us, “I know you’re not perfect, and I love you every bit as much as I always have. Every. Single. One. Of. You.”

And so, after cooking a meal for Peter and the others (another sure sign of love almost any of us can relate to) and sharing a heart-to-heart with him, Jesus entrusts the well-being of the nascent Church to Peter with a clear example of just how he expects him – and us – to go about “tending his sheep.” Love them, nurture them, forgive them, and be merciful.

Jesus, being the true friend he was to Peter, did not mince words about how difficult this was going to be, or about the fate he would eventually meet. The same would prove to be true for Paul, who himself would later be called by Jesus and accepted by the apostles through a particularly extraordinary show of mercy, and who would then join Peter in feeding and tending the flock, even at the eventual cost of his own life.

Both apostles were invited – as all of us are – to give up control of their own lives and destinies out of love for Christ and those beloved of Christ – that is, everyone. This was no summer fling; this was the deepest, truest kind of love the likes of which we can only catch glimpses of this side of Paradise, but which nevertheless stirs each of our hearts to care for others – those we know, and those we don’t – preparing and sharing a meal where there is hunger, extending mercy where there is shame and despair, and welcoming all we encounter along the path of following in the Way.

I pray that each of us, following in the example of Peter and Paul, will embrace Jesus’ invitation to love, and feel ourselves loved by, God, forgiving ourselves and one another, feeding and tending this big, wounded, wonderful flock – and always with gentleness and mercy.

May peace and all that is good be with each of us and those we love today and always. Amen.

Sunday, June 25, 2023

Proper 7 A - June 25, 2023

Holy Cross Monastery, West Park, NY

Br. Josep Martinez-Cubero, OHC

The Fourth Sunday after Pentecost (Proper 7), June 25, 2023

 
Genesis 21:8-21
Romans 6:1b-11
Matthew 10:24-39
 

The desert monastics tell the story of Abba John who prayed to God to take away his passions so that he could become free of inner turmoil. Abba John reported to his spiritual elder, “I now find myself in total peace.” His spiritual elder said to him, “Really? Well, in that case, go and beg God to stir up warfare within you again, for it is by warfare that the soul makes progress.”

Today’s lectionary calls us to spiritual warfare, to choose between what is our will for God and what is God’s will for us. We are invited to hear the voice of God calling to us to make right choices in the midst of the confusion and the chaos of this world, and the chaos we manage to create in ourselves because of our blind self-interest. A blind self-interest presented so very well in the story we heard from Genesis. There are big choices to be made, important choices. And Abraham, the one chosen by God to make them, says he is listening to God when he clearly can’t distinguish God’s voice from his own. And his wife Sarah’s motive is not to do the will of God, but to see that God does hers!

Abraham says he is listening to God, who tells him to listen to Sarah and “send Hagar out”, meaning out to die in the desert! Sarah’s jealousy and greed drive her to wield her power over Hagar. It is her position of privilege that leads them to cast Hagar and Ishmael out. And one thing I know about God is that God does not entitle us to use our power against the powerless just because we can. God calls us to be strong in the Lord, and not in our own power, desire, or privilege! And though the story tells us that Abraham is distressed about “sending Hagar out,” well, he does, regardless of her innocence, and regardless of the child. He gives in to a false sense of peace rather than facing the cowardice that stops him from making the choice that is just for both, Sarah and Hagar, let alone Ishmael and Isaac. And he blames his choice on God!

Hagar becomes the one who has lost everything, the refugee, and the mother desperate to save her child. Her story is repeated over and over again with the more than 89 million people around the world who have been forced to flee their homes, among whom 27 million are refugees, and around 41 per cent of whom are under the age of 18. That‘s right! Children perish on a daily basis, and parents mourn in their helplessness to protect them. For millions, the story is not that God has heard the voice of the child and will make a great nation of them! For millions that story is that they will perish. And many wonder where is God? And God asks us: “Where are you??”

Hagar’s story is also repeated here in the United States through national laws and policies that have created groups of expendable people, many of them children and single parents, whose well-being seems to be of no concern when law and policy makers, representing us, make decisions designed to protect our systems of consumption, consumerism, and never-ending desire for profit at the huge cost to the majority of people, not only here in the US, but around the entire world. So, this morning’s story from Genesis may seem old and outdated, but it really is as new as today’s newspaper. And it is not a story about holiness or listening to the voice of God. It is a story about sin and calling upon God to justify it. Discerning what is the voice of God from all the other voices around us takes a lot of spiritual effort. And it can often feel like spiritual warfare.

Jesus’ call in today’s Gospel lesson is a challenging one: “I have not come to bring peace,” Jesus says, “but a sword.” If you are like me, you read that kind of statement from Jesus and think: “Well, I’m confused! Aren’t you supposed to be the Prince of Peace?” I struggled with this one until it finally dawned on me. Jesus’ peace is not about making sure everyone is happy or being careful not to ruffle any feathers. It’s not about keeping the peace, but about making peace. It is the kind of peace that can be dangerous and, for Jesus and many of his earliest followers, would bring about the sword from those who found his peace threatening. Jesus’ peace will end up causing divisions, even among close family members and friends. It is the kind of peace achieved only when there is justice. And as we know too well today, justice does not always win the seat of power. So, Jesus’ peace is the peace possible when things covered up are uncovered and secrets eventually become known. And we should never fear those who will lash out at us for bringing truth to the light and proclaiming Jesus’ good news from the housetops. Jesus’ call is a call to do, not what the world expects, but what God expects. It is a call to be prophets of the Most High.

“Nothing is covered up that will not be uncovered” says Jesus. It was Sarah and Abraham who wanted Hagar sent out. It was not God. God rescued Hagar and Ishmael from Abraham and Sarah’s selfish and sinful hand. When we read the Holy Scriptures truly fundamentally, we see example after example of the human propensity to call upon God to justify our sin. God’s call is always to “do justice, love mercy, and walk humbly with God”. God’s call in never for oppression or violence or bigotry or sexism or homophobia or ecological devastation or disregard for the poor! God’s will is about love, and care, and mercy, and justice, and community, and compassion. That is the will of God! So, Jesus calls us to make choices, to take a stand for what is right, and to work to change what is wrong. It is only through this spiritual warfare that our souls can make the progress needed to abide in God’s love. And for those who don’t feel ready, I leave you with the words of Ronald Rolheiser:

“Not even Jesus found ‘the ready.’ Jesus called Nathaniel… Nathaniel lacked openness. Nathaniel wasn’t ready. Jesus called Philip… Philip lacked simplicity. Philip wasn’t ready. Jesus called Simon, the Zealot… Simon lacked non-violence. Simon wasn’t ready. Jesus called Andrew…Andrew lacked a sense of risk. Andrew wasn’t ready. Jesus called Thomas…Thomas lacked vision. Thomas wasn’t ready. Jesus called Judas…Judas lacked spiritual maturity. Judas was definitely not ready. Jesus called Matthew…Matthew lacked a sense of social sin. Matthew wasn’t ready. Jesus called Thaddeus…Thaddeus lacked commitment. Thaddeus wasn’t ready. Jesus called James the Lesser…James lacked awareness. James wasn’t ready. Jesus called James and John, the sons of thunder… James and John lacked a sense of servanthood. James and John were not ready. Jesus called Peter, the Rock…Peter lacked courage. Peter was not ready. The point, you see, is that Jesus doesn’t call the ready. Jesus calls the willing.” ¡Que así sea en el nombre del Padre, del Hijo y del Espíritu Santo! ~Amen+